The call boy ( The Red Phone Society)

Save me

I've been sleeping for days, feeling terrible, liquor and drugs don't help me stop thinking about all the horrible things I've done, I dial the number with a shaking hand, ring and before i hangs up I hear Tae on the other side,  his voice always has the same slow tone, for some strange reason before I say a word he knows it's me

-mr yongi ... are you?  I was waiting for your call, please tell me that you are fine

boy, i haven't been well for a long time i stopped being good since i was almost a child ... i need to see you i need someone to get me out of this damn darkness

-Tell me where are you , I will go to see you, I swear I will not tell anyone that I am going to meet you, it is more if my friends knew, they would surely stop talking to me

I will send you the address, tae if you tell someone where I am I will kill you with my own hands

-yongi you have not understood that I love you, that if something happens to you I will not bear it

I hang up immediately, it is so strange for me to hear those words, to hear that someone told me that he loves me is almost an abomination for me, how can he say that he loves me if he knows that I am a monster, I take a hot bath trying to remove  from my body the disgusting smell of liquor and cigarettes, I change my clothes but the mirror image does not lie, I look terrible, the dark circles under my eyes and my pale color along with the occasional purple that I have made of hitting myself against the  walls

a disaster that's what I am, in a matter of an hour they knock on the door, I open and see his tall figure in front of me, his hair has grown and now it falls deep over his eyes, he is wearing a white t-shirt and a black jean,  as beautiful as ever, Tae

- yongi , are you ok?

He asks it and throws himself into my arms with force taking me by surprise, he hugs me and I can feel him sob on my shoulder, no one has ever cried like this for me, I seize him from my body and look at him

I've been better I have to admit, but I haven't died yet so stop crying

- I have been very worried about you, I did not know if you were well, there are many people looking for you to hurt you

I know, I know that Jungkook has almost an army looking for me to kill me, I know they got married, I know they will never forgive me

- what you did was something ... horrible

I know, I have no excuse for what I did, I have already told you before I have no salvation, I am a show, they made me this disgusting being that I am today

- they?  who are they and what did they do to you, tell me, try to tell me, trust me

They were disgusting men, I can still smell their disgusting smell, I was very young, too young to pay for my father's guilt, they wanted to take revenge on my father, they tortured me, they raped me until I was unconscious again and again, He listens to me while the tears run uncontrolled from my eyes and his, I had never told anyone what it was, I had never had anyone willing to carry that weight with me, he hugs me, caresses my face trying to  clean my tears, his long fingers caress my face and his eyes fill with a look that crosses my soul, I hug him and for the first time I release all the crying that I have saved, I cannot stop it, a cry so strong that it is heard in  the whole room, I wet his shirt with my tears, I'm crying, like a scared child and he hugs me as if it were my refuge

- calm calm, you are safe, they damaged you but you are not going to let them ruin you

You do not understand that I am already ruined, I no longer have salvation tae

- let me save you, I do not care how much darkness you have let in your soul, let me fill you with light, give me the possibility to love you, to love you, yongi, I love you with all your lights and your shadows

This man must be crazy, love me, is that possible?  But at this moment he He he is the only thing I have left, this boy who has always is  there for me, who I have hurt, he is the one who is by my side today telling me that he loves me

Forgive me too for everything I've done to you, I'm sick tae

- We are going to seek help, I know that it is difficult to give up drugs and liquor, but not impossible, I will not leave you alone, from today we are going to fight together to recover the man that you really are.

-tae, and if after all I don't stay with you?

Then I will know that even if you are not with me, you can be happy and make others happy, that will be enough

yongi you have to apologize to jimin and jungkook, you have to do everything possible to repair the damage you did to them

- they will never forgive me

Maybe not, but you will know that you did everything possible to make it so