Buong araw kong pinag-isipan ang sinabi ni Saint. Kung lilipat kami ng bahay ay kailangan bati na kami nina Odette kapag nakaalis na ako dito. Hindi ako pwedeng umalis na hindi kami nagkakaayos. Pero hindi ako sigurado kung kakausapin nila ako...
I don't know why Savienna did that...naiinis ba siya saakin? Pero grabe naman ang ginawa niya at agad niyang napatalikod ang mga tanging kaibigan ko saakin. Should I be angry at her? Pero naawa talaga ako sa kalagayan niya nyayon, Mother's visit made her lose her own mind.
I'm afraid that I'll trigger something inside her and be a psycho again. I sighed. Maybe I'll just wait few more days to talk to Savienna at kina Odette. Buong araw din akong hindi pinansin ni Psalm, and I don't even want to discuss anything with him. Ayokong maniwala na isa siya sa gustong tumapos saakin, he's been a great guys and he accompanied me when I'm lonely.
"Hey baby, you're spacing out.." nabalik ang tingin ko kay Saint na ngayon ay nakakunot na ang noo at nakatitig saakin.
Andito kasi kami ngayon sa library, it's free time. At ito ang unang beses na makasama ko si Saint sa loob ng campus. Mabuti nalang talaga at wala masyadong bumibisita sa library at walang nakakakita saamin ngayon.
"Sorry, Saint. I am just thinking about something..." Mahina kong sabi. He nodded at me and stared at his laptop again.
I looked at my book again and continued what I am reading. Pero hindi ko talaga magawang maunawaan ang binabasa ko dahil naisip ko na naman ang laban ni Saint mamayang gabi. That made my heart clenched at agad. ng nanubig ang aking mga mata.
I don't care if I am too emotional but Saint is making me super worried. Napahikbi nalang ako at nakita ko ang agad na pag-angat ng ulo ni Saint saakin at dali-dali siyang napapunta sa tabi ko.
"What is happening baby? Why are you crying? Did something happen?" Naguguluhan niyang tanong habang nakatitig saakin, napatingin ako sakanya at hindi ko na natiis and i went closer to him and hugged him very tight.
Alam kong nagulat siya sa ginawa ko pero agad din niya akong niyakap pabalik and caressed my hair.
"What happened huh? Why did you suddenly cry?" tanong ni Saint saakin.
"Nag-aalala ako sayo Saint...pano kung may mangyari sayo mamaya? I don't want you gone Saint.." I said between my sobs. He chuckled a bit.
"Don't worry baby, your Saint is stronger than them. I'll comeback without a single scratch on my body." Tss. He is so self-assured!
"You don't know Saint, 13 sila lahat. They are also trained like you, they are also a mafia boss like you...talo ng marami ang malakas Saint." Nag-aalala kong sabi. Saint just smiled at me and kissed my forehead.
"Please Saint... be safe. I can come with you..." I suggested agad siyang napabitaw sa yakap ko at napatingin ng diretso saakin.
"The organization don't know my face Saint..." I said. Tama naman, ang alam ko ay hindi pa talaga sila nakakakita saakin except nalang siguro sa mga taong gustong tumapos saakin ay may hint na kung ano ang hitsura ko.
"No, baby you can't. I won't allow you." Matigas niyang sabi.
"I want to make sure you're okay Saint. I want to be with you, I want to see yoy fighting them..." Pagpupumilit ko, Saint shut his eye hard at napatingin ulit saakin gamit ang hindi nakatago niyang mata.
"No, Klea. It's my duty to protect you at kung isasama kita it's like I am already giving you up with those mafias." Agad akong napailing.
"What your thinking is so wrong Saint. I am not there to fight, I am there to be with you. I just want to see if are you really capable of protecting me...because if not...ㅡ" I paused. His eyebrows shot up dahil sa paghinto ko sa sasabihin ko.
"If not?" He traced. Should I say it? Pero baka magalit siya saakin at mas lalo niya pa akong hidni payagan. But...I can't lie! Not infront of Saint!
I sighed. "If not...I'll join the underground school just to help you..." I saw how his eyes went blank, as in no emotion at all. He looked at me with those eyes at agad akong kinabahan.
"I won't let you do that." Maagap niyang sabi.
"But why? Because I don't have the talent or the skills? Am I not capable of protecting myself?" Why is he doing this to me? I am just doing this to protect myself! So that I could help him in some time! Pero parang ayaw pa niyang tulungan ko siya...
"You have the skills and the talent of being a mafia, Klea. But I can't allow you to become like that, I can't let you kill." Kill. Is it that really bad? Pero bakit niya ginagawa? If it's bad then nobody should do that, then no one has the right to kill.
"Please Klea, please understand your situation. If the mafia bosses find out about you entering in underground school then all of my sacrifices just protect you will be all useless." He has a point.
"But I can't just watch you fighting for my own life! That is my life, I should be the one fighting for it."
"You really want to go?" He asked and I nodded.
"Then I'll be the one to teach you."
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sorry for very late update.
