Hi so I can't sleep I've been up till five every night I don't know what is wrong and I start school on Monday, help me. Anyways another update.
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. I've been thinking of what to say to Harry without hurting his feelings, he's a great guy and my first boyfriend.
But it's like there is no spark, no love anymore, and yes it took meeting shawn to figure that out.
Again I was woken up at 6:30 and as I was eating breakfast I seen Dr Mendes walk by my room, must be starting work.
All morning I would catch little glimpses of him outside my room talking to people and the odd time we would make eye contact.
When it was 11,he came to check on me 'how are you feeling today, Ms crownwell' I didn't want to bring up what he wrote but I was curious 'better no pain in my head but still in my ankle' 'OK I will give you some ibuprofen for the pain'
Can I ask you something, well two things' 'yes go ahead' 'what time is visiting hours' '2 till 3 and 6:30 till 8' 'OK thanks and why did you write that on my cast' he looked up from my chart and back down again 'because it's true'
When he left I texted Harry '2pm Toronto gen hospital room 215, be here'
It's official 'I'm breaking up with you'
I was watching big bang theory I love that show, it was just past 2 and Harry was here 'what do you mean, why' 'I can't do it anymore I can't do it us' 'but babe we love each other' 'did, I don't love you anymore, there is just no spark' I saw the rage in his eyes '' is there someone else '' what no no I promise ' ' don't you fucking lie to me '
' wow calm down ' ' don't you dare tell me to calm down ' he punched the bed' please Harry I never meant to hurt you '' oh really I'm sure you say that to them all' he grabbed my arm 'you'll regret this,, you will wish you never done this' 'Harry let go your hurting me' 'oh I can do much worse'
'hey what the hell do you think you're doing' shawn what is he doing here 'Harry get out' Harry looked at shawn 'who is he' 'her doctor' 'ha, so your fucking your doctor' 'Harry no' 'hey let go of her before I beat you' 'fuck off' 'Harry shut up and get out' 'hey you heard her' 'I'm going, I don't want to be around a slut like you anyway' he left the room
Shawn grabbed his shoulder 'don't ever go near her again' he pushed him out of the room 'who was that' 'my ex boyfriend' 'tell me the whole story'
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Wow that was intense