"What was it like?"
"Honestly, it was awkward, but, in a good way." I picked at my jeans that were ripped at the knee. I shook my head fighting off a smile. "I mean, it's not as if the whole world had shifted and I was suddenly glowing, but it was just... Bliss."
"I'm really happy for you."
I sighed. "Thanks Piper. I'm happy for you as well, hope things work out with this Elle girl."
"It better work out, I didn't spend half a year pining after her for nothing." We both laughed. "Speak of the devil, I have to go she's calling."
"Godspeed, Piper, godspeed." I hung up, looking over at Ross who was still holding an ice pack over his rip cage after getting hurt at practice. "How are you holding up?"
"I would be a lot better if you were by me." He held his other hand out for me and I rolled my eyes, carefully curling up to his uninjured side. "Done gabbing about our sex life?" He poked my nose and I hid my face in his chest.
"That depends." I mumbled.
"On?" He urged making me crack a smile as I came out of hiding and pecked his cheek.
"If you give me more material to gab about." I put my leg over his and he chuckled.
"That's going to have to wait a bit until I heal." He tucked a stray hair behind my ear.
"Let me take care of you." I leaned down to kiss his neck but he turned his head away.
"As much as I'd love that, I can't." He sighed, sitting up carefully. "Someone from Florida is coming to talk to Vi today about a Scholarship."
"And why am I just hearing about this?" I sat up beside him crossing my legs on the bed.
"We both said to talk about it when we've both made our decisions," he shrugged. "I haven't made mine yet, just want to see what he has to offer."
I sat looking at my side of the room, the pictures that decorated the wall were from Danny, some he randomly took of me, some I'm with Ross, or Piper, or Vi. I liked them because I was never alone in one.
"Florida is nice." I said quietly. "Not that I've ever been, but it seems okay, why else would Disney world be there?"
"You're panicking." Ross placed his hand on my knee and I shrugged.
"These decisions," I looked at all of the pictures of me and Ross again before finally looking at the real thing. "need to be made soon. I mean, summer is only a week away and when summer hits, that's when I'm making my decision. So I'm prepared, for once in my entire life I just want to be ready."
"So soon?" He asked and I just merely nodded. "Oh." I looked up at his tone raising a brow as he smacked himself in the forehead. "Shit." He hissed.
"What?"
"With practice, and you, and homework, I forgot to tell you something." He rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hands before looking at me and sighing. "I was planning on going somewhere for the summer." He seemed hesitant.
"Oh, well that's fine, it's not like we're connected at the hip or anything." He still wasn't continuing so I rolled my eyes. "I'm not that crazy, you can go have fun without me, I'll survive."
"It's just-" He was spinning his "R" ring around on his finger, an obvious sign of anxiety. "I was planning on seeing someone."
"Someone." I repeated. "Care to explain?" My agitation was growing by the second.
"I'm going to find April."
At first it didn't exactly hit me. The name April hadn't registered in my brain until I saw Ross scrambling to explain. But my ears refused to listen, my brain refused to see reason with this, because whatever this was, was not okay.
"I just need answers." He finished off this long spiel, and he probably noticed how stolid I was. He reached out to touch my shoulder but I slapped his hand away, and I felt the moisture building up in my eyes, I've gone so long without crying, or flying off the handle, of course this bliss wouldn't last forever, of course something like this just had to happen.
But that's the thing.
He's choosing to go. He's choosing to see her. He's choosing to leave me to do it.
"Don't you dare." I spat. "If you loved me then you wouldn't need answers from her." I growled and Ross' wide eyes suddenly narrowed.
"Don't be that way." He chastised.
"Oh I didn't know I was supposed to be happy about you seeing your ex."
"Oh just like how I'm supposed to be happy about you sending a letter to yours?" I stood and stepped back from Ross.
"That's different." I hissed.
"Whatever. I'm going, and you can't stop me." His chest was heaving, while I felt like my heart was in the pit of my stomach.
I wasn't as angry as I was sad, and I couldn't help but let it show as I sat on my own bed and cried into my hands. "Everything was so good two days ago." I sobbed, and I heard Ross sigh. "Did it mean nothing to you?"
Ross pulled my hands away from my face. "It meant the world." He caressed my cheek but I turned away.
"It obviously didn't mean much, if it meant the world than you wouldn't need to see her, but you do, because I'm not enough, aren't I?" My voice cracked.
"Caspian, I love you."
"You love her too." I sat and waited, as the silence stretched on for longer than it should have. And I closed my eyes tightly. "You're not denying it." I whispered.
"I'm sorry." He said quietly and I shook my head almost in hysterics.
"No, I'm sorry, for being a blind fool." I laughed a bit. "I knew something was going to bad was going to happen, just never thought it was going to be you." I went into the closet and grabbed my clothes, tossing them, hangers and all on to my bed, doing the same with the clothes in my dresser.
"Caspian, don't." He tried to reach for me but I dodged out of the way, grabbing the corners of my blanket, using it as a makeshift bag and dragging it out of the room behind me as Ross trailed behind me.
"Caspian!" He grabbed my wrist as I was at the top of the stairs.
"Get off of me!" I struggled to get free but once I was I found myself tumbling down the stairs along with all of my belongings. And as I hit the bottom I looked over towards the living room seat to see the Scout from Florida, watching the scene unfold with wide eyes.
Mama Vi and Ross both rushed over to help me up, I shoved Ross away and fell into Mama Vi's embrace, as I came apart, a sobbing mess.
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Wowza.
I've been gone for a bit, hope the drama makes up for it \(^•^)/
So I kinda screwed up this school year by taking a bunch of boring classes, like they're so boring to the point where I hate it, but I'm just going to get through it because it's my fault for putting money before my actual interests.
So I pre planned my junior year to avoid boredom.
But speaking of my classes, I am the only girl in my IT Essentials class (where you fix computers) it's a little strange, especially since the teacher kinda forgets I'm there, so when he jokes around with the guys it's kinda inappropriate then he makes awkward eye contact with me then moves on with the lesson.
I heard some of the guys briefly talking about me, they're kinda peeved about how I get everything finished early, they think I'm trying to prove myself to them or something, but I could honestly care less.
School has always been easy for me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
So I've got two new videos on my channel
ALONE WITH ROSS TRAILER
AND MIKE/ELEVEN EDIT BC IM OBSESSED WITH STRANGER THINGS.
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-Aliah