Condemning Conspiracy

E: Ramble II T: Annoyed

I'm scared. Not only that but I'm angry. I'm fed up. Being in the car with my mother for a few minutes trying to get home while she's taken her sweet time. I don't know. I'm just so aggrivated. Everything can piss me off right now.

It's stupid. How easily I can throw myself into stress. A tornado's heading this way. It won't hit us directly but it will send us a few storms. I want to stand outside and take it. Let it take me away. In the past few days San Angelo has received its yearly rain fall in a weekend.

Thank you Memorial Day! Lol... Yea sure okay. Anyway. I'm aggrivated. Xavier made me mad just by being a blonde for a moment. My mother's voice has always angered me and my father's 'I don't give a damn' mode makes me sick too.

Like I said, right now anything can piss me off. There's a beer in the garage. I might as well chug one down so I can stop thinking so much. I just came back from Austin. I ate so much dairy I think I'm going to be having some major stomach problems or at least headaches.

On the way home my brother told me that these friendships that I'm trying to keep together aren't worth my time. If they play out they play out but overall, the people I try to hang out with are probably getting annoyed with how much I'm trying.

Wait. How am I trying? I don't push them to do anything. Honestly, I hardly talked to them in public because they all play video games and I want to play them too but I've focused too much on my writing. I've become an outcast.

People are reblogging me on tumblr like crazy. Seriously, I don't even have to post that much XD.

My Carpal Tunnel is kicking in again. I bought a pair of gloves for it. I'm hoping that they'll help but it'll only sooth the pain it won't get rid of it so I have to find a way to get them to relax. I put on patches that heat up the muscles to make them relax but even then.

I should stop complained. I made this to help myself learn how to improve how I deal with my problems yet here I am getting mad even faster than before. Over nothing. No one cares.

That's how I feel anyway.