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Chapter 60

We finish eating our pancakes and Louis agrees on driving me home after twenty minutes of us fighting about it. He just doesn't want me to be alone cause he thinks I'll do domething stupid which isn't true. "Are you sure you don't want me to stay with you?" Louis asks me for the hundredth time.

"Yes I will be fine." I say and force a smile on my face. I open the door and get out, I walk up to my dorm slow, still trying to remember what else happen last night. I recover some of the words Harry was yelling at me.

"I don't want you in my life you get that right just stop. I don't want you okay, I was doing alot better when you weren't here." his words play over in my head, why would he say this to me. Tears fall down my face and I wipe them away fast.

I make my way to my dorm and I see Harry on my bed. I can't decide whether to run or scream.

I freeze not seeing him their like I'm imagining him, maybe it's still some of the alcohol I have in my system.

"You went upstairs and spent the night with Louis, when you knew I don't like him?" Harry screams at me.

"What?" I ask him, this is what he says out of all the things I thought he would say. I didn't think this.

"This is why your here. Do you remember anything that happen last night?'' I scream back, angry with him. Does he really not remember everything he said to me cause I do.

"Yes, I remember I was drunk and said stupid things to you no big deal." He say not caring. How do you not care when someone says they never liked you, get out of my life.

"Get out if my dorm right now. I can't believe you Harry, what you said, I don't care if you were drunk or not you said them and you said them loud and clear. You said 'I don't like you get out if my life' strait up to me and that's suppose to mean nothing. I can't believe you right now." I scream and push him at the chest hard against the wall. I keep pushing him and pushing him, letting anger out.

"I actually liked you, I liked you a lot and this is what you say to me, and you don't care cause you were drunk. You don't actually care cause I'm just another girl you like to fuck with remember that part?" I yell again while tears steam down my face. Harry's face turns cold and it brings me satisfaction.

"I can't believe you right now, I wasn't suppose to feel this way about you and you didn't feel anything about me cause you don't like me, you just use me." I scream.

"Get out!" I yell before he has the chance to speak.

"Did you not hear me, I said get out!" I yell again pointing toward the door. Harry's eyes don't leave mine. He looks hurt, crushed even.

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean it." He begs, I don't believe a word that comes out of his mouth.

"I didn't mean any of that just let me explain." He begs again, I want to hear what he has to say but I can't. I know if I do I will end up giving in and that can't happen.

"No, please leave." I ask nicely for the first and last time.

"Please don't do this." He says walking toward the door.

"You can't just say those things and not think I was going to do this. You didn't even say anything as I ran off crying. You didn't try apologizing then so you don't get to know." I say soft for the first time.

"Because I was drunk and in a bad mood." He says walking back over.

"Harry, leave now." I yell again and he doesn't move. I push him on the chest again and he steps backwards frozen.

"Harry!" I scream at him and tears fall down.

The door opens and Ashley barges through.

"Harry, out now!" Ashley screams at him and shoves him out of the room. She shuts the door leaving him out their and I sit in my bed crying.

"I heard yelling what happen? What happen last night?" She rushes over sitting down next to me and rubs my back trying to make me feel better. She asks so many questions I don't feel like answering right now.

"He hates me, literally hates me." I shout in my pool if tears. I wipe my eyes thinking it's the end but try come again.

"Hates you, I don't think that can happen." She says and pulls my hair out of my face.

"Yes, yes he does he said last night, that his life was better without him and he never liked me." I say sobbing on her shoulder.

"Oh he didn't, he wouldn't do that he was just drunk." She sad rubbing my back trying to calm me down.

"He meant it, he said it clear than he comes here and he doesn't even care. All he says is that he was drunk. He comes here to yell at me for spending the night at Louis." I scream.

"Why would he do that? Oh, he's gunna get it from me." She says mad at him.

"No, please don't do anything." I beg.

"No, he deserves to get yelled at.'' She says angry with him.

"No, if this was Niall I wouldn't say anything if you didn't want me too. Ashley please don't do anything." I beg to her, she better not say anything. Harry will be under a lot if stress this weekend with his moms memorial, I know I'm defending Harry but I know him and he takes his mom very seriously and he will be hurting and grieving this weekend.

"Okay, fine no matter how much I want to." She say and forces a smile on her mad face.

"So I'm taking it your not going to the party?" She asks me, theirs really another party tonight for the second night in a row.

"No, I'm not going. I can't bare to see him with another girl or something, no matter How mad I am at him, I really can't be the bigger person and get over this." I said wiping my eyes.

"No, I understand want me to stay back with you?" Ashley asks me.

"No, it's okay I'll be fine on my own." I tell her, she stands up and changes her clothes. I stay sitting on my bed hurting from Harry. I never thought I could care this much about someone, why do I feel this way. Why do I feel broken over this?

It's Friday night now, Ashley made me skip soccer cause she thinks "I can't play when I just had my heart broken" which isn't true. I let her win though cause I wasn't in the mood to go. I stayed in bed and Ashley canceled her plans with Niall so she can stay and make sure I'm okay. She is getting ready to go to the party, now."Are you sure you don't want me to stay cause I will?" She asks me the millionth time.

"No, I'm just going to do my home work, watch some movies, and probably call my mom or something." I tell her.

"Okay, but you sure you don't want me to stay?'' She ask again.

"Ashley, you stayed with me all day and made me skip soccer I will be fine." I assure her.

"Okay, well Niall should be here any minute, you probably want to get rid of me I'm being annoying." She says as laugh.

"No, your not annoying your just, protective." I say and she laughs.

"Yes, only from what he said though." She says.

"Do you think he will be at the party?"I ask before I think.

"Well ya, but only cause he's a dick though." She says and I nod. I wonder what Harry has been thinking about this whole thing, he thought it was no big deal. How can you think that, that this whole thing meant nothing to him cause it's meaning way much more to me apparently. I can't even put into words how Harry makes me feel when he hasn't cared about me this whole time.

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