it happened three times today and its scaring me and i ended up writting this. i doubt it will actually be the thing that kills me and the doctor says it will go away in a few weeks, but its weeks where it could happen, any time, any day. so i ended up writting this.
its always there
lurking in the shadows
waiting until i least expect it
it might kill me one day
something else could kill me
but this killer is always present
hiding in the shadows
waiting for the perfect moment
suddenly i can't breathe
suddenly i start to cough
images flash before my eyes
i've seen this happen before
i've seen it happen to my friends
two of them have the same killer
its stalking all three of us
i force myself to breathe
my body goes through the actions
my sides bulge
my mouth sucks in the air
out my throat comes a desperate sound
i run for the water
i run for my medicine
whichever is closest
the water won't take it away
but it will calm it a bit
so that i can concentrate long enough
to get to my medicine
my fingers grasp the little L shape
i push down
the air rushes in
its foul taste fills my mouth
suddenly i can breathe again
releif floods me
as i take my next breath
that breath i just took
could be my last
this time
i got to the medicine fast enough
this time
everything turned out okay
but what happens
if i can't reach my medicine in time
the next time this happens?
i have no way of knowing when it will happen
it could happen during P.E
it could happen during band
it could happen during my woodshop
it could happen at home
in the middle of the night
and i'll have no warning
i'll just have to hope
thats theres water
or my medicine
nearby
and hope i don't die
