The call boy ( The Red Phone Society)

farewell letter

are you sure yongi? It will be several months where you will not be able to have contact with anyone, I will not even be able to see you

- Tae, it's the only way I have to go back to being a normal person, I need to go into that place where they can detoxify my body from alcohol and drugs and my soul .. I can't ask you to wait for me, I can't promise that I'll go out changed, but at least I will try and if the day I get out of there you are there maybe then I can offer you what you deserve

I will be waiting as long as it takes, I will always be waiting for you

He begins to pack his clothes in a brown suitcase while my tearful eyes help to fold one of his shirts, I fold the fabric over and over as I cry silently knowing that maybe this is our last time together, he stays looking at me with his straight face and raising an eyebrow at the sight of me folding my shirt over and over again

- tae , Kid , How many times do you plan to fold the same shirt?

In that suitcase you take a part of me with you, don't you understand? maybe this is the last time i see you

- If this is our last night then we could spend it together in bed, but this time not like we used to before, this time I won't hurt you, this time I'll just make love to you

His words are crystals burying in my heart, I let go of the shirt and run to him, hugging him tightly, to my surprise he wraps me in his arms and for the first time I feel affection in that hug, for the first time he simply pulls me against his body and I listen his breathing

- forgive all the damage and pain that I cause you, forgive that I never knew how to see what I had in front of my eyes, I do not deserve your love, much less your body

We have both been very broken and damaged but now we will heal, tonight we will start again

I kiss him and he kisses me, without violence, adapting to this new way of showing affection, my hands caress his body while his are tangled in my hair, but this time they do not pull him with force as in the past, but pass his fingers delicately like caresses

- I have never told you Tae but you are beautiful

our mouths come together in a fistint way, this time there are no bites or blood, no blows, or pain, this time it is as if it were his first time, he looks vulnerable to me, his hands are cold

are you OK yongi?

I'm nervous tae, I know we've spent many nights together, that we know our bodies, but this time I can't help feeling like this, I have never been able to show love without violence

I take his hand and direct him to the bed where my kisses assault his neck and my hands begin to remove the clothes he is wearing, this time I am the one who takes the reins of the moment and he is like a scared young man, his eyes will go wide. pleasure, my hands travel over her immaculate and white skin trying to memorize every line, every mole, every mark

we make love for the first time because before it was only rough and unbridled sex, this time our moans were only of pleasure, this time every trembling of my body was the product of ecstasy and not fear

-Tae, what I feel is too intense, I can't hold back anymore, I think I'm going to come

This time I am not on my knees with my mouth open waiting for his discharge, this time we both look into each other's eyes as our orgasm forms, our bodies together reach climax and without separating they stay together while we catch our breath

- thanks tae, thanks for letting me feel this

I want you to remember that I will be waiting for you, just go and heal so that when you leave we can make a life together

- You know I'm not a man of promises, but I want you to know that I will never forget you tae

After taking a shower, everything is ready for his departure, he takes the suitcase while my eyes cannot contain the tears, he gives me one last kiss on the forehead and goes out the door to get in the car that will take him to the rehabilitation center , I say goodbye to him while I press my lips, he just looks at me through the window giving me his half-side smile and disappearing on the horizon

when entering the house I can only cry with all my might, the emptiness is too great, my sobs are heard as an echo, it has left, it has gone, and I feel that I am going to die if the ... on the salt table there is a letter, I take it and read it while I wipe the tears from my eyes

"When I remember all the horrible things I did, I just want to end my life, but then your eyes have always begged me to keep fighting ... tae, child, thank you for giving me what I have never deserved, in the room I have left a briefcase with money, I don't want you to have to answer that red phone ever again, the world is full of people  like me who are only hurting creatures like you, quit your job and look for something that makes you happy, it's enough money for you to live without problems, you cannot stay in the house because sooner or later my father's men will find you there, and I don't want you to be near those people, the further you are from my father and his world, the less danger you will run; live, you have A whole future ahead, be happy for both of us and please don't waste your time waiting for me ... I don't want you to spend time clinging to an illusion of perhaps impossible things , if life wants us to meet again, we will, if   I come back and I can not find you, I will only feel happy to know that you advanced towards your dreams "