POV – JJ
Warnings - None
-Begin Chapter-
I sat on my couch, waiting for Tobi to come to my flat to let me know that he was ready to go. Sarah was currently in the bathroom, getting ready to lay down since her head was hurting again. I made sure to change my sheets and such for her and I left a small amount of money on my kitchen counter along with a note asking her very nicely to use to buy food for herself or I was going to take her to Tescos and buy everything in sight.
I let out a sigh and closed my eyes, leaning my head back on the couch. This had honestly been a long day and I couldn't wait for it to be over so I could go home and cuddle with the others.
I felt a small pain of guilt enter me when I remembered that Tobi wouldn't get the luxury. Instead he would be by his mother's bedside, waiting for her to wake up.
I know he had his family there, but he still shouldn't be alone. I played with the thought of going with him for a moment, holding his hand while we sat there waiting, holding him while I kept an eye on his mom while he slept, going to get him food so he wouldn't have to leave her side. All these things I wish I could do but I don't know if I can. I know we aren't public with our relationship but that shouldn't matter to me. I just want to comfort Tobi and not be worried about who will see me or what they will say.
"Are you alright JJ?" came Sarah's voice from next to me. I turned my head to look up at her. She was dressed in a pair of sweats and tank top, her brown hair pulled back into a bun.
"Yeah." I said, stretching before I stood up, turning to look at her.
She observed me for a moment before she spoke.
"No you are not."
I let out a sigh. This girl is too good.
"You want to tell me what's wrong?" she asked softly, a kind look in her eyes.
I let out another sigh, before I put my hands on my face, dry scrubbing it for a moment, trying to connect my thoughts.
"I'm worried about Tobi." I said softly threw the hands covering my face.
"What about Tobi?" she questioned.
I pulled my hands away to look at her, judging the look on her face. From the lack of freaking out and questions, I guess she knows about us and our relationship, plus she took care of Preston and Vikk when the others and I couldn't, so I guess I can trust her.
I turned and walked over to the glass doors that led out to my balcony. I observed the scene of the setting sun for a moment before I spoke, my voice sounding slightly off to my own ears.
"I'm worried about Tobi because he has to go to that fucking hospital, all alone." I stated blatantly. There was no use in beating around the bush.
"Surely his family will be there, right?" she asked, sounding a little confused.
"Yeah, but that's not what I mean."
"What do you mean JJ?" she asked, her voice sounding closer.
I felt frustrated as I spoke, getting agitated by the second.
"Tobi may have his family but he won't have us. Us, his freaking....whatever the fuck we are to him!" I threw my hands up, not really having an answer.
"Boyfriends?" came Sarah's voice.
"Yes, I guess. FUCK!" I screamed out, my hands coming up to rest on my head. "Sorry, this is just so fucking confusing sometimes."
"It's ok JJ, I understand. Well, I don't understand being a relationship with six other people, more like, I understand how confusing that could be sometimes." Sarah said quickly.
I turned to look at her, an embarrassed glow on her cheeks. She took a breath before she spoke again.
"Anyway, what about Tobi?" she pressed lightly.
I sighed again before answering.
"Tobi should have at least one of us there, supporting him. He needs us and none of us are there for him and I feel like a fucking idiot and..."
"JJ stop." Came her voice, strong and commanding. "Take a deep breath, you are freaking out over nothing."
"How the fuck is it nothing, what in the fucking world..."
Sarah suddenly came up, getting in my face, slightly scaring me, causing me to back up into the glass door with the intensity of her gaze.
"Listen here JJ." she said slowly, a small amount of anger in her voice,"Calm the fuck down and think about what you were saying. You are freaking out because you or one of the other Sidemen are not there for Tobi." She kept up her stance, not backing down, making her scary as shit for a short person. "Why don't you just go and be there for him since you are so worried? Go to the hospital with him and stay with him. Be there to support him. I know you love him, so go do it. Go be there for Tobi."
I opened my mouth to speak, to respond the crazed fan girl in front of me, to express my worry about who will see, when I was interrupted by my door opening and a voice drifting from there.
"JJ, you ready?" came Tobi's voice.
I looked back at Sarah, who raised her eyebrow at me before baking away, flinching slightly. She really needs to remember that has that head injury.
I took a deep breath and weighed my options for a moment. After deciding, I walked forward to the hallway that lead to the front door. I realized that Sarah was right. I wanted to be there for Tobi so I needed to be there. I will worry about the consequences later like I usually did and just head straight on in, no more thinking about tit.
Reaching the hallway, I saw a freshly showered Tobi, small bag in hand, honestly looking like shit. You could see bags under his eyes and his eyes themselves looked dull compared to their normal bright, shinning selves. His whole demeanor seemed, down.
My heart hurt at the sight and I was more determined to try and help him and be there for him.
"I'm coming." I stated simply, my voice strong and unwavering even though I was honestly scared shitless.
"What?" he asked, confused.
"I'm coming with you to the hospital and I am staying." I stated, keeping my voice strong.
"But JJ." Started Tobi.
"No butts Tobi."
Except Vikk's
He looked like he wanted to argue but then he let out a defeated sigh before he brought his hands up to his face to rub his tired eyes.
"Fine." He breathed out.
I smiled in triumph before walking forward to him, reaching my arms out wrap them around Tobi, bring the boy with his hands still on his face, into my hold. I felt him move to rest his hand covered face against my chest, taking a deep breath.
"Thank you JJ." He muttered, gratefulness filling his voice.
I bent down and kissed the top of his head.
"Your welcome Tobi."
-End Chapter-
A/N: FLUFF! YEAH! Sorry about not uploading yesterday. I was having a hard time concentrating, plus I was running on about 4 hours or so of sleep for the last 2 days, so that wasn't helping.
But here ya go. I will try to get another chapter up today, hopefully. We shall see.
I hope you enjoyed reading this and may your day be filled with love, smiles, and laughs.