All Because of Him. | Christian Akridge/Christian Leave

Chapter 15-

{Jacey's P.O.V}

We all want some things that we just can't have.

Looking in the mirror I can instantly pin point some things I want or hate about my self.

I hate my nose.

I hate my huge pores that are so visible.

I want a bigger butt.

I want bigger boobs.

But, those little things aren't going to change just because I want them to.

I hate that Christian kissed me.

I hate that it meant nothing to him.

I want to kiss Christian again, oh so badly.

I want it to mean something to him.

But those little things aren't going to change just because I want them to.

But those last few things I mentioned aren't little to me.

That kiss meant something to me.

Not a little something, it meant something a lot more to me.

I felt as if I was his, and he'd never let go.

I trusted him.

That kiss only made me feel like I could trust him even more.

But it really just pushed us away.

I didn't sleep.

I mean, I couldn't sleep.

That's all I thought about all night.

He said he was sorry.

And he says he meant it.

But he also kissed me, and kisses aren't just little things.

They're supposed to mean something.

Only for him to later say he didn't mean it.

He's lying.

He has to be.

He's not sorry.

Wonder what homecoming will be like...

Maybe some more meaningless kisses.

Or maybe even worse, like a scene from the move 'Carrie'

Yeah, maybe he's planning on sabotaging my homecoming plans.

"Goodness Jacey, would you please talk to us and stop shutting us out?" My mom spoke.

"Yes, and would you please clean up your room a bit?" My dad chimed in.

"And what's this homecoming thing? I tell you what, if you don't straighten up-"

"You know what? Maybe there's a reason I shut you two out. All you do is complain when I try the best I can."

They just stare at me, like I'm dumb.

"How about a 'Hello' or a 'How was your week Jacey?'"

"Thats enough." My dad firmly said.

"It's hard enough being a teenager and I'll never be good enough for anyone especially a dumb boy because I have no good body, personality, or oh yeah potential according to you two!"

And with that, I ran to my room and sat in silence.

-A/N-

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