Locked Feelings

Chapter 23 : A Little Break Doesn't Hurt,Right?

Hi! I really want to be more active as much as I can so I thought I'd write another chapter.

    As well,thank you for all your support and do continue reading! 14K means alot and I'm genuinely thankful.Here it goes...

Sterling's POV

  "But what if I can't?" I said. "What if I can't help but to keep loving you."

"Sterl-" She choked and I know her better than anyone that she was on the verge of crying.

"You know what,I'll wait.I'll wait for you even if it takes eternity." I declared and she let out a laugh.

"What did love do to us? Our past selves would be pretty startled by the discovery of our relationship." April smirked,glancing sideways.

"Agreed."

"You and I both know that we need to fully understand what we truly want and what we're sacrificing here." April took my hand, rubbing my thumb slowly but enough to make me feel safe and content with her presence.

    It's not the end, right? This is not the end of us.

"So what does that mean for us? Are we breaking up?" I joked but the joke seems inappropriate for the occasion.I really need to work on my social skills but considering that I'm nice and all...

"No,no.Of course not.After what I did to you 3 years ago,I never want to put you in that situation again,Sterl." April softened up, kissing our now intertwined fingers.

           Yeah, it was a really hard time coping with the pain and pretending that it never happened between us.Blair was personally impressed that I didn't blurted it out to anyone for the past 3 years.

           "Maybe we need a break, a pause on our relationship." April stood up and suggested, my eyes flickered in pain hearing those words.

            "Can't we just continue being like this? I like this and us." I plead, taking her by the waist.She looks away even when I was holding her close.

             "You may like this moment but what about moments where I am forced to hide you and look at you like you're a stranger in a crowded room, forgetting that we were ever partners.It hurts me more than you think,Sterling." April reasoned out and as always she was sensible and right.

              I took a moment before finding the words to speak up.

             "I-I guess you're right for once." I teased and she gasped.

             "Wait,for once?" April lifts one of her eyebrows and crossed her arms, ready to take me on physically and mentally.It was adorably cute of her, taking her size and everything.

              "You're right all the time.April." I nudged and she smiled a little too much.She always loved it when she's right or in control.

             "Trust the process." She reached out and cupped my cheeks, looking right in my eyes.

            "And I trust you." I reciprocate by tilting her chin up and catches her lips with mine, soft but tender.

            We pulled away, reluctantly before we start to get carried away.

        However butterflies ,let me tell you, butterflies every time when I'm with her.

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April POV

         I think this was the right decision that we compromised together and I think this time apart could help me understand what I need to do and what I'm willing to do our relationship.