Traurig

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The razor won't save you from the hurt and the pain

You'll still feel alone

You'll still feel ashamed

The blood calms the moment

The red colors your life

Cause nothing's as good as the cool of the knife

The first time is deceitful

You'll feel better- then worse

You know it was stupid but your thoughts have dispersed

A moment of calm!

A miracle at least

Your mind takes a break, the cut tamed the beast

Or that's what you'll think

Every night since the first

Just cut once a week, it couldn't get worse

But that's the mistake

Thinking you're in control

That's just how it starts

That's how it takes hold

You cry just to cut

You cut just to cry

The secrets and scars become too much to hide

You dread someone seeing

But want someone to know

You don't even think you could ever let go

The razor has won

It has stolen your trust

Your love for the razor has turned into lust

You're not suicidal

You don't want to try

But you wonder, just wonder

What it'd be like to die

But then someone sees!

Someone noticed your cuts!

You think it's all over, but you keep your mouth shut

You'll just blame the cat

Or a trip or a fall

But really you're wishing you could just tell them all

You just want to scream

"Help! Notice my need!"

But you won't, you'll just lie

Then you'll go home and bleed

This could go on for months or possibly years

Then something will change and bring you to tears

It's time to speak up, get help; face your fears

You'll throw out your razors and vow not to cut

You'll reach out for help

You can't do it yourself

It will seem like forever

Be it a day or a month

Since the last lovely time

When you made your last cut

The pathway is long

You may slip once or twice

But that doesn't mean that you're lost to the knife

The scars on your body

The urge in your head

Will be with you long after depression is dead

Although you've recovered, it's become part of you

So don't mind the people that judge you untrue

So learn from what happened

Know you're alive!

And never regret what you did to survive