I was walking through Julliard alone. I was trying to find my dorm. I saw a blonde and walked over
"Excuse me?" I said and she turned around "Stella?"
She hugged me
"Hey Heaven" she said " I haven't seen you in ages"
"I know" I said "I didn't know you were going to Julliard"
"Yeah" she said "only like, 3 people went to a different school, everyone else came here"
"Do you know where room 7b is?" I asked and she nodded. We chatted about school the whole way
"Here you go" she said "I'm just down the hall"
"Thanks" I said hugging her goodbye. She left and I began to unpack
"Is this r-" I looked up at the person and saw a guy? He had a tan complexion, brunette hair, and hazel eyes
"Umm.....this must be a mix up" I said "this is a girl's dorm"
"Oh" he said turning red "sorry"
"No biggie" I said walking over to him "what's your room number?"
"7b" he said. I looked at his paper and he was right
"But this is a girl's dorm" I said confused
"What's that supposed to mean?" He said "don't you wanna share with me?"
"I think my boyfriend would have a problem with that" I said and he nodded
"Well you can assure your boyfriend that we're on different sides of the room" he said going to his side
"OK" I said shaking my head
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"When will November come?" I asked Jason, my roommate
"It is November" he said "don't you mean when will you see your boyfriend?"
"Shut up" I said throwing a pillow at him
"No" he said throwing it back. Jason and I had grown very close, well as close as mates can be, cause Robin will forever be my best mate
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"And Amadeus Mozart-" the announcer thingy cut the teacher off
"Heaven Lovely Marcus" he said and I almost died "please report to my office"
"Shall I return after?" I asked and the teacher looked puzzled
"Shall I come back?"
"Yes" he said. I thanked him and made my way to the principal's office
"Uh hi" I said barging in. WTF?!?!!
"Hey" he said taking me outside
"Zayn" I said "what're you doing here?"
"Aren't you happy to see me?" He asked pouting
"I mean of course I am" I said "but what're you doing here?"
"I've gotta visit my family, but I made a little stop" he said and snogged me "I missed you so much"
"I missed you too" I said shaking the tears away
"What's wrong?" He asked pulling me into his arms
"I'm fine" I said "it sort of a girl thing"
"Babe" he said pecking my lips "how about we go somewhere? Just me and you"
"Don't you mean you and I?" I asked and he nodded
"You and I" he said pouting. Guys hated when girls corrected them. That's why I love it
"I'm sorta stuck in class learning about dead people" I said rolling my eyes
"I got this" he said chuckling. He took my hand in his. We walked back to class
"Hello" he said to the wide eyed teacher "may I borrow her?"
"Y-yeah" he said with a puzzled look. I collected my things which Zayn took from me
"Where are we going?" I asked as he swung our hands back and forth
"A surprise" he said and I groaned
"But I hate surprises" I whined
"I know" he said "that's why it's a surprise"
"Hey" I said playfully hitting him. I led him back to my room
"Hey" Jason said. He was playing with Bacon. I kissed bacon and fed her a treat
"Hello" I said "Jason this is Zayn, Zayn this is well.....you know"
"Hello" Zayn said pulling me closer to him. I put my things away and pushed Zayn outside
"Later" I yelled closing the door. I turned to see Zayn with an angry look "you OK?"
"You're roommate's a guy?" He said tugging me outside
"Yeah" I said "why?"
"B-but-" he stuttered crossing his arms "he's a guy"
"I know" I said with a smirk "I'm very much aware of his gender, and that you're jealous"
"But he's a guy" he repeated "you're a girl"
"You don't know that" I said and his eyes widened "just kidding"
He looked relived for a second before his face paled
"You can't live with a guy" he said blankly
"I don't have a choice" I said knowing that if I even thought of complaining I'd get kicked out
"B-but he's a guy" he repeated "I don't want my bird living with another lad that's not me"
"Aww" I said pinching his cheeks "don't worry we're absolutely nothing but mates"
"Which kind if mate?" He said "the kind with the wolves? Or the kind where there shall be no touching?"
I giggled
"Don't worry he only see's me naked when I'm changing" I joked and his eyes bugged out
"What?!?!?" He said "I-"
"I'm kidding" I said "he's never seen me in anything but clothes"
"You're making this worse for yourself" he said "there shall be nothing more than a hug. And you can't sleep in the same bed as him, you only belong in my arms"
I cooed at his cuteness. I noticed we were walking towards the art room, which was conveniently in a music school
"What're we doing here?" I asked confused
"Remember the first time we met?" He said and I nodded
"Well... I thought maybe we could recreate that moment" he said shyly and I hugged him and pecked his cheek
"Y-you really are my prince charming aren't you?" I said biting my lip
"Every prince needs his princess" he said and kissed me
"Zayn" I said as tears sprang to my eyes "oh my gosh I'm gonna cry"
He wiped my tears
"Don't cry" he said with a guilty look. I giggled and he gave me a confused look
"I'm not crying because I'm upset" I said "I'm crying because of what you did"
"You do fancy the idea right?" He said with furrowed brows
"Yeah" I said hugging him "no one's ever done something like this before. Most people tend to hate me after meeting me once"
He chuckled and pecked my nose
"What's that?" He said pointing to the door. I turned and felt something cold hit my face
"Zayn" I shrieked as the paint dripped down my face. I took the red paint and threw it at him. Some got in his hair. Uh oh. He gave me an angry look and I ran out. I could hear him chasing me
"You're dead" he said as I ran into the cafeteria. Everyone turned to look at me
"No I'm not" I yelled and hid behind Dana. He smirked at me. He waltzed over and gave her a flirty look "bitch, excuse me?"
"Hey" he said to her. He took her hand and I snapped
"Let her go" I said through gritted teeth "or I will shave your hair"
He let her hand go and ran. This time I was the one chasing him
"Zayn"
He ran into the field and I followed suit
"I'm gonna kill you" I yelled and jumped on his back. We landed under a tree. I turned him over "listen here and listen good, if you ever touch her again, I will murder you, got it?"
"Yeah" he said with a smirk
"I'm not kidding" I said and his face fell "I will kill you"
"Shut up you know you love me" he said and I rolled my eyes
"Don't make me" I said about to spread the paint all over his hair. He shrieked and wiggled around
"No" he said "my hair's my only hope"
"Have you seen yourself?" I asked "oh wait, stupid question, you love mirrors"
"That was mean" he said pouting
"That's what you get for messing with me" I said and he gasped
"I'll get you back" he said with an evil look. His cell buzzed and he took it out with an annoyed look "I've gotta go"
"Aww" I said "when will I see you again?"
"After Christmas" he said and I frowned knowing I'd probably only have a day to see him "I'll come visit, I promise"
I don't know why, but I bursted into tears
"What's wrong?" He asked
"I-I- I don't know" I said through tears "I-I jus- I don't want you to go"
"I know" he said laying me in his lap "I'll miss you too"'
" no" I said "do you know what it's like to be in love with someone for 5 years, then when you finally get them you lose them?"
"You won't lose me" he said "we'll always have each other"
"But what if we don't?" I asked "temptation is not easy to control"
"What's that supposed to mean?" He asked with a bit of anger? Oh hell nawwww!
"I'm just saying that some things are hard to stop" I said and he scoffed. He quickly got up and I crushed my hand
"Do you honestly think I'm gonna cheat on you?" He said with a cold glare
"No" I said "all I'm saying is that it could happen"
"What about you?" He said "you and your roommate?"
"We're just mates?" I said "nothing's gonna happen"
"Yeah right" he said and I got offended
"All I said was that it could happen" I said struggling to get up "never once did I say I know that you'll cheat on me"
I got up carefully so I wouldn't hurt my already broken wrist
"Why would you think I would cheat on you?" He said "you know that I love you"
"You loved Perrie" I said " you cheated on her"
He got in my face and I got scared. Never ever make Zayn angry
"Who told you that?" He demanded
"Her" I said shaking "she told me"
"Well she's lying" he said "you don't trust me? Why are we even together?"
"A prince needs his princess?" I said to myself "all lies"
"What?" He said with furrowed brows
"You only belong in my arms?" I said louder "all lies. If we belong together than why would you question our relationship?"
"You call this a relationship?" He said "we don't see each other for longer than an hour every few months, and you accuse me of cheating? I have a right to question whether I even love you or just think I do"
Lies. Every Single Word. Lies
"OK" I said "fine"
"I think we need a break" he said and I snapped
"A break?" I repeated "no, not a break, a break up. Meaning never again shall you call me yours. Never again shall you call me and lie to me. Never again shall you see me"
He didn't even seem phased
"Fine" he said blankly "don't ring me when you miss me"
With that he turned away
"Zayn" I said and he turned around "goodbye"
"Bye" he said and strolled off, leaving me in awe. I ran back to my room. Jason was gone and Bacon was asleep. I laid in my bed in the dark
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"Aren't you gonna get out of bed?" Jesse asked me. I shook my head "you've been laying in bed for a months, teachers are worried"
"Good for them" I said "plus I've already made up all of my work"
"What happened?" She asked and I shook my head "is it your week?"
"No" I said "it's nothing"
"You haven't eaten anything in a while" she said "you'll end up with an eating disorder"
"maybe that's what I want" I said "something to slowly kill me"
She was about to say something but decided against it
"I've gotta get to class" she said. I nodded and she left. Zayn wasn't kidding about moving on. He already had a new bird, Annabelle. If I didn't know any better I'd say he was trying to replace me. The girl looked exactly like me. Same hair and everything. I was over it too. I want gonna cry for a lad that never loved me. Everything was a lie. Every 'i love you' .Sometimes I wish he could lie to me again. Just one more time.
"What happened?" A voice said making me jump
"Mark?" I asked and he nodded. I didn't even remember that he went here. I hadn't seen him for ages
"What's wrong?" He asked sitting next to me
"Nothing" I lied avoiding his eyes
"Usually when you see me you're happy" he said "but right now, you're not being yourself"
"I'm not in the mood Oprah" I said turning away from him
"Is it boy trouble?" He said and I ignored him. He knew how much I hated talking about problems. I prefer someone to just hold me "is it Zayn?"
At the sound of his name I bursted into tears
"Lies" I cried "it was all lies. His love was a lie"
"Did you guys break up?" He said "cause I saw him with that girl, Anna"
"H-he didn't even seem to care" I said through tears "lies"
He was about to comfort me but I pushed him away
"Just leave me alone" I said with my head to my knees "leave me alone"
"B-" I cut him off
"Leave" I yelled and he jumped. He nodded and left. I took off the ring and threw it across the room "lies"
I kept repeating lies while rocking back and forth
"All lies" I said "everything's a lie. I'm a lie. We're a lie. His loves a lie, he's a lie"
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Zayn's p.o.v
I was in New York for a few interviews.
"So Zayn" Wendy Williams says "we all heard about your break up with Heaven Marcus, how you feeling?"
"I'm fine" I said "things just don't work out"
She gave me an unsure look but nodded
"So your new girlfriend" she said with a smirk "don't you think she looks a bit like Heaven?"
"No" I said "I don't really see it"
"OK" she said "well that's all the time we have for today, Zayn Malik everyone"
They clapped. I hugged her goodbye and strolled back to my mini
"Zayn" Harry said as I entered the hotel "are you stupid?"
"Leave me alone" I said and laid on the sofa
"We know you still love her" Louis said and I scoffed
"I don't love her" I lied "I'm over her"
"Is that why Annabelle looks exactly like her?" Harry said "cause I'm pretty sure you're only trying to replace her"
"I told you guys I'm over it" I said "leave me alone"
With that I went to my room that I had to share with Liam, who wasn't talking to me at the moment
"Heaven" he said with his back towards me "forgetting about it won't help"
"B-but I loved him" she said, probably not hearing me come in. What a nice mate right? Chats with the girl his best mate just broke up with
"You have to get up" a voice that sounded like Stella said "you've been laying in bed for months, and you haven't eaten a thing"
"Can you guys just leave me alone?" She said "I'm perfectly fine"
"How did you even break your arm?" Stella said "all you did was lay down"
"I-I fell" she said in a shaky voice
"You're lying" Liam said "sorry but he's moved on love, or so he says, you can't keep crying over him"
"I'm not" she said "I didn't and won't cry"
"Heaven?" I blurted. Liam turned with an angry expression
"What Zain?" She said with a pissed look
"You-" she cut me off
"Go away" she said "you're a liar"
"I'm-" she stopped me
"You wanna know something? " she said with a sad laugh "it's not funny because I loved you, it's funny because I thought you loved me too. But that's the thing about unrequited love. That's why you never tell someone you love them. In the end you won't know if they love you back or just think they do"
She had tears falling down her face
"I guess I should've known" she said "I was never good enough right? No one's ever good enough for you. Because you're Zayn Malik. No one deserves your love"
"No" I said "y-you know that I st-"
"Yeah right" she said "a prince needs his princess? Lie. I only belong in your arms? Lie. I love you? Biggest lie ever told"
"But I d-" she cut me off with a scoff
"Sometimes I wish you could lie to me again" she said "lie to me Zayn"
"I love you" I said meaning it
"I wish I could believe it" she said "can you leave"
Stella nodded and headed out with the computer
"Don't worry" she said to me "she'll be OK, she just doesn't take heartbreak well"
"No" I said to myself
"I've got class" She said "later Liam"
"Later love" he said. With that her face disappeared from the screen. I broke down. I fell to the floor in tears
"I love her" I said through tears "and now I've lost her"
"I thought you were over her?" He said and I shook my head
"I never stopped loving her " I crying into my knees "I'm not stupid I know that Annabelle looks exactly like her. That was the point. That way I'd never have to let her go"
He laid my head in his lap
"I want her back Liam" I said "I just want her back"
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"Heaven" mum said shaking me "you OK?"
"Yeah" I lied. Mark had dragged me out of bed and forced me to go back to see mum and dad for Christmas. We were having our annual family dinner
"I heard about you and Zayn" she said "don't worry, you'll get him back"
"I don't want him back mum" I said shaking the tears away "I'm over it"
"But you've been in love with him since you were little" she said "love doesn't go away so easily"
"C-can we just forget about it?" I asked "I'm over it"
She nodded. I began to play with my food and she slapped my hand softly
"Mum" I said and she crossed her arms
"Don't play with your food" she scolded and I nodded knowing I couldn't win a Mum vs. Child war. She watched me as I took a bite of the turkey
"Happy?" I said and she nodded
(Time skip because their family sucks)
"I'm gonna miss you" I said to Mark while hugging him
"But we go to the same school" he said chuckling
"But we never see each other" I said pouting "you promised"
"I know" he said. We were in the airport on our way back home
"Heaven" someone screamed. I turned and saw Liam running towards me
"Liam" I said "what the hell?"
"Hi" he said once he reached me
"Uhh....hi?" I said confused "what're you doing here?"
"Going home" he said "I was visiting my family"
"Oh" I said "same"
"The lads want to see you" he said. I was about to protest but he lifted me and ran
"I don't wanna see him" I said hitting his back "put me down"
"No" he said and I felt myself fly into someone else's arms
"Hey" Louis said sending me a smile
"Hello" I said "can you put me down?"
He set me down and hugged me. I hugged all the lads except one, Zayn
"Hi" I said. He gave me an unreadable look and pulled me into his embrace. I felt tear drops on my back "Zayn"
"Yeah?" He said into my shoulder
"Let me go" I said pulling away "I'm gonna miss my flight"
"But I-" I cut him off with a cold look
"Bye" I said when his eyes traveled down to my cast. With that I strolled back to Mark
"Why won't you give him another chance?" He asked
"Because" I said
"Because what?" He asked
"Just because" I said "just because"
"You really shouldn't hold a grudge" he said and I scoffed
"So if I were to ring Hunter right now and tell him that I'll take him back" I started "you wouldn't have a problem?"
"My only problem would be jail" he said and I giggled
I knew I wasn't over Zayn. Zayn knew I wasn