If You Knew Me

Expectations

All these expectations

of things I'm supposed to be--

how can I possibly please everyone,

and not let myself down?

Should I conform to their ideas,

of who I should really be?

Let them drive my life,

or I do what I know to be right for me?

"You're a senior this year--

you're supposed to be a leader.

"You're the oldest one of the kids--

your siblings are looking up to you."

"People will follow you because you're older."

But how can I lead

if I have no idea what I'm doing?

If my life is in shambles and I'm barely holding on?

How can I meet all these expectations

if I live day by day,

just hoping to make it to the next in one piece?

I can't meet this expectations--

I'm already falling apart.