The Secret Spy

Chapter Forty-Four

Y/N POV

After I got done brushing my teeth, I went downstairs right away

I went to the kitchen but before I could get to it my father stopped me

"I see you got grounded." He said

I just ignore him

"Your just like me. Gets into trouble. Sneaking off without no one permission." He said

"I am nothing like you!" I said going up to his ugly face

"Oh really. Ever since your were little, you were a bratty child! You wanted everything to yourself! Just like me! You just don't realize it! You think your just like your mother, but really your not!" He said yelling into my face

"So next time, watch that pitted attitude of yours." He said

He walked away and I went to the kitchen

I looked around and there was no knife

Then there was the butter knife. I grabbed it and sharpen it

It was perfect. People barely use a butter knife

I putted the butter knife carefully into my pocket and I was about to leave when Narcissa was in the door way

"What are you doing with that butter knife?" She asked

"Uhhhh I-" I said not knowing what to say

"You what?" She said

"I need it tooooo, paint!" I said finally coming up with something

"Yea. I need it to paint." I said

"But why a butter knife?" She asked

"The texture is good and I decided to use it, to paint." I said lying

"Alright. Go to your bedroom." She said

"Yea ma'am." I said

I rushed up to my bedroom

I slammed the door and went to the bathroom and locked the door

I was out of breath

I went and sat down on the toilet with the top closed

Closing my eyes would be much better and easier to do

I'm afraid but maybe I could look badass with the scar without no one knowing

I putted the butter knife on my arm. I continue closing my eyes

I scratch it

I was trying my best not to scream

When I opened my eyes, I had a big scar. There was blood all over the floor, my legs, and my hands

I had tears in my eyes

It scratched it right where the mark was

I started to breathe heavily

I didn't want to have a panic attack. Why now

I tried to calm down little by little. Trying to breathe at the normal speed 

After a while of trying to calm down, I finally calmed down

I washed my hands

I had to clean all the blood off the floor and my leg

After I got clean, I walked out of the bathroom and hid the butter knife 

I put on long sleeves so no one could see

I had to make sure it wasn't see through

Good thing it wasn't