A/n
This should have been out two days ago but I had a long nap and totally forgot about it, sorry my loves 💜
Ember's POV
Two months had passed since I started training with Mr J and it was going great. I was so proud of my development, I still was no where near as good as Mr J, Harley, Frosty and all the other guys but if I got caught up in battle I knew how to handle myself to a certain degree. The process was extremely rough and at times I had given up yet Mr J always picked me back no matter how much my actions irritated him. It was strange how 'nice' he was being, yes he was still bad but he was acting more as he when I was carrying Diamond.
We were currently down in the basement doing our mornings training and Mr J was about to lash out I knew it. I was trying so hard but today I just couldn't seem to get anything right. It was like all the knowledge from over the last few months had slipped from my mind.
"Again little doll!" Mr J ordered sternly crossing his arms over his exposed chest.
He was trying to keep his face neutral but I could see anger growing in his orbs turning them a dark shade of blue.
Nodding my head at him I let out a deep breath and aimed my gun at the target once more. I did everything Mr J had taught in the hopes I'd hit the just this time but I watched on in disappointment as I pulled the trigger and missed the target completely.
"That was the twelfth miss in a row Ember! WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU TODAY?!" J roared storming towards me and ripping the gun out my hand before throwing it at the wall.
"I don't know" I whispered shrugging lightly as he fixed his glare on me.
"You haven't missed a single time in the last three weeks little doll there must be something wrong!" He exclaimed frantically tugging on the ends of his messed up hair.
"I'm just....thinking a lot about Abby this morning" I admitted with a sad sigh.
"And why are you thinking of her instead of concentrating on your training? thought you wanted this" he growled now looking bored.
"I do want this! It's just she's going through such a hard time and I feel bad because I haven't been there for her enough. I'm her best friend I'm supposed to be helping her" I exclaimed, tears welling up in my eyes.
I had seen Abby a few times but it wasn't enough, she called me almost everyday asking me to visit and something always came up. I was sick of being a shitty friend, I needed to do better.
"Well little doll since you're too distracted to continue training you might as well get cleaned up and go visit her" Mr J sighed already moving about the room and cleaning up.
"Are you sure?" I whispered feeling with my fingers nervously.
"Yes we will continue next week, now go before I change my mind" he ordered gathering the knives off the table.
"I'll do better next week I promise! Thank you!" I squealed hugging him from behind.
"I know you will" he grunted slightly leaning into me.
"I'll be home soon, I love you" I cooed pulling away and heading towards the basement steps.
"Love you too" I heard him reply softly behind me.
"Hey kid! Where are you rushing off too?" Frosty greeted as I made my way through the front of the house.
"I'm going to visit Abby! Is she in?" I grinned giving him a hug.
"She was when I left, take Diamond with you" he smiled ruffling my hair.
"Are you sure? I don't want to make her sad" I frowned feeling a bit lost.
"No she loves Diamond, she'll be overjoyed to see her" Frosty reassured me making me sigh in relief.
"Ok I'll go get her ready, see you later" I waved as I began making my way up the stairs.
"See you later kid!"
It didn't take me long to get Diamond and I dressed, maybe it was the excitement of seeing my best friend. Diamond hadn't seen her in ages which once again made me feel bad but I didn't want to be insensitive towards Abby and make it look like I was parading Peanut around in front of her. It was a very complex situation and to be honest I didn't know what to do to make her feel better and I hoped me being there did something to help.
Putting mine and Diamond's coats on we were finally ready to leave.
Winter had always been my favourite time of year, I loved the weather and the atmosphere. It was so joyful and peaceful well as peaceful as it could be living with The Joker.
As I drove to Abby's me and Diamond admired the snow as it fell from the sky, it was so beautiful. Diamond was obsessed and kept letting out little squeals of delight.
Once we arrived I carried the little peanut to the door and we both began knocking as loud as we could.
"Hey! Do you mind not banging on my door like a........MY BABIES" Abby began one of her rants as she swung the door open but seeing us there stopped her in her tracks and she suddenly became just as excited.
"Ab! Ab!" Peanut called out leaning towards her making grabbing motions.
"Come to Abby sweet peanut! I need your loves!" Abby grinned taking her from me and planting kisses on her rosy cheeks.
I smiled widely following Abby into the house listening to Peanut's giggles as she was showered in affection.
This was a good idea after all!
Soon Diamond was playing with some toys on the floor while Abby and I chatted on the sofa with our tea's like the old women we were.
"How are things going Abby?" I asked hesitantly.
"Oh Ember I thought my life was over for a time but lately I've realised I've got so much to live for. I have the greatest husband, family and friends. I live in a beautiful home and run my own design company. I had a little stumble but things are looking up once again, me and Frosty have also discussed adoption. There's so many unwanted and abandoned children in the world and I could be the one to give them a home, I could be their mother" Abby smiled sweetly, excitement bubbling in her eyes.
"I'm so relieved to hear that Abby! I've been extremely worried about you lately and Frosty. I love you both and it's killed me seeing you guys upset and not being able to fix it but I'm happy to hear things are turning around. Whoever you adopt is going to a very lucky child, you'll be a great mom Abby!" I grinned wrapping my arms around her making peanut stop to clap, she always did this when people hugged.
"Thank you my love! Now how are you?" Abby questioned swapping my worried stare for her own.
"I'm really good surprisingly, Mr J has been training me to defend myself and he's been weirdly nice not that I'm complaining. Everything at home is so relaxed and peaceful, I'm not sure how to really feel about it" I shrugged biting my bottom lip.
"That's good Ember! I'm sorry to bring this up but what about that Melody girl, where has she disappeared to?" Abby questioned making my heart hurt.
"I'm not sure, I'd like to think he has got rid of her but I just don't know. I don't want to bring her up either and spoil his bad mood, I haven't been left this unmarked in forever. Abby? Am I a bad mother for staying with him? I try so hard to keep Diamond away from the violence but no matter what I do everyone still sees me as a bad person. It makes me angry because who are they to judge me?! Unless they have been in the situation themselves they have no idea how they would act. It's easy for them to say 'oh I'd leave him' and 'I'd of killed him' but they don't know the effects something like this has on the mind!" I exclaimed releasing all my built up frustrations.
"Hey listen to me Ember you are the greatest mother I know! Screw everyone else just like Tywin Lannister preaches 'A lion doesn't concern himself with the opinions of sheep'. You are doing amazingly living the life you do! Diamond adores you and Joker can go suck a big......sausage" Abby huffed being careful of her language once peanut turned her head to look up at her.
"Thanks Abby you always know how to make me feel better, I just feel so lost sometimes! I thought being with Mr J would be the start of my life but I'm hanging on by a thread lately. Diamond is my only reason for being, she's my saviour" I smiled looking down at my angel.
"There is something else Ember" Abby whispered hesitantly.
"What is it?" I frowned in curiosity.
"I think I've worked out what business Joker has with Melody, I didn't want to say anything but it's eating away at me" she sighed grabbing my hand.
"Please tell me" I whimpered trying to control my breathing as my heart began to pound.
"I think he's using her to have a baby".......................