My Heart Holds Onto You *COMPLETED*

Chapter 4

Brenna's POV

     Dinner was amazing. It was more than I could have ever imagined. But the flat soon got crowded when two little girls walked in, and not long after Tom walked in. I have to admit, he was more beautiful in person, but he looked a bit out of it when he walked in and said hello to us.

    Noah went off to play and Seev was in the kitchen with Nareesha, cleaning up. I walked in and cleared my throat. "I'm just gonna use your bathroom for a minute, I'll be right back." I walked upstairs and looked around at each door.  

     I walked into the first one I saw and it definitely wasn't the bathroom. Tom was sprawled out on the bed and it sounded like he was crying. He looked up at me with tear stained cheeks and red eyes. "I'm sorry, I thought this was the bathroom." He shook his head and sat up, speaking in a low husky voice. "No, it's fine. I got lost the first time I was in this flat, too."  

     I chuckled and slowly walked in. I sat next to Tom on the bed. "Are you alright? I mean, I know we just met and all, and this may be a bit awkward for you to have some random girl trying to comfort you but I'm here if you need someone to talk to." I quickly realized I was rambling on, a thing I do when I get nervous. "I'm sorry, I'm probably not helping at all right now. I'll just shut up and go."  

      I went to stand up but Tom gently grabbed my arm and sat me back down. "It's alright, you're actually helping me get my mind off of things. But um, no, nothing's really okay right now. My girlfriend of almost two years broke up with me, said she couldn't handle me being away all the time but I tried to explain to her that this band is everything to me. She got mad, packed her things, and went back home." He shrugged and looked at the floor. 

     I rubbed his back, trying to make him feel better. "Well Tom, it can be a lot of strain on a relationship when one is always gone, but she also needs to understand where you're coming from. And if she doesn't realize that the band is your main priority and all it's success means the world and more to you, then she's probably not even worth it, if I'm being honest. She should be proud of you for coming so far, you boys really have. And a relationship is supposed to be fifty-fifty, if it's not then chances are it won't work. It's not the end of the world Tom, it may seem like it right now, but if you're the headstrong, tough, amazing guy you make out to be on tv, you can get through this. You can get through just about anything." Okay, where the hell did all of that come from? It almost shocked me that that just came out of my mouth.  

      He looked at me for a moment with his beautiful brown eyes and before I knew it, he embraced me in a warm, tight hug. I never wanted to let go. It was the first time in a very long time that I actually felt loved and wanted. But of course, he doesn't want me. He just met me, just got out of a break up, and I'm a nobody. I'm an eighteen year old girl who works as a maid and is a legal guardian to a four year old. No one would want me and all my baggage.  

     After what seem like forever, we finally let go of each other and he gave me a half hearted smile. "You've helped me more in a matter of five minutes than the boys could have in five days. Thank you so much. And you're right, it's not the end of the world." He jumped up and raised his voice. "I'm Tom fucking Parker, and I'm in The Wanted, I'm doing fucking amazing!"  

     I couldn't help but laugh at his sudden enthusiasm. "Exactly," I said while standing up, "now get back downstairs and associate with people! But first can you show me where the bathroom is, I've been holding it in since I got here." He laughed and pointed me to the bathroom. "Thank you very much, Mr. Tom fucking Parker."  

     He smiled. "And thank you," he trailed off as he tried to remember my name. "Brenna." I helped him out. "Right, Brenna. Beautiful name by the way, matches a beautiful girl," he said as he kissed my cheek and headed downstairs.  

     I couldn't help but blush and smile. Did he really just say that? No Brenna, don't do this. Not again. Remember what happened the last time. I sighed as I made my way to the bathroom and tried to clear my head. I can't have a repeat of the last time. I just can't.