Traurig

RIP

People think boys don't self-harm

That they don't suffer wanting to cut up their arms

But these people are wrong

Let me tell you of a boy I once knew

He was suffering with depression just like me and you

No one cared to notice he was around

That is why he always wore a frown

He had a hard life getting bullied at school

Because he was gay, they didn't think he was cool

We grew up together

We met when we were three

He always told me he wanted to hang himself from a tree

This boy I loved very much

Was only a Freshman at a school

Where you have to be tough

He walked up to me before we went to class

He told me he loved me and that his suffering won't last

Before I could ask him "What do you mean"

He walked away with a smile that gleamed

The moment class begun

The sound of a gun came from the vents

I knew right then what he had done

The boys just shouted and all the girls shook

I stood up and ran towards the sound

My teacher yelling at me to sit down

There were people lined up outside the boys bathroom

What I saw I cannot describe

But on the walls was written his goodbye

This boy ended his suffering the only way he knew how

He put the gun to his chest and screamed "How about now!"

"Was it worth all your ridiculous fun, all your puns and jokes! Do you like me now that I've got a gun, ready to put a hole in my chest! Am I good enough now! I'm ready to die, waiting for death with no tears in my eye! I'm tired of living in this sinful world, where you're pushed around and beat to death! For being different, not like the rest! Tired of crying everyday! Tired of trying! I'm putting my suffering to an end! Right where it all begun!"

The kids all cried which made no sense

Because no one talked to him they built up a fence

They all laughed in his face

Making him feel like he was a disgrace

Nothing pissed me off more

Then seeing the guy he loved

Watch his tears drip on the floor

I walked up to him and punched him in the face

"Why are you crying!? You were part of this, Chase!"

"He told you he loved you all you did was laugh, told him to go home and kill himself in a bath!"

I will never forget my best friend. Who took his life because of the men

Who treated him poorly for being different

I wish I could tell him that his mother misses him

And that his father took his life because he didn't listen