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We started 7th year three weeks ago .
Maybe because it's our last year at Hogwarts it isn't that hard and our assignments are starting to become less and less gradually.I was sitting on the couch laying my head on Sirius' shoulder . He was reading and i was trying to sleep until .
Someone got into my mind . Regulus . I sat up and put my hand on my temple and scrunched my nose .
'I need to see you Scarlett , now'I opened my eyes . All our friends were in the common room and it was past curfew . It would look suspicious if i went out now alone but he said now .
I stood up . "Where are you going?", Sirius asked . "My ravenclaw friend told me to bring her her book because she forgot it with me and she has homework to do .", i said .
Thank god i had a book in hand .
I walked out of the common room and i walked through the halls til i saw Regulus leaning on a wall .I looked at him and he looked at the ground like the thing he was going to say was going to shatter me.
"What's wrong ?", i asked . He looked up straight into my eyes . "Sirius.", he said and gulped like saying his name is just enough to sore his throat.
"Yeah?", i said waiting for an answer . I was getting anxious . "He threatened to kill him .", Regulus said . I shook my head. "Why why?", i asked and started shaking .
"But if you leave him and stay away from him and your friends he won't do anything to them.", Regulus added . "Why that doesn't make any fucking sense .", i said with tears streaming down my face .
"I know .", he said looking at the ground . "But if you don't do it , he won't hesitate for a second to kill him.", Regulus said .
"But i love him Regulus .", i said .
"If you love him do it .", he said .
"Stay away from your friends as well.", he said and tears streamed uncontrollably."Everything is just falling on my head like heavy rocks waiting for me to end .", i sighed . I stood up dropped the book to the floor and went back to the common room wiping my tears.
I entered the common room and they all looked at me . "Sirius.", i called .
"Yeah.", he replied . "Come.", i said and we went to my dorm . The faster i do it , the safer he will be .He shut the door behind him and he stood looking at me . Scarlett don't cry if you do he will know that there is something wrong .
"Yeah love .", he said and tried kissing my cheek but i took a step backwards .
It shattered my heart . He looked at me with defeat in his eyes ."Sirius i-.", i said trying not to cry .
He nodded his head waiting for me to talk . "I don't want to do this anymore.", i said and my heart broke even more .He laughed . "Tell me this is a joke .", he said laughing . I looked at the ground fighting the urge not to cry.
"Come on Scarley tell me it's a joke .", he said but without laughing this time .
"Tell me it's a fucking joke please .", he said with a cracked voice ."I don't love you anymore .", i whispered trying not to say it loud because if i said it loud it would break him even more . I looked at him . Tears streamed down his face.
"But i loved you.. i- .", he stuttered . He brushed his fingers through his hair trying not to lose his temper .
"Why do you do that ?", he yelled .
"Why?", he whispered ."I said it .", i said looking at the ground . He pulled my chin upwards .
"Say it in my face and if you said it i will leave you , forever .", he said .I love him . I will always love him .
For eternity . I have to say it so he'll stay safe . He is the last person i want hurt . He is the last person i want in danger . He is the last person i'd love ."I don't love you anymore.", i said and a tear slipped from my eyes .
He dropped his arms to his side .
He looked at me with tears falling from his eyes . He took off his necklace and let it fall on the floor . The sound of it falling made my heart tear apart ."I hate you Scarlett Hart.", he said opened the door and left . I fell to my knees and cried in my hands . I never thought i'd leave him.
Marlene stormed through the door and slammed it behind her. "Why.", she asked . "Scarlett he is fucking breaking the mirrors , why Scarlett?", she asked .
James and Remus stormed through the door . "What the fuck Scarlett?", they said. I hate what i will say but their safety is above everything in my life , i'd rather die than see their lives in danger because of me .
"Stop acting like you are my fucking friends none of you are .", i yelled .
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Here is me one week after leaving everyone behind . Here is me shattered all over the floors trying to pick my self up but failing miserably.
I sat at the end of the Gryffindor table . Away from all of them and just watched them.
Marlene was laughing at something Remus said , Lily playing with James' cheek , Peter and Mary chatting with smiles on their faces and Sirius sitting staring at his place out of life .
I sat like this every day just watching them , maybe their lives were much better before meeting me .
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I was walking alone through the halls and here she is Morgan . She pushed me to the ground and i fell , i guess not eating made me weaker than i thought .
"You bitch messed everything up but look now he is free , i can have him all to myself .", she said and kicked me right in the rips over and over again .
She messed once and i felt her kick collide with my right arm.My mouth busted , nose bleeding and arm broken . I didn't have the power to fight her . "Always weak , you are nothing.", she said and her boots' sound were far away now .
I tried standing up . I took a hold of the wall next to me and started stumbling til i got to the common room . I entered and all of them were scattered in the common room.
Their laughter stopped when i entered like i'm the sadness that dulls their moments . I stumbled inside and lost hold of the wall next to me and fell to my knees coughing.
They didn't move . None of them moved or even flinched that's when i realized that they hate me . They hate me more than anything .
I stood up again stumbling til i entered my dorm and shut the door behind me .
Marlene was sleeping with Lily and Mary, leaving me shivering at night from how much i cry.~
Sirius"I'm so mad at her I don't even want to know what happened .", Marlene said .
"I don't think she is okay.", Peter said .
Mary entered the common room ."Morgan kicked Scarlett in the ribs and broke her arm.", she said . When she fell to the ground , i wanted to stand up and hold her up , i wanted to fix her injuries, i wanted to give Morgan a lesson but here we are away from each other.
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