Chapter 17
August 25, 1960
It's been a month since the incident with John. Preludin and alcohol were a dangerous mix for him. Along with the stress from the band, John could become very lethal when intoxicated with the magic potion of alertness. I had been slapped and thrown into a few walls, but nothing ever came close to how he hit me in July. He continued to order me around and talk to me in a way that made me question if he truly did love me deep down.
There were rumors that we were to be moved to The Top Ten Club, the best club in Hamburg. Bruno, the club manager wasn't too happy about this, since we would take all of his business to the other club, but he would just have to get over it. I hoped we moved soon. A better club with a new manager meant better living arrangements.
We had tonight off this week, so me and John went out dancing at the various clubs to spend some time with each other. Stu had tagged along with us since Astrid had gone away with her mother for the week. Stu sat across from us at the table drinking a beer with his sunglasses on. John had his arm around me. He reached in his pocket and popped a couple Preludin into his mouth. I frowned. I had tried several times to get John to stop taking them, but his stubborn mind wouldn't budge. He insisted that he wouldn't be able to go on without them. Even though the other boys indulged in a occasional dose, they still were concerned that John was taking too many. He was on his fourth beer of the evening.
"Mama," he hadn't called me that in a while, "Kiss me."
He had a pleading look in his eye and desperate tone in his voice. I couldn't resist him. I began to plant soft, wet kisses up and down his neck. I saw Stu turn to look away at the dancing crowd. John opened his fifth beer.
I pulled from his neck, "John, do you want to dance?"
"Not now," he replied, taking a swig of beer, "You're not leaving when you just started doing what you're were doing. Don't be a fucking tease."
Stu turned to look at us again ignoring John completely, "I want to dance as well. You could dance with me."
I looked to John for a response, but he rolled his eyes and suddenly didn't seem to care that Stu had asked me to dance. Stu took my hand and led me to the dance floor. We danced to a couple of fast songs that the band played. I hadn't had this much fun in a while. Stuart and I were laughing whilst dancing across from each other. I don't remember the last time I laughed. It made me remember that I really hadn't felt truly happy in a long time, possibly the trip back to Paris in April was the last time. I was so sad nowadays. My relationship was failing, and as much as I tried to fix it, John wouldn't budge with his behavior. I was even getting burnt out on playing music, something that was once my only dream. The leader of the band announced that they were going to slow things down a bit. I started to walk back to the table, but Stu grabbed my wrist.
He pulled me close, "Stay and dance with me. Look at John, he's pissed drunk. There's no telling how many beers he's had."
I began to dance with Stu to the slow song the band was playing. This was supposed to be a date night with John. We had wanted to get away from all of the crazy of our recent lives in Hamburg, and I was dancing with Stu. I was having a great time, just not with John. Stu cared about me. He wanted to make sure I was okay because he saw firsthand how horrible John had been treating me and how depressed I truly was. Stu was my best friend at the end of the day, and the only person who could be an escape from John.
Stuart looked into my eyes, and his face was millimeters from mine. He leaned in a touched his lips to mine softly. Before I could enjoy or pull away, I was being dragged away from Stu.
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