What if

Chapter 8

I don't know if it's my blurry vision that's making me see things

I turned my face toward the other direction and my legs starting pacing faster and faster

It's not that I expected anything from him, I don't even know how to explain this to myself

My chest was burning, a weird feeling I've never experienced before

My eyes were starting to water

I heard someone calling my name but I didn't turn, I have no reason to be mad I brought this to myself, so why be upset now, my heart nor my eyes we're listening to me at the moment

"Audrey stop" I felt someone grabbing my hands and turn me around toward their direction

"I didn't know you were going to be here" he said

"Wow just wow" I said surprised by the first thing he had to say

"Fuck" he cursed under his breath

"I didn't mean it in that way" he continued

"Stop talking please" I begged him as I freed my hands from his grip walking toward the driveway

"Audrey" he called

I stopped walking without turning toward his direction waiting for him to say anything that will ease the pain I'm feeling in my chest right now

But he didn't say anything, he had nothing to say

What did I even want to hear?

I continued walking and he didn't follow me this time

I walked toward the driveway I kept walking with no distention in mine I didn't even know were I was going till I got tired and I sat down on the street

And here it is again

The feeling I didn't want to feel

Regret

I regret giving myself to him

I regret letting myself go through this I knew from the start it was a mistake yet I allowed myself to continue doing it

It's my fault. I have no reason to be mad

He never promised me anything and he had no apology to make

A car stopped in front of me and I brushed my tears off quickly

"Audrey?" The guy asked a he got out of the car I couldn't see who it was it was too dark

"What are you doing here?" He asked as he got closer as he helped stand up

"Ethan?" I was surprised to see him what is he doing here

"I was on my way to the party" he explained

"Oh" I hope he can't see my tears it's dark outside

"Are you okay?" He asked he sounded worried

I nodded

"Come I will take you home" he offered I didn't protest I wanted to get away from here

I followed him to his car I sat down he didn't ask me anything more and I was grateful for that

"Audrey about are date, are you free tomorrow night?" He asked as soon as the car stopped

he looked shy he wasn't even looking toward my direction

"Tomorrow's perfect" I forced a smile into my face

"Thank you" I thanked him and I quickly closed the door behind me and I went straight to my room and locked myself and I cried