I Don't Understand.. [Errorink]

Happy Valentines Day

Happy Valentine's Day for the people who celebrate them! ((Cause im not allowed to in my religion–))

So.. i don't think i will make a valentine special, cause i don't have anything in mind. And that means that i don't have any idea for a valentine special. But i've been thinking on making an 'Errorink Valentine's Special' video. But it probably will came out late just by me looking at the time on my country.

No, i don't think i will be revealing my channel. But there is some hint on the art book for the name of my channel. If you know which one is the hint, then im sure you know what is my channel's name. I already reveal my channel on one of the channel i have watched. They have wattpad aswell.

But then again, im not sure if i will be making much video in it cause of my lack of motivation and im pretty busy with.. stuff... But the thing is that im confused on which do i focus on first.

Im not sure you guys will read this information of my life or whatever you say. But im just going to give you guys 4 things that is making me confused. Its all mostly an app, but on every app i tell you is pretty much my dream.

1. Wattpad {Being a writer}

So... Yup, being a writer is my dream. But not my dream job. Just, a dream that i wish it would come true even though it already did. But that's not really the point. I just think that im not really a good writer.

I keep having writer's block in this book. Im not sure if you guys notice it, but this book mostly contain random ideas that i got. And right now i don't have many ideas. My motivation is taking a vacation as my lazyness hits me like a truck would.

My other story that called 'The dolls' is being discontinued or going to be remake in the future cause of reasons... I have one story in my draft, but im not sure if i will publish it cause i think it will be stupid. But i'll try to build up some courage to publish it.

I didnt discontinued this story yet cause of how many people already read this book. And i don't want to leave this book discontinued for that many people. Even though its bad, and its my first book. I don't want to discontinued it yet until i found an idea on how to end this book with you guys being satisfied with it.

2. YouTube {Being a youtuber/gachatuber}

I've always been wanting to be a gachatuber or a youtuber. Making sans AUs videos and putting some of OCs into it too. Making some ships video aswell. But i never had the motivation nor courage to do that. Im trying my best to make at least one video as fast as i can.

Im working on two videos right now, and my storage is getting smaller cause of how many screenshot i took. And those screenshot were mostly to make the animation smooth cause i'll be using some animation movement. But if you are a youtuber, you probably know how hard it is to keep up a channel active.

3. Instagram {Being an artist}

If you are confused on how Instagram will make me an artist. Then its because i post arts there. But my arts is trash like the ones in my art book. Its been pretty long since i last post. I've been trying my best to make a great art. But i don't seem to see all my arts that way, so most of my arts becomes an unfinished art. I don't think i could even count how much unfinished arts i have.

Right now, i still have some unfinished art i want to finish. But not all of my unfinished art. I've been trying to practice my art more by drawing on my brother's skin ((Don't ask, its just fun okay)). But im still not satisfied enough with my art.

I'll be honest. My mind is so messed up right now. Let's say, there is two parts of me that thinks differently. One is saying that my art is stupid, a trash, and something worthless. Which you could call that part of me, 'the negative thoughts'. And another is saying that at least i try, its not stupid, and its good. Which you can call 'the positive thoughts.

But of course my negative thoughts about my art is much more stronger than the positive thoughts. Even my family have been encouraging me that my art is good, but i always think the opposite. Which doesnt help at all.

4. Homeworks/Works from school

I've been getting much more works than the last semester. I got grounded for two days straight on Friday that is two days ago. Now im not grounded anymore.

But the reason i got grounded is because i keep skipping works when i suppose to finish. And my mom only found out one work that i skip. I cant imagine how many days that i will be grounded if she knows how many time i skip homeworks in total.

I've always been focusing on those three stuff above than my homeworks. That why i have skipped many of them.

If i got grounded forever. Than i'll let you guys know that i love you and thank you for supporting me ;^;

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Okay, i'll stop now. My hand is getting tired cause of today. Im going to try and focus on the video im making now. Bye, and have a good day/night! :>