I N D U L G E N C E (August Alsina) Sequel The Second Chapter

26.[Where He's Waiting On Her To Bring The Truth Home]

[Phoebe---Hours later into the Afternoon]

"Hi, uh I need to see a doctor. A female doctor preferably, an OBGYN would do. " I tried to remember the obstetrician's name that had dealt with me a few months back when I miscarried. I

"Dr. Fiona Gilroy I think.", I was at the hospital and I knew August was probably wondering why but I just told him I needed some heavy duty painkillers for when my cramps would come on. He believed it, but he was angry about me not bringing home his skittles first.

I just wanted to be sure about my girl down there. I had never noticed that before and I was a bit scared about what was going on.

"Yes sure, okay you'll have to wait for a bit. You can sit over in the waiting area for just a second." I nodded behind my sunglasses.

"Sure."

I walked over to the area, where only a view people were. Mostly women and children. I sat there and those honey buns in the vending machine were practically calling my name. I followed my heart and stomach proceeding over to it as I searched in my purse for a crisp dollar. I wonder what Kaitlyn would like to do today? I thought to myself.

I retrieved my bun and went back to the cushion less chair. I sat there eating this crap, maybe this why I was secreting this clear fluid, all the junk I was prone to eating was coming through my pores and now out of down there. Maybe I just needed a clean out, maybe some sort of antibiotic.

While I waited I pondered on my discussion with Chad a while ago. What the hell did I really do? Pretend we don't know each other Phoebe? Okay that has to be the dumbest idea ever. Who am I kidding? That is never going to work. August is just going to be more furious at me because it'll look like some evilly well thought out scheme. And I don't want that, I just want that, at all.

I'm just going to tell him. I'm going to just blurt it out when we're laying in bed together and we're wrapped beneath the covers, that way he'll actually try to listen and not be upset so easily. I don't know why I made it into some grand highfalutin deal. I have done nothing wrong, and I should just explain to him how it go here. He says he loves me, he should understand my position right?

I do believe that I am somewhat afraid of August , I'm afraid of what he thinks, they way he sees me. I'm afraid that he has the all the tools to break me or make me in a second, and that's not a good thing. It's really scary.

I'm just going to tell him. I called my Dad a while ago and he said he was fine, that he was feeling very good and even though the coughing hasn't stopped that he feels a lot better about how much longer he has on the earth now. I can't believe he's actually letting Mom have a party again but I guess he just loves her so he just lets her do what makes her happy.

"Ms.Washington? She'll see you now." I looked up nodding at her while I stuffed my honey bun wrapper into my purse. She escorted me to the room and Dr. Fiona was patiently waiting in her white coat. For some reason she made me feel like we were on the set for Grey's Anatomy.

"Hi, well come on in. It's very nice to see you again." Her smile was bright, and instead of a handshake she formally hugged me.

"Oh Okay." I murmured to myself a little taken aback. I knew she felt obligated to show me genuine affection because the last time she saw me I had just lost my first baby.

"Nice to see you to." I cleared my throat pulling away fixing my shirt.

"Take a seat ." She patted the bed and I nodded climbing onto it .

"Well what's up? How's everything, back for a check up or is it something else." Her eyes beamed with expectance.

I cleared my throat feeling a little awkward. "Well this morning, I noticed a little some discharge of some sort of this clear stretchy fluid, after I urinated and I'm kind of freaking out. It's never happened to me before. I don't know what's up ---down there."