Moving In - A Vinnie Hacker Story

Moving In S2 Pt24 - See You Soon

V: One month, right?
Y/n: Hopefully it's only a month. I may need more than that.
V: Y/n...
Y/n: Vinnie. If I were selfish, I would stay right here and force you to be with me through all of this. I would force you to never leave my side.
V: It's not selfish if that's what I want, too.
Y/n: This isn't easy for me, Vin. We're both fragile and I don't want to drag you down with me. So, I just need some time.
V: But you promise to come back?
Y/n: I promise.

V: Will you be here in the morning?
Y/n: Yes. I'll say goodbye. But it's not "goodbye," it's "see you soon."
V: Right, see you soon.

He sounded deflated. I hated to do this to him, but I realized that it's not just that the sex isn't right; it's that I'm not right.

I'm not myself.

Vinnie is with me for me and if I can't be that person, I don't want him to have to deal with that. It's unfair.

I know you might think that it is unfair to leave him, too. Of course you do because I'm you. But, if I stay here right now, it's only gonna get worse. We'll surely break up if I stay. I can't handle that. He can't handle that.

V: Can I hold you tonight? I don't know when I'm gonna be able to do that next, so can I please hold you tonight?
Y/n: Yes, of course you can, V.
V: You won't run away?
Y/n: I'm not running away. And I hope you don't think that this is me running away from our problems. I just know that I have to work on myself before we talk this all out. I don't want to blame you for something that is not your fault.
V: But it is my fault. My one job is to make you happy.
Y/n: I can't give you that responsibility, Vin. It's too much. You make me so happy, happier than I have ever been in my life. Sure, we argue. Sure, we disagree. But, you don't even understand that extent to which I love you.
V: Then why are you leaving me?
Y/n: It's temporary. I promise you that it is temporary. I'm not gonna pull a Nessa on you. I'm not gonna be with anyone else. That would defeat the purpose of what I'm doing.

He looked confused. Hell, I was confused too. I don't know what I'm doing. I just know that I have to do it.

V: You're not gonna be with anyone else?
Y/n: Absolutely not. I only want you.
V: Okay. Then I can wait a month.
Y/n: Okay. Now, c'mere.

He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. He didn't want to let go. And he didn't have to. Not tonight anyhow.

I drifted off and dreamt of what life would be like without him. It was a nightmare. I felt so alone and at a loss. I felt like I lost him.

When I woke up in the morning, still in Vinnie's arms, I knew that I hadn't lost him. It was just a nightmare. When I came back, he would be here waiting for me. He would be here.

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V: You're all packed?
Y/n: Yea...
V: Do you want me to drive you there?
Y/n: Vin...
V: What?
Y/n: It's hard enough to leave you now. I won't be able to close the door if you drive me there.
V: I wouldn't be opposed to that.
Y/n: Vinnie, I can't. I would invite you in. Shit, I would probably ask you to move in with me. Then this would never work.
V: Again, I wouldn't be opposed to that.

He was making this so hard for me. But, I had to. I'm almost there. All I have to do is make it out of the door... alone.

V: Are you bringing this all out of the car and into the apartment yourself? I'm your mover boy, you can't do it without me!
Y/n: Vinnie... please.
V: Just let me do this. I promise you that I'll leave when the last box goes in. I won't touch your desk.
Y/n: I-
V: Please.
Y/n: Okay. Let's go.