Kara:
I woke up next to Lena, still asleep, I turned and looked at the clock.
1:00 am
Why in Rao's name did he have to wake me up so early?
I turned around and saw Lena sleeping peacefully, her breathing light and calm. I smiled, and sat up, getting a better look at her, her raven hair shimmered in the moonlight, her chest rising and falling gently, her face,beautiful as always, sometimes I wonder what did I do to deserve Lena.
What did I do to deserve Lena?
She's smart, kind, beautiful, and amazingly sexy, she could have anyone in the world, why choose me?
I may be Supergirl to the outside world, but on the inside... I'm just the girl who lost her parents, who had to be in the shadows from my powers, Kal- I mean Clark was the hero, and still is, all I am inside...
Is just Kara.
Why? Why me? She could have any man or woman in the world, but out of seven billion people in this world..
But why me?
She softly groaned and stired a little, but not enough to wake her up, I gotten up softly and went to the music room, a soundproof room from the outside, I sat down on the chair and trailed my fingers along the keys, feeling it's touch. I played a soft melody, singing to the lyrics.
The wound heals but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
You're at war with love, yeah
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle
I played the keys on point, not missing a single key, when I played, and not missing a single word when I sang, I sang true to myself, no one watching me, looking at me in anticipation or expectation, it was just me here, singing, playing the piano.
Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wooing me
Arrow holes that never close from cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when you're trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up and you know that you should know
And let her go but the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover's phone sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter on the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle
Maybe sharpen up a song
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone
I started to sing louder, not caring if anyone had came in on me, I only cared about the piano, my voice, and me.
I only cared about me right now
I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over
I remembered about Mon-el, his stupid and obnoxious asshole attitude, all the times I protected him from Alex, hiding the bruises he gave me, going to Lena for support. The one I truly loved, Lena, which brung me back to that question.
What did I do to deserve my scars, my shitty life with Mon-el, what did I do to deserve my family, what did I do to deserve Lena?
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle
I played harder, I played like my life depended on it, I sang like the world was in the balance, I made sure that I played the keys with perfection. My fingers burned with anticipation to hear the keys voice, it's beautiful sound.
You shouldn't have but you said it
(And I hope you never come back)
It shouldn't have happened but you let it
Now you're down on the ground screaming medic
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armours and vests
Don't properly work, that's why you're in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let her win
I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop 'cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle
I played harder, hearing the piano's real voice. I played to hear its words, it's thoughts, the real true story behind its lyrics, I played, and I kept playing.
'Cause you've set me on fire
I've never felt so alive, yeah
Hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love
And I'm at the point of breaking
And it's impossible to shake it
See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
Hope it heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love!
I sang at my full potential, hearing my voice, my questions in my head, those questions that were never answered.
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle
I ended the song with a soft note, letting go of the keys perfect voice, I massaged my hands, making sure they wouldn't hurt when I went to bed.
I heard soft clapping, I turned around, wondering if it was Lena or Emily.
I saw Lena
She smiled softly at me, giving applause for my performance, which was supposed to be private.
"That was beautiful darling. I've never heard you play so passionately, it was like a whole new voice, you never cease to amaze me with the piano." She said, walking over to me.
I kept my head down, massaging my fingers. I saw a glimpse of what Lena was wearing, a white short sleeved tee shirt, and some black pajama pants with the L-Corp symbol on it.
I felt soft and warm hands touch my fingers, she took them away from me gently and started to massage them softly, it felt so nice when she did them.
"I woke up and didn't see you in our bed, I knew that you weren't being Supergirl at 2:00 in the morning , or in the kitchen. So I thought you were here, and I saw you playing so beautifully. I wanted to stay quiet and watch. And I'm glad I did, I heard the most beautiful voice in the whole world" She said softly, her accent laced in her voice.
"Mmhm" I hummed in response
"Love? Is something wrong?" She asked.
"I'm just trying to figure this out" I muttered
"And that is?" She asked, still massaging my fingers with her hands, giving me a soft and comforting feeling. She looked at me softly. "You can tell me anything, it won't change a thing between us."
"Why...." I took a small breath."choose me?" I asked
She looked confused." Choose you? Your gonna have to elaborate on that one love?" She chuckled
"Why choose me to be your girlfriend? Your soon to be wife? When you could have anyone else in the world, your smart, intelligent and kind and very beautiful and sexy. Why choose a girl who lost her parents and had to make a name for herself. When you can have the most beautiful woman in the world?" I explained,
She chuckled, stood up and cupped my cheeks, putting our foreheads together. She smiled.
"I think you answered your own question,I did choose you, because your the only person I would want to spend the rest of my life with, it's because you made a name for yourself that drawn me to you. I could have anyone in the world, yes, but here's the thing I don't think you get love. I'm gonna let you in on a little known secret my oblivious puppy. Out of 7 billon people on this earth, I choose you, forever and always, and no one, no one will take me away from you, because Kara Danvers, I will always come back to you, every day. Because we're family, and family is always there for each other, and will definitely come back for one another. You taught me that. So I will always choose you over anything Kara Danvers,till death do us part, and that's how it's gonna stay. " She said.
I smiled softly, tears pricking my eyes, it wasn't tears that I had those years when I was with Mon-el, these tears were happy. She smiled, kissing me softly on the lips, she brushed her tongue for entrance, in which I gladly accepted, our lips stayed together for a while. Due to lack of oxygen, we separated our lips.She softly wiped my tears, kissing my cheeks softy
"Ready to go back to bed love?" She asked
"Mhm" I mumbled sleepily, I guess playing music and having deep conversations really tire a girl out.
She scooped me up in her arms, I didn't really have the energy to even protest, she saw the tired look on my face, I patted her side to let me down, she shook her head no.
"I want to carry you" She whispered
"But-"
"No buts, I'm carrying you, your very light, and it's not an issue." She said, leaving no room for protest, which I was too sleepy to even care.
She softly laid me down on the bed, covering a blanket on me, she softly got in also and wrapped her protective and safe arms around me. Easing me into sleep, dreaming about the woman holding me gently, her soft arms giving me comfort, and her sweet scent filling my nostrils as I slept.