Swara looked at her angrily.
" Have you gone mad Twinkle? What the hell you are going to do? Do you even realise!!" Swara shouted on her.
" Swara, I...." Twinkle tried to say but Swara interupted.
" Shut up Twinkle!! Do you have any idea what stupidity you were going to do?" Swara yelled at her.
"I don't want this child Swara and what's wrong with it? Anyway this is the symbol of his betrayal and you want me to bring this baby in this world so that whenever I will see him/her, I will remember Kunj's betrayal. I have decided Swara. I don't want this baby." Twinkle said maintaining hard expression even though she was breaking inside thinking she can hide it from Swara but she forgot that Swara knows her inside out.
Swara hold her shoulder and shook her.
" Twinkle!! Just stop blabbering anything. What's the fault of this baby? What's his/her mistake? This baby didn't even come in this world. Babies are blessing of God. It's a sin Twinkle. Killing an innocent baby who has not even seen the world." Swara said.
" Then what? What should I do? Give birth to this child. I hate myself Swara, I hate that I love him so much and gave myself to him and it meant nothing to him. He used me for his motive." Twinkle said.
" But killing this baby is not any option Twinkle. It's sin. Kunj did wrong to you not this child. Why are you punishing someone who is innocent. For once, Just for once, keep your hand on your heart and say that you don't want this baby, do you really want to kill him/her? May he loved you or not but you did with your heart. Think about that love not his betrayal. Don't let his betrayal win. He used your love for his revenge then why are you doing Twinkle? Aren't you punishing this child for taking revenge from him? Just to see him in pain? That's just not fair! Kunj deserve punishment not this baby. Don't be a heartless girl Twinkle because that's not you. A mother feel more attached to her baby because he/she is with her even before taking birth and you are supressing that feeling, your love for this child in your ego." Swara said making her understand.
After hearing her, Twinkle thinks a bit. What she was going to do in her madness. She looked at Swara as her eyes filled.
" I.. I am sorry Swara. (Keep her hand on belly) i.. am sorry ba..baby. But what should I have done Swara? I wasn't able to understand anything. You know very well, how much happy I was when I came to know about it and shared this news with you but all of the sudden Kunj changed everything. The biggest happiness turned into worst. " Tears filled in her eyes saying it. But she wiped it before it fall from her eyes and smiled a bit.
" But I promise, I will give birth to this child. You are right. I won't punish him/her. Thank you for making me realise my mistake and stopping me from doing it." Twinkle said with small smile.
"You don't need to smile to make me feel better Twinkle or show me that you are strong. You are strong girl but I know my best friend more than anyone. You don't need to hold anything. Just let it out Twinkle." Swara said calmly holding her face gently.
Twinkle looked down and bit her lower lips to control herself but she couldn't hold herself and started crying. Swara hugged her.
" I hate him!! I hate him Swara. But I love him too. I am feeling to give him the same pain what he gave me. I love him but I don't want to forgive him also. He broke my trust. He played with my feelings. How dare he do that?? I knew that he loves this child so much that's why I wanted to make him feel the pain what it feels after loosing someone we love. " Twinkle said cryingly.
Swara pats her hair and let her burst out her feeling and hear her whatever she was saying.
" Because of him, I was going to kill the baby also who isn't at fault. I won't forgive him Twinkle. I will never forgive him." Twinkle said.
After sometime, Twinkle fell alseep. Swara made her lie down properly on bed. She felt really bad for her. Covering her with comforter, she also lie down on bed facing her back to Twinkle who was also facing other side.
" I love you Swara"
"I never felt for you. You don't affect me."
" I always loved only one girl but that's not you."
His words were roaming around her mind. Her mind reminds some blissful memories ,what she thought but actually those were lies she lived. She clutched the comforter in her fist and bite her lower lips to control herself to not to cry out loud but a soft whimper escaped from her mouth. She squeezed her eyes shut and sobbed pressing her lips.
On the otherside, a lone tear escaped from Twinkle's eye. She opened her eyes looking out from the window lost in her thoughts.
Both were facing back to each other, thinking other is asleep but coincidentally both were awake and drowned in their own pain.
Three days later:
Swara was in balcony, looking out the view. Twinkle's flat was on tenth floor of the apartment. She was looking around and lost in her thoughts when she heard Twinkle shout.
"Can't you hear that Kunj Singhania? I am not interested to talk to you neither listen anything. If you will do it continuously that doesn't mean that I will be pacified and will listen you. I am not interested in you and your any kind of Apologizes. I don't need you in my life, just get lost from here!!"
" Twinkle please calm down. It's not good for your health. I just....." Kunj tried to say but Twinkle showed her hand to him and say.
"I don't care whatever you want to say. You don't need to worry about me. If you are away from my life then I will be fine only. So just get lost before I shout and whole people of apartment come here and create a scene." Twinkle shouted.
Kunj looked at her sadly then nods and go out. Twinkle shut the door with thud as soon as he was out and before he could go from there.
Swara heard all this then only in few minutes she saw Kunj coming out of apartment and going toward his car but stopped and put his hand on his head. And sighed deeply then sat inside car and drove away.
Swara had noticed it in these three days. Kunj always tried to contact her, call her. He came here every day and is trying to talk to her but Twinkle don't want to listen anything. She always behave harshly with him and not give him any chance to talk and just shout at him. Swara didn't interupted in between them. Somewhere she felt that he was guilty, may be love her also. But She thought to let it between them. Then thinks something and sighed.
After sometime:
" What? What the hell are you talking Swara? You want to leave?" Twinkle asked confusingly yet shockingly and little bit angry tone.
" Yes Twinkle. I want to get out of here. I.. I am not able to live here. Twinkle I thought, I wasn't able to live in that house because of dad but no, I am not able to live here. I need to get out of here to find little peace from all this. I am feeling his presence, want him beside me even though it's wrong because he still loves Kritika. I love him but Sanskar don't. This feeling is killing me. You know what hurt more that I still cant able to think that I was betrayed by him. All those moments I spend with him, Everything , how can all that lie Twinkle. Did he really felt nothing for me?( Closed her eyes and take a deep breathe blinking her tears away)
Twinkle, I don't want him but still I want him beside me. I don't want to see him but still I am yearning for his one look when eyes will be filled with love for me which is not possible. I am dying without him. I am keep remembering the moments I spend with him. It's coming in front of my eyes all over again and again. If I will live here, I won't be able to come out this pain. It's suffocating me. Please let me go." Swara said with emotions.
Twinkle look at her. She is not unaware of the fact what she must be feeling because she is also going through the same pain and but may be swara is suffering more because of her dad.
" Ok, but I am also coming with you. You aren't leaving alone." Twinkle said.
"No Twinkle, Please just for once let me go. I need to be alone. it's not that I am distancing myself from you. I promise you, I will not break the contact with you. I won't hide myself but let me go please. For sometime, I want to be alone, from Everything." Swara said.
"No, I won't let you go alone. You are running away from the situation Swara!!" Twinkle said in angry tone.
" Yes I am because I am tired of facing it. I am tired of it. If you feel I am coward then I am!!" Swara said loudly with tears.
" Swara, you know I didn't meant to say that but you can't be weak right? You are strong. I don't want to let you go because somewhere I will also be alone. So, I am coming with you otherwise you are not going anywhere." Twinkle said holding her hand.
"Give a chance to Kunj." Swara said in mere whisper.
" What?" Twinkle looked at shockingly.
" Twinkle, since I am here I am watching he is trying to talk to you but you are not giving him any chance. Atleast try to listen, may be he...." Swara was saying when Twinkle interupted in middle.
" He what? He loves me? He is feeling guilty? Is that you want to say? Yes, you are right. He loves me that's why he was ready to kill me, he loves me that's why he blackmailed me with your life. For god shake Swara, through me ,he came in your life, made way for Sanskar to enter your life. Your likes and dislikes everything he came to know through me. He destroyed you through me with Sanskar and you are taking his side? You are saying to give a chance to that kind of person? Really? Tell me Swara, will you forget everything what sanskar did to you? What happened? No right? Because it's not easy, then how can you tell me to do that?" Twinkle asked.
" I am not taking his side. I am and will be always with you. I am just saying Anger is one side and that's your right. I am not stopping you. Neither I am saying to forget anything or forgive him. You are right he should suffer but not this child Twinkle. He was selfish for his revenge and what do you want to do Twinkle. You were being selfish for your revenge. You were about to kill this baby. I know you still love him so much. May be If you won't give a chance to someone, it will spoil three lives. I know you are strong you will be able to live. You are enough for this child also. It's Just that, getting apart can't be a solution. Let him have his last chance, If he is the reason of your pain, Punish him, don't forgive him till you are not satisfied, till your heart don't want to but don't leave. And if he failed to mend it or you still feel that he don't deserve it then do whatever you want but atleast you won't have to live with a guilt that you didn't gave him chance." Swara said.
" I can also say the same to you. To give chance to sanskar. Why are you going from here?" Twinkle said.
"I would have done it if he loved me but he still loves Kritika. She is really lucky n Twinkle, sanskar loves her even after she died. And even if I punish Sanskar for what he did to me, What will I gain after doing it? he doesn't love me neither he will. whether sanskar never loved and he kidnapped me but unknowingly he saved me from dad and Ridhant. Leaving it all, firstly I need to brace Myself." Swara said.
" Kunj also doesn't love me Swara, he loves this baby. He was ready to kill me that day, you know that but after knowing about this baby suddenly he started being Caring. You know he took me to his mansion so that I don't kill this baby. He don't even care about me." Twinkle said.
" He took you to his mansion to save you from my dad. Dad had ordered his men to kill you when they didn't come to know anything about me from you."
" What?"Twinkle asked shockingly.
Swara nodded.
" I feel somewhere he is regretting Twinkle. He may care for you. But it's your choice to do what do you want. You can leave him anytime you want if you feel he is faking care and love for this baby. But what if he really loves you? I don't want you to loose it. You should be sure before taking any major step. Decide for yourself." Swara said.
" You have thought all this for me then what about you Swara? You are leaving, what will I do without you?" Twinkle asked.
"I just need sometimes for myself so that i find myself and find some peace. To accept this harsh reality that Swara and Sanskar were never meant to be together. It was just my illusion. But I promise you, I will be there with you whenever you need me. I told you already I won't lost the contact with you." Swara said assuringly with small smile.
Twinkle doesn't wanted to let her go and leaving her alone would be the last thing she would want to do but she knew her stubborn friend and her situation too. May be she feel better to get away from here for some days. If this can make swara feel good then be it.
"Okay, but... You will call me regularly. If you will miss one day also then the next moment I will come to you." Twinkle said.
"Oh but if I won't tell you my location then?" Swara asked
"I will track your location so, better tell me by yourself." Twinkle said.
Swara nodded. They hugged each other closing their eyes.
To be continued...