ʟᴏᴠᴇ, ᴊɪɴɴɪᴇ ✔

12th August

Dear Joonie,

Well, I guess I'm not so unlucky after all.

Jimin's project partner is Chan and currently all four of us are doing our assignments. I feel like more Jimin and Channie's partner.

Chan is so nice. Baekie's lucky to have him and Chan is lucky to have Baekhyun. They're perfect together.

I think if I wasn't so in love with you, I would have fallen for Chan XD. But he's just a good friend to me, I don't like him in a romantic way.

Why can't I get over you Joonie... :(

I'm trying... But I just can't... I'm sorry...

Okay, let's worry about it later. I'm really not ready to come out.. but the way they are shaming homosexuals is really disgusting.

I've decided that I'm coming out. Even if I get more bullied, I am. I want to encourage the other kids too.

We are, what we are. The heart wants, what the heart wants. We're not people's puppets, we're 'we' and we shouldn't be afraid to live as ourselves.

I'm afraid, but I'm me. A free soul. I do not wish to be a caged bird any longer. I'm a free soul and I'll break my chains.

I don't care how cheesy this sounds, but I can't help but compare myself with a bird. They're so beautiful, yet caged. They're so innocent, yet getting punished, they're so fragile, yet getting abused.

They're going through all of that... just because they are they... I want to be a free bird. I want to break the chains and fly.

Even if my wings are broken, I'll fly. Because I've learnt how to love myself now.

I'm not perfect, but I'm more beautiful than these people will ever be. From my mind.

External beauty doesn't matter at all. At least to me. The world is just hypocritical. We're all humans after all, why does external beauty matter so much when we're going to turn into identical looking skeletons after death?

I'm sorry for this rant...

Thanks for always being there for me Joonie. I love you.

Missing you to death, Monie...

Love,
Jinnie