Always

Chapter 87

My fingers drag up his back up to his hair pulling on the roots, a moan escapes his mouth into mine. My body is on top of his rocking on his hips.

"Harry?" I ask.

"Mm... yeah." He says as I pull back from a kiss. His eyes daze onto mine, in a slow persist way.

"I want to." I say and he looks confused so I clarify. "I want to do it." I said and his face expression goes from confused to surprised.

"Really? Are you sure, I thought you were waiting till you got married?" He asks but I can see that he is happy I want to.

"Harry, I've never been so sure. I love you." I say and kiss his neck. It's true thought i don't want to wait until my marriage night. I want to do this with Harry, I love him way to much to not, it will be a new experience, for me individually and for me and Harry as one.

"Are you sure?" He asks again. "This is a big thing, are you positive your ready?" He asks again as I start getting frustrated.

"Yes Harry, I want to do this." I say and he smiles before kissing me again. Im nervous for this, Ive never had sex before let alone really thinking about doing it. I always thought it would be with Dylan on our wedding night. Not in my dorm with Harry. I'm sure about doing this with Harry, I love him. If I regret this later, I'll just think back to how happy I am with him. I want to lose my virginity to Harry, I want to lose it to Harry, I love him more than anything.

He lays me down and keeps kissing my lips. "Do you have... a condom?" I ask him feeling anxious but nervous for how its going to feel.

"Yeah, cant forget that." He says lightening the mood noticing Im a little nervous.

He grabs his jeans on the floor and takes out a little packet. I watch as he opens it slowly. He slides it on him, looking at me the whole time. I never seen a condom before, except at school in sex ed. I would have never thought in a million years I would be doing this right now. I didn't even think about it until now, and Im sure I made the right decision. I never thought I wouldn't be so happy with someone, I thought I was happy with Dylan. I was way off, I liked him. But he was no Harry, Harry lights me up. He's the match that lite me, and I burn. I burn like gasoline, fast and bright. I've never had someone in my life that has made such an impact on me as he does. No one has ever made my mind race as much as him, my stomach get butterfly's, my stomach twist and feel like a knife just got stapled in my gut. My heart beat out of my chest, my heart get ripped out of me in the most painfulest way then get pieced back together. No one has ever made me want to sit in a quiet room with them, nor yell at them either like the way he does. He angers me in ways no one else has. He doesn't even have to do much either. No one has ever made me think about someone, have them take up all my thoughts so much. No one has ever done so much for me. No one like him has cared for me in the way he does. He understands me, in ways no one else can.

"I love you, I have need been in love with someone so dearly as I do you." He says and kisses my nose and I smile.

Here let's get this off you." He says referring to my shorts I have on I do what he said and pull them down my legs along with my panties. I lift my shirt over my head and here Harry curse under his breath. I un-hook my hot pink bra that has lace on the sides. "I couldn't decide if I wanted that on or off, off is better off though." He smiles a gorgeous smile before pulling my legs toward him. My back is is laying fat on my bed with my legs separated for Harry.

I feel the cold silky condom brush up against me. "I'm going to take this slow. It's going to hurt baby, if it hurts to bad tell me to stop. I'm being serious too." He says not breaking eyes contact.

"Okay." I say and give him a nod letting him go. I feel him push into me, the pain is there. Its not a pain I really like either. I heard losing your virginity hurts but I never expected it to be like this. He pumps out of me and asks if I'm okay. I nod saying yes and he pumps back in slowly, my eyes screw shut from the pain. He leans forward as he pumps in and out of me, he kisses my lips making me not focus on the pain so much, his lips go to my neck sucking on my soft skin. His lips make there way to my boobs as he sucks on my delicate skin.