Moving In - A Vinnie Hacker Story

Moving In S2 Pt23 - Touch

There is always gonna be another mountain and you'll do everything you can to make it move. And it is an uphill battle that sometimes you have to lose. But, it doesn't matter how fast you get there or what's waiting on the other side, because it's the climb. Love is the climb. And you have to trust yourself and the person you love enough to keep climbing, despite how hard it seems.

I round my way into the driveway, seeing a confused Y/n, standing at the door.

V: I made a pitstop on the way.
Y/n: Clearly, you were ten minutes behind me.
V: But, I got you something.
Y/n: You didn't need to do that, Vin.
V: Well, the fact that you're calling me Vin and not Vinnie or, God forbid, Vincent, is a good sign. So, I'm glad I did it. Here, come look.

She walks over to me with an inquisitive look on her face. She smells it and takes a deep breath in. Her face lights up as she smells her favorite treat. That's how I know it was all worth it.

Y/n: Strawberry shortcake!
V: I saw the store open, so I had to go get it.
Y/n: Thank you! I love you so much!!

We both realized what she said and took a step back. I love you so much. I know it's true. She knows it's true. We both know that the other knows it's true. As Mickey Milkovich would say, "we both know what we know that we know," or something like that.

We're only taken aback by it because we don't know what it means anymore. We don't know what we are. Did we break up today? Did we just fight? Are we still together? We don't know.

We walk into the house and sit down on my bed. The lady at the bakery gave me paper plates, forks, and napkins, so I didn't have to stop in the kitchen.

We stay in silence, eating our early morning dessert, looking at random things in the room. We are avoiding the conversation that we need to have. We wanted to sleep first, but in order to do that we had to talk a little bit. So, I clear my throat.

V: Um... I know we wanted to wait, but I feel like we have t-
Y/n: I agree. Only a little bit. Just the basics.
V: Okay. So....
Y/n: I already said it, so I can say it again. I love you, V. One fight isn't gonna make me not love you, no matter how explosive it is.
V: I don't even think you realize what it does to me to hear you say that. I love you so much, I feel like I can't live without you. It scares me because I know that couples fight and spend some time apart or mad, but I can't handle that. I went through hell tonight without you.

She gazes down at the floor and sucks in a breath. She looks like she's in pain. I feel a pang in my heart because I know I caused it.

V: Please look at me.
Y/n: Vin, I went through so many emotions today before we even had that fight and after it, I really felt like I lost you.
V: But, you didn't. And honestly, I'm glad you walked away when you did. I was out of control and out of line. I never should have spoken to you like that.
Y/n: Thank you. I appreciate that, but it wasn't just you. I was so close to losing my shit, I had to leave. Vinnie, it scared me. I scared myself. What would have happened if we kept going?
V: Don't worry about that. We didn't. We stopped. You stopped. You saved us because you're stronger than I ever will be. So don't even think about the "what-if's." Just let it be.

She looks back down at the ground again. She drops her empty plate and fork on the floor and kicks it towards the trash can. I do the same and situate myself to face her.

V: Please... look at me.

She tilts her head up with tears pooling in her eyes. I know she's holding back a sob. I can see it in her face and how her eyebrows are betraying her by creasing inward.