its the girl who looks so happy
the girl with so many problems
the girl who's fighitng depresion
the drugs keeps her from drowning
but it kills all of her fellings
she's not drowning in sorrow no more
but she can't feel any happiness either
parents who never cared
she did her best for the friends
the few that she had
but it was just to much
she cries all night
no one hears her
no one ever cared
just the few friends
and even then
all they saw
was the fake
the girl that she was
when she was on the meds
too keep the depression at bay
they didn't understand
just how bad it was
no one did
the fight
it was what drove her
over the edge
the few friends she had
the first friend
that she'd ever made
the first person
to accept her
depression and all
'i'll never forgive you! i hate you!'
those words stung like a whip
the depression beat her
it was just too much
the one person
that she'd stayed alive for
not hated her
now her friends hated her
what was the point in living?
that same day
she threw herself
of the clif
where she and her friends
used to always play
where they'd first met
but it didn't matter
there was no point to her life
the note she'd left
knowing her friend would balme herself
the last thing she did
she jumped off the cliff
she jumped into the water
the cold mericless water
she drowned
but she didn't care
she'd already drowned in her depression
she'd given it her best
but it wasn't enough
the note that she left
to the friend
who tried to stop her
'don't blame yourself
it wasn't you fault
its just to much
i can't take it anymore
please don't blame yourself
you were my best friend
please don't do what i did
live a long life
don't end your life like me
have a good life
die of old age'
but what she doesn't know
is that the friend
blames herself
for what happened
the last words she said
'i hate you'
the words she cant take back
she'll never forgive herself
for her sake
i hope there's an afterlife
so that i can see her again
my best friend
so that i can take back
the last words i said to her
i didn't hate her
she was my best friend
