11:00 AM
RHIAN'S POV
We arrived home. I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone. There, I saw jay.. He went right away to Me. Kissed Me quickly and embraced Me. Pero wala akong reaction. Yung reason ng happiness ko, hinahanap ko pero di ko na maramdaman. So we went inside. He tried talking to Me but I guess, wala talaga ako sa mood.
Are you ok boo? He asked.
Yeah. I am. I just need to rest. I need to be alone muna if its ok. I said in a low voice.
Alright. Sige, i'll talk to you later. He said.
Pero bago pa man siya makaalis, he asked me about something.
Wait. Then he checked my right hand. where's the ring? He asked.
Probably I forgot. boo, i'm tired. let's talk later. i'll check the ring at my room na rin. I said.
I can see the frustration on his face. As usual He just agreed, then left. Di na nag question pa.
I sat and lean on my bed. The letter is still in my hands. But i'm looking at my phone from time to time. All my social media accounts where open, viber & snapchat too. I can't get over this hurt. I wanted to talk to her kahit online.
bestie, I will let you take your rest. Please. don't bother her muna. Give her some space. Bianca said.
She kissed me at my cheek goodbye. She said she'll keep in touch anytime.
Now here I am, all alone. Gusto ko mapag isa, kaya heto mag isa nga talaga ako. Usually, sanay na sanay ako na nasa personal space ni G and she allows me to. That's where I got to know her. I wanted to be in touch with her palagi. And those laugh and jokes na we are throwing at each other, yun yung isa sa mga masarap na conversations namin. I can't accept this situation we're in. So here I am postin' some tweets. I've checked her snapchat na usually private para sa'min dalawa but now looks like an open book for everyone.
Parang love-hate relationship kaming dalawa ngayon. One day, it's an i love you followed by sweet nothings then just like right now, parang lets-not-talk-coz-were-not-that-close ang theme namin. I'm acting like I'm in the middle because of my unfinished commitment with someone while she's trying to be in the middle coz' of herself vs the people that surrounds her. Pareho lang siguro kami ng pinagdadaanan pero iba lang yung ways. I've read back the letter. And I took the hope I need on that letter. After understanding na she really loves Me, no matter what. Hold on, I said to myself.
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AFTER 3 DAYS......
RHIAN'S POV
I had finished my guestings & tapings. Hindi ko maabutan si G ng morning online, so I've decided to check on her at around night time. She's not talking to Me. Got some missed calls to her. She's really quiet. Pero I will still try.
12:00 AM
I was just checking stuff online when I finally saw her online at viber and active on twitter. Anyway, heto naman talaga yung usual time na online kaming dalawa dati at nag uusap. Pero ngayon, i'm all alone. So, I've sent her a viber message again.
Rhian :
pssssst... sige na talk to me na please.
(seen)
Rhian :
wala namang magbabantay ng viber mo
(seen)
Rhian :
hay. what do you want me to do, please naman love!
(seen)
Rhian:
I heart you love. please lets talk this over
(seen)
Rhian :
is this what you really wanted? =(
(seen)
Na seen zoned lang talaga ako. I just don't get it bakit kailangan pang iwasan niya ako. I still did not gave up. Although there were tears falling down my eyes. It's kinda' sad, we have to be this way. Hindi ako mapakali. I tried calling her. But her phone is just ringing.
12:30 AM
GLAIZA'S POV
Hindi ko na alam kung gaano katagal magiging matatag ang puso ko sa sobrang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon. Gusto kong sagutin lahat ng calls at messages niya. Kahit hindi narin ako mapakali. Kung alam niya lang gustong gusto ko na siyang kausapin. May mga nagsasabi bakit ako nagiging ganito, dahil kailangan namin maging distant sa isa't isa. Iba yung gusto mo gawin ang isang bagay kesa dun sa kung ano ang pinapagawa sayo. These tears just keeps on falling from my eyes.
Until now, I'm still receiving messages from her.
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AFTER 1 WEEK
Rhian :
I missed you so much =(
(seen)
Rhian :
bakit mo ba ko pinapahirapan ng ganto?
(seen)
Rhian :
I can't focus with my life without you =(
(seen)
Rhian :
Please! LOVE! naiiyak na ko!
(seen)
Rhian :
You said sa letter that I should always know na you love me no matter what!
I'm holding on....
(seen)
Rhian :
That's it! I'll go there! wait for Me.
(seen)
12:15 AM
GLAIZA'S POV
Hindi niya lang alam nasasaktan ako sa ginagawa kong pag iwas. Hindi na nasundan pa yung last message niya. When after 45mins. I heard a car parking in front of our gate. Everybody is already sleeping. I saw her looking like drunk, standing in front of our gate.
She's in tears. Lumabas ako, as soon as I see her, dinala ko siya somewhere on the side, a little far from our gate.
G, please.....
Then she immediately kissed me on my lips. After a few sec, I stopped her kahit gusto ko pa siyang halikan.
Rhian. Please. Lets stop this. I said, while pinipigilan kong lumuha.
dammit! G. anong ginawa ko para iwasan mo ko ng ganto? Nakalimutan mo ba na hindi lang ikaw ang nasa sitwasyon na to? She asked.
Maraming tayong dapat i consider. Hindi lang mga feelings natin. Please understand me only this time. I said to her while my voice is trembling because my tears were starting to fall.
You should've thought about it in the first place! Bakit pinaabot mo pa sa ganito kung aayaw ka rin lang sa huli? she reasoned out.
I couldn't stop my tears from falling....
Hindi kita inexpect sa buhay ko. Wala akong plano mahalin ka, pero dumating ka. At nagulo ang buhay ko, pero ginusto ko. Ginusto ko yung mga nangyari sating dalawa. decisyon ko yon. kaya wag mong sabihin sakin' na aayaw lang din ako sa huli."
Pero bakit, di ba nag usap na tayo. di ba we will work it out? ano pa ba ang kulang? ano pa ba? ano pa bang proof ang gusto mo gawin ko para makita mo na mahal kita?... Para you'll stay?
she asked.
kung sabihin ko sa'yo na iwanan mo siya, magagawa mo ba? Mahal mo ko, pero alam ko hindi siya nagiging posible. i'm starting to feel na I'm either an option or your inspiration. Hindi mo ko masisisi kung at some point dumating tayo sa ganito. Dahil kahit anong iwas ko, at the end of the day, yan parin ang reality nating dalawa...."
Kung iiwan ko siya para sayo, sasama ka ba sakin? paninindigan ba natin to together? mahirap yung hinihingi mo. She said.
Tatanungin nalang ba natin yung sarili natin ng paulit ulit, what could've been or what should've been, na what if kung ganito ganon? Ba't di mo subukan. Bago kita sagutin. Ang dali magtanong, mahirap naman gawin ang sagot."
G, please. I can't lose you. I can do what you are asking. It's just please, don't leave Me. Let's work this out. Please G. she continued crying.
I'm sorry, Rhi. Akala ko magiging okay na tayo, hindi pa rin pala. Pag isipan mo ng mabuti. At kung tayo talaga, you'll find your way back to Me. No matter what...
G... No, please. G.
Unti unti akong tumalikod sa kanya, while she's trying to stop Me. Pero, I had to let go, and that's it. She was still crying. Napaiyak ako ng sobra sobra. At nilabas ko yung lungkot ko ng makarating ako sa room ko. I heard her car leaving. But her face, I can't forget how sad she looks.
If there's no pain in love, then you're not really loving. Ano bang love ang walang complications in real life? Maybe, if it is fate then everything will fall in the right place."