"Shawn." I chuckle loudly as his hair tickles my belly. "Stop it." I say and pull my shirt down again.
We are laying on the double sunbed in our garden. Earlier, Shawn had kicked all his friends out with as excuse that him and I had al lot to talk about but in reality, we have been completely loved up and are in our own bubble ever since I told him that we are expecting a baby.
"I want to talk to the baby." He cling onto my body so, there is no way I can push him off.
"What?." I laugh again. Is he serious? "I am only 1 week, max 2 weeks pregnant. The baby doesn't even have a heartbeat yet."
"I know. I have read online that from around the 7 weeks pregnant you can see a heartbeat."
"You looked that up?." My heart is literally overflowing with love.
He pops himself up on his arms, as he is laying in between my legs. A shy smile takes over his face and he nods slightly. "Of course. I want to know everything about my princess in there."
"Princess?."
"Yeah. I have a feeling that this one is a girl."
"Do I look that ugly then?." I joke.
He gives me a look that he doesn't understand what I mean.
"Last time you said that you knew for sure that it would have been a boy if the pregnancy had continued, because I looked even 'prettier' than normal. Baby girls take your beautiful away." That is what they say, right?
He nods his head, as he seems to remember. "I just think that with you it doesn't have to do with a boy or girl. It is just the thought of you having my baby inside of you, that makes you even more irresistible to me."
"O God. We are going to end up with 12 kids, aren't we?." I know that look in his eyes. I know that look all too well. His determination is something that we shouldn't underestimate.
"It is up to you baby. It is your body. For me, the more the merrier but you are in charge."
I cup his cheek and caress his skin in a loving manner. "Let's first see how this whole situation is going to go." In the back of my mind, I am still extremely scared that this pregnancy will also turn out in a miscarriage but I push that thought way. No negative thinking. It will be fine, Rose. All will be fine.
"Alright baby."- he mumbles as he press a kiss against my the back of my hand.
He pulls my shirt up again and press his lips against my lower abdomen. "Hi there baby.. this is your daddy."- can he get any more perfect? "Just know that you are very welcome and that I will protect you forever."
"You know that you are talking to my flat belly, yea?." It just weird. I know that I am pregnant. Well, according to the test I did earlier but until I have confirmation from a doctor, I am still a little hesitant. I don't want to get our hopes up and then it turns out that the test failed or something.
"Just give it a couple of weeks." He press a kiss against my belly and craw up and pop down next to me.
"Yeey."- I say sarcastically. "I cannot wait to be a fat whale." Pregnancy is beautiful and a miracle but I know that it also won't be easy. Swollen feet, leaking nipples, you name it. I am definitely not looking forward to that.
"You wouldn't be."- he pulls me closer and bury his face in my neck. "I will always find you beautiful."
"We will speak again when you want to have sex with me, but a big belly will be in the way." Seems uncomfortable to me.
"Mmhm... you are right." He mumbles as he kiss my neck up and down. "Maybe we should start now before your belly will be in the way."
I roll my eyes. This dude has a problem. "You had enough, Mendes."
"Only two times." He tilt his head back and pouts at me.
"Dude, some guys would thank God on their bare knees for two times a week." Of course, as soon as Shawn had kicked out everyone, we had to have some sex. Obviously.
"Alright. Alright."- he kiss my cheek and pulls away. He rest his head on his hand and stares at me. "Do you want to start telling people already or wait?."
"I think it is best to wait for a bit. Until we have seen a doctor and know if everything is alright. I mean, I only did one test."
"Do you have more?."
"Yeah, in my bag. Why?."
"We can do another. If you want?." He says as he dodges my eyes, while playing with a piece of my hair. I know he wants to see it himself. In all the chaos, I have forgotten the first test at Anna's. So, Shawn hasn't seen any proof that I am pregnant, other than my word, of course.
"Sure baby." I normally would have teased him about it, because that is how I am as a person but this is something so delicate. Especially with the last pregnancy that we both never knew about it. I can understand that he wants to experience it.
He seems happy that I do not tease him about it. He crawls off the large sunbed and holds his hand out for me to take.
Hand in hand, we walk into our house. The house that all of the sudden means so much more to me. Sure, I have always loved the house but now I know that we are going to become a family in here.. the thought only is enough to make me cry. Or the hormones. That is also a good possibility.
Lou lift her head up as she is sleeping in her dog bed but doesn't seem to care about us. She probably had enough of me for now. She had to deal with my crazy ass all night and this morning. I cannot blame her.
Like two school girls we are giggling as we walk up our stairs. I let go of Shawn's hand as we walk into our bedroom. I grab the same test I did earlier out of my bag. The one who was pregnant with words and not one with stripes. If I am confused about how those tests work, I am 100% sure that Shawn doesn't know at all.
"I have to pee over this thing."- I mumble and hold the test up. "Just a moment." Although he is my man, there is absolutely no way he is going to watch me pee over this stick. No way.
I know there are couples who do 'their business' in front of each other, but I will never be one of those people. Do you know how difficult it is to actually pee over a pregnancy test? Without getting it all messy?
Shawn takes a seat on our bed as I walk into the bathroom. Now I know how a test works, it is done within a few minutes.
"Babe." I yell as I lay the test on the counter and wash my hands.
"Nervous baby?." He says from behind me as he walks into the bathroom.
Why does he sound different all of the sudden?
Immediately I spot the camera in his hands. "Babe? What is this?." That's why he had a different tone to his voice. I just knew it.
"These are the moments we want to remember for forever baby."
"Alright Steven Spielberg. Just put the camera down." This is a special moment. The last thing he should be worried about is if everything looks right on screen.
He tries to hold in his laughter as he position the camera in the right angle and stands next to me. "How long until we will see the result?."
"Normally 3 minutes but your whole film producer thing toke some time, so I think we will know soon."
He intertwine our hands and squeeze it softly. I look up to him and smile. He looks back at me with so much warmth and love in his eyes. This feeling is overwhelming.
"I love you, Rose. So much." He says.
"I love you too." He wraps his arms around me and press me against his body. Like always, he is much taller than me so, my head rest against his chest.
Seconds feel like hours but out of nowhere I see the little hourglass disappear from the little display. I unwrap myself a little from his embrace and grab the test.
Pregnant - 1 to 2 weeks.
I read again. I cannot tell you how much of a relieve it is to see that again.
"And?." Shawn asks in anticipation.
With a natural expression I hand him the test. Within a few seconds a wide smile breaks out all over his face.
He reach down and wrap his arms around my thighs and lift me up. With me in his arms, he spins around through our bathroom. Happiness flows from every pores of my body.
He let me slide down his body, until my feet are back on the ground where they belong.
We pull each other close without saying anything. Words aren't needed. All we need is the confirmation we just had. We are going to be a family.
And I cannot tell you how grateful I am to do this with the love of my life. I wouldn't want it any other way. Every misstep, every failure, every heartbreak lead us to this moment and I would have go through it again. Without a moment of doubt.
Shawn is my past, my present and my future. The father of my unborn child, my fiancé but most importantly; my forever home.
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Hi babes,
So, what are you thoughts on this chapter?
I thought that we all needed some adorable Shawn and Rose moments. What are you thoughts on them becoming a family?
Let me know!
Like always, thank you all so much for all your comments on the chapters! You guys make my self isolation time at home bearable.
So, for that I want to speak out my gratitude.
For now, sleep well from Amsterdam.
Stay safe and healthy.
All the love, M.