A night of mistake turned my life into a series of turmoil. A night when alcohol was mixed with suspicion, pain, and even...love. Mali man o tama. But hope was still breathing life in me knowing that everything is just temporary. Umaasa akong hind...
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CHAPTER 38: ETERNITY
ENYO'S POV
Umangat ang kamay ko para kumatok pero bago pa iyon dumikit sa pintuan ay binawi ko iyon. Pakiramdam ko buong katawan ko ang nanlalamig habang nakatayo ako sa pintuan ng flat ni Stone. This is silly. I shouldn't be feeling this way. It's just Stone.
Except I don't think that there's a "just" when it comes to him or our situation right now. Dalawang buwan lang naman kami hindi nagkita pero pakiramdam ko hindi ko alam kung paano ko siya haharapin.
I mean who could blame me? The last few times that we've seen each other things didn't end good. It's just normal to hesitate even though a huge part of me wants to hope that we'll be okay. But I'm not exactly a poster child when it comes to keeping a relationship.
I'm used to everything ending badly where my heart will feel like it's been ripped out of me. With Stone I was blindsided... because in the first place I never thought we will go there. That there will be an us. When that happened, I was too happy that I ignored the things that we should have talked about in the first place. I didn't want to burst our safety bubble but eventually it did and we both got hurt.
"Hindi bubukas iyan kung tititigan mo lang."
Nilingon ko ang nagsalita at pinaikot ko ang mga mata ko nang makita ko si Hera. She's in her workout clothes and I can see her small bump already. "Tigilan mo ako buntis at baka hindi kita matantiya."
"Sus. Isumbong kita sa asawa ko."
"Isumbong mo. Baka ihagis ko pa iyon sa bulkan."
"Uy 'wag naman. Mahal ko 'yon eh."
Nalukot ang ilong ko na ikinatawa niya lang. Sa pagkagulat ko ay lumapit siya sa akin at bigla na lang akong niyakap. It was quick but when she let go her eyes are smiling with her lips.
"What was that for?" I asked.
"Hindi namin alam kung bakit ka umalis. You know those brothers. They will never talk about it if they don't want to. Hindi rin naman alam ng kapatid mo kung bakit ka talaga umalis. Ang alam niya lang may problema kayo ni Stone." Sinubukan kong magsalita pero nagpatuloy siya. "We don't need to know but it doesn't take a genius to see that it's not because of a small problem. Sana lang nakausap kita bago ka umalis. Kasi noong panahon na ako iyong may kailangan ng kausap, binigay mo 'yung kailangan ko kahit hindi ko hinihingi sa'yo."
"Hera..."
"Sometimes it's harder to let go than to stay and keep fighting. It takes a lot of guts to be able to leave. It's something that I couldn't do."
"I didn't stay away that long."
"You would have though if it's needed, right?"
Hindi ako kaagad nakapagsalita dahil tama siya. With Ender or not... I don't think I'll be able to go back this quick. Kasi binitawan ko man ang parte ng buhay ko na iyon o hindi ay hindi naman mababago no'n kung ano ang naging problema.
