"unbearable pain keeps getting in my way"
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no one pov
sometimes,people wanted to talk about it without mentioning how much it hurts throughout years of getting the same unbearable scars,whether the inside or the outside of the physical strength.we,as only human,couldn't pretend to be perfect doll all the time, it slipped out without us seeing.
with much more mental sewed together after getting broken each time remaining to live,some were halfhearted to continue doing the best to sew up the torn heart.it was bleeding blood red,it was hurting to its core but thankfully,it could still goes on.
taehyung felt cheerful everytime he got to spend every hours with the little one,jungkook.he grew up with the boy next door,playing snowball fight and even sleep on the same bed together.sharing bittersweet and salty tears throughout the adventurous day without complaining.
but it crashed down,making the older heart bled.he knew who was the younger since birth,and seeing him humiliated himself surely broke the waterfall tears.jungkook was such a sun shine, taehyung thought about that every single seconds,it doesn't make a tick about the sudden old behaviour.the broken boy tried to move on from the sorrow memories,but gained nothing dazzling in return...
the pain is unbearable,but it was
still there,never disappear...
story time...
"wh-what are you ta-talking about hyung?" jungkook asked in sudden fear,fear of what to expect from taehyung.his immediate questions threw jungkook off guard for a split second.
taehyung narrowed his eyes and looked deeply towards him and said "so you did knew something,tell me then" with a deep voice,shivering the younger even more.
if he told a single thing,did actually taehyung would believe him? and if he did then,would his sister made him like the same pet again?-the answers were lingering around,surrounding jungkook who was thinking under his thoughts.
"jungkook,i asked you a question.are you okay?" the older's statement/worrisome snapped the brunette out of his thoughts and let out a shaky sigh.jungkook really,badly wanted to tell everything that occurred when taehyung was out of his sight,but what if something that's more difficult was going to happen?,he couldn't bare anymore abusive threat at the time.
"i-i didn't know anything hyung,i-i promise you,you should just ask somebody else" jungkook said looking down to his pants that's now looking oh so interesting.
taehyung groaned and snatched the glass from the table,sipping the semi hot chocolate.by now,the beverages came for a while but the conversation was still there,barely awkward. "please jungkook,why are you so difficult?"he yet again let out a desperate sentence.
"i am not,i just don't want to hurt you...
and myself anymore"the last word came as whisper to himself,more like a reminder to not make any mistakes.there's a lot of people here and there,it could be under hers and he was truly afraid.
taehyung suddenly grabbed jungkook's arm,flinching at the sudden warmth radiated from the contact.jungkook slowly looked up,meeting a cold gaze.however, from the younger point of view,he looked so desperate and worried. "jungkook i heard that,what will happen if i know the truth?nothing will happen if i'm here okay?" he tried to reassure him to tell maybe a crumb.
but it wasn't as easy to speak as taehyung thought,one wrong word rolled out of his tongue could brought brutal end.jungkook pulled back his arm under his,and began to stand up abruptly. "i-i need to use the bathroom f-first,gi-give me some time hyung" and he went away in a blink of eye leaving taehyung alone.
jungkook hurriedly closed the door behind him,shutting it with a slam and headed towards the sink,holding them
in between tightly.he tried to steady his breath as it came out reluctantly. "n-no i need to tell him,but-but what if something bad happen and-and oh god please"
maybe i should tell him,yeah...
he rinsed his hands and washed off his face to show that he obviously went to the bathroom doing some real business.after a while he finally could felt a bit confident to explain the story.
suddenly,there was a clicked sound, indicating that someone was going inside of the bathroom too.jungkook turned around,bowed and started to step outside but before he could process anything,he got yanked off to the side of the big white room.
jungkook winced in pain and looked up to see who was the intruder but immediately widened his eyes.it wasn't only one but three guys...
all three of them were wearing the same ugly smirk from the last time he remembered.one of them leaned forward and touched jungkook's trembling bottom lips. "aw are you scared? so weak and we came here to take the double money"he spiked it up by saying it making jungkook shrink even more.
"i-i didn't work f-for a week and-and my salary from sch-school got del-delayed so please can i-argh!" the other just grabbed a fistful of his brown hair and pulled it harshly. "bullshit.are you saying we are the one hold you off work?" and the younger hesitantly shook his head in denial.
"grab him,he should pay the debts now"and the other two hold onto him towards the wall.jungkook couldn't fight each two at the same time and plus,there's a gun at the back of their long jeans which he couldn't think anything else other than death if he didn't follow the rules.
he wiggled around as by now jungkook was in the two hold suffocated him from moving. "please don't beat me anymore! i-i promise to pay it tomorrow please!"
nothing was spoken in return because a sudden loud bang rushed through the bathroom quietened the panic atmosphere.there,stood taehyung with a worried face again but with the same cold gaze.he took another stepped and clicked his tongue.
"let him go,how much does still he owned?"the stranger between the duo frowned in confusion as the result of the rush scene.the gripped on jungkook was loosening,making it as opportunity for him to release out of the breathless touch.
"tae-taehyung it was nothing i-"
"he owns us 30 million won left"
taehyung took out his phone and called his personal assistant,yoongi to deal with the arrangements money. "give me your bank account,my pa will deal with it later and now,jungkook is free"he said with the same deep voice that could frighten jungkook everytime he thought about it.
jungkook snapped and hurriedly went to the older after he was done talking on the phone. "hyung just cancel it i will manage it i know i-"he got cut off by the other three strangers dealers walking away that said "you should be grateful you faggot,if we ask you every single week to pay,then maybe until your death it wasn't done.oh and one more thing,how sad we couldn't deal with you anymore,bye slut"with a sarcastic laugh at the end that made jungkook felt so small in between everyone in the moment.
taehyung didn't say anything,he couldn't say anything.after seeing jungkook looked so vulnerable under the hold of them,he felt a tug on the heart inside.by now,jungkook was looking down thinking what should he do after this? how could he repay everything that the older did after what he had done?he truly deserved leaving under a dirt-jungkook's thought.
"are you okay?"that was the first sentence came out after a long silence of looking not at each other.the awkward and sadness surrounding making both couldn't utter a word.taehyung let his guard down yet again and sighed. "let's go outside,surely you weren't okay"and that's how jungkook found himself being dragged out of the white walls.
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"you shouldn't have done that hyung,it was a waste of your money,i-i will repay you back i promise!" jungkook apologised for the tenth times on the same line all over again making the older sighed.taehyung leaned over the table and said "let just see you getting beat again?is that what you wanted jungkook?"it came out as a backfired question,startling the brunette.
jungkook was thankful that the older had settled half of his family burden that he tried to finish off more than years of living.but at the same time,it wasn't his intention seeing taehyung was the one paying the leftovers,making him felt so tiny and fragile even they're so called friends.
"it was my parent's debts,it wasn't mine so please let me repay or something else please hyung" now,jungkook really sound so desperate,this time,he felt himself had a debt again.
taehyung thought for a moment and clicked.why would jungkook's dad had a tons of money from the loanshark? his curiosity got the best of him at the moment. "why your father borrowed the money from them jungkook?" he asked softly,not trying to trigger maybe any bad memory from the younger.
meanwhile,jungkook's face went pale and bleak.he didn't knew that was what taehyung wanted to know at first.let just say he expected him to talk about his family first.he fiddled with the fingers and took a bit courage to talk. "i-i could yo-you believe me this time hyung? just this time?" he asked whispered.
"i will believe you jungkook,this time"
jungkook too a deep breath and continued his explanation carefully putting out some words. "my family wasn't rich as you know so,when lisa noona and you were going to japan,noona was really excited to go but the cost was much.she begged my father to let her go with you saying she wanted to continue her study."he paused for a while and continued.
"so he decided to borrow the money from the three of them,it wasn't as much as right now,but he kept borrowing more as the time goes and now he left,ma-making me pa-paying all of th-them" he ended it with a whispered and trembling arms.
taehyung didn't knew how to react towards jungkook by now.he surely felt the burden and tiredness from him,seeing him working two times a day 24/7 was something else.however,there's a questions how could his father died?
"what is the caused of your father's death jungkook? why is it too sudden for him to you know die?" taehyung asked while eyeing jungkook.the younger breath hitched and stopped breathing.
he didn't know what to think or even said anything.his mind was blurry mess and nothing could he considered the perfect answer to talk to taehyung.he felt himself shrinking into the soft mattress of the chair even more.
"jungkook i will not be mad at you anymore if it was about something else,i don't care but please let me help you too,you seem so distant and i-i'm scared okay?"
jungkook froze and looked back up while titling his heand in confusion but still scared about what to come. "what are you saying hyung? what are you scared about?"
"i'm scared that you will go away again, yes what you did to me was just horrible and i couldn't forgave you till now but then,i felt like you need someone to lean on,as a comfort and friend" he said still looking through the others eyes to search for sparkles that used to be in the younger's one but nothing,he saw nothing dazzling at all.
jungkook was awestruck.he felt like a crept of smile making his way on his face,hearing the comfortable voice and words surely brought him back to reality.jungkook felt like he needed to gain each other's honesty and trust to continue dealing with.and by now,he had the need to tell him everything.
"if i tell you anything about your parents,please promise me something again hyung,can you?"
"promise what?"
"promise that you will not leave me alone forever?"
"i promise you kookie"