❤️ Breaking Apart

Panic Attacks!!

2 weeks past

Date: June 4th 2015

9:00am

Lorraine's P.O.V

I woke up just now...
Some how I managed to keep my cuts a secret from almost everyone.

No one has been talking to me for some weird reason.
Except Luke occasionally and my sister very rarely.

So it's pretty easy to keep my cuts a secret.

[Thoughts From The Past Two Weeks]

May 21st: Nobody better find out about my cuts.
Let me just stay in bed all day!

May 22nd: Luke sounds upset and stressed out enough about the tour and us.
I'm not going to tell him about my cuts yet....
I also feel really bad for freaking out about the girls voice. When it was Rena all along...
But I don't regret the scars I have now..

May 25th: Kristine and Christine must be blind!
They haven't seen a thing yet!
I also cut over my cuts again.....

May 26th: Where's Allie!?!?
She better not be taking college seriously!?
Almost everyone is except me.....

May 28th: Still no one..

June 1st: Another call and kinda long conversation with Luke!
Still haven't told him about my cuts....
I know I should and just fuss up but I can't!
It's to hard.

[End Of Thoughts]

1:10pm

My phone started to go off non stop.

I picked it up to see Ana texting me.

I was confused the texts said..
"Meet me at the park!"
"I need to tell you something!!!"

I just replied with "Okay, I'm coming in a minute."

I'm nervous what does she have to tell me!
I don't need anymore things bad going on...
Please!!!! I hate this!!

I screamed "I'll be back guys!" as I slammed the front door behind me.

1:30pm

The whole time I was walking to the park I just kept staring at my cuts.

I saw Ana.

She waved to me, I waved back a little.

I don't her to see my cuts yet!

I took a deep breathe and walked towards her.

She said "Hey, I just wanted to tell you something."
I said "And that is..."
Ana stated "I got into a college." and then she bit her lip.
That's not bad..
I smiled and cheered out "Ana that's amazing! I'm really proud of you."
She smiled a little. Then said "Yeah but I'm going to California for this college."

It hit me so emotionally hard.
I broke down crying. I sat down on the bench and still was crying.

There was silence.
Then Ana screamed "Lorraine! What the fuck did you do!?!?"
I started having a panic attack.
I was breathing heavy.

Ana sat down next to me.
She asked "Lorraine are you okay??" as she put her hand on my shoulders.
I shook my head.

I started shaking.
Ana kept screaming "Lorraine!!" as she was trying to confort me.