I’ve been working so hard
So hard to get there
When I go to show you the progress I’ve made
You look up briefly
Then say I should go take a break
Work more later
“But aren’t I so close?” I ask, desperate to please.
You frown.
“Not really. You’ve got a long way to go.”
You go back to what you were doing
I walk away sullenly
Closing myself behind the door
To hide the tears that so want to leak out
What will please you?
What can I do to arouse some praise?
I’ve gone so far in this race
Yet every hurdle I jump
Higher and higher
Is never enough to please you
To so much as revoke a turn of the head
I just want your approval
Am I doing this right?
Please tell me
And when I do
Please tell me
Just one little compliment
Please
One little bit of admiration
We are both running races
I get that
But they are both very different
I realize your challenges
Your hurdles
Some are higher than mine
But not all of them
So just remember that
I’m going through the struggle as well
I respect the trouble you’re going through
So can you respect what I’m going through?
I just want you to be proud of me
I want to show you what I can do
How much longer can I handle these scoffs?
This breaking of my spirit?
I can’t even see the end of the race
There’s no way to stop early
But there’s a way not to go on
Don’t make me
I don’t care about losing
I just care about finishing
And you’re just another hurdle in my way
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The music video on the side I just thought sort of went with what I'm trying to (sort of ish) say in this poem. Taylor Swift's pretty cool, too. :)
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Long Way Home
SpiritualPart 2 of the "Contemplative Compositions" series. After "Things to Think About" but you can read them in any order! Happy reading! FanTABULOUS cover by: @silentlaughter
