Heaven
"Mum?" Jabir says placing a hand on my shoulder. "He's gone."
"It's all my fault. He told me he was going to do it and I didn't care. He warned me about what he would do if I left him. I killed him."
"You did all you could. He wasn't well mum." His eyes watered. I could tell he didn't want to cry. He didn't want to show even a speck of emotion for his father.
He was everything to me. Everything. I shut his eyes. "I know we promised to never say goodbye. But you had to go. You weren't healthy. I'm so sorry. Goodbye Zayn."
I shoot awake. Jabir was asleep next to me. Jawwad was watching me. I had took them all from their rooms just so I wouldn't be alone and do something stupid. "You woke me up."
"I'm sorry." I say catching my breath. "I've got to go. I'll be back to tuck you in and give you your medicine. Alright babe?"
He nods and pecks my nose. 13 and he's still a mummy's boy.
"Zayn?" I call running to our room. "Zaynie?" He wasn't responding. "Zayn Malik if you do not get up this instant I will kill you...well not really because you'd already be dea-"
"I'm not dead. I am upset you left me all alone but I'm not dead." He says sitting up. "And I swear, if you start singing break even, I will be."
"Zaynie!" I jump on him. "You've got to stop making me think you're dead."
"I'm fine."
"Zayn, everyday you tell me not to tell you I'm fine. Yet, here you are." I cradle him into my arms. "Stop it. I'm already afraid to leave you alone for a second. Don't talk like that."
"You're not my mum." He pouts while peeling me off of him. "Oh- you mean like how I'm not allowed to breathe without your permission." I shot back. "Or how you get angry when I pay attention to anyone besides you?"
"Well, you said I'm the only one you see. If that's true, your attention should be on me at all times."
"Yeah, not like we have 3 kids to look after or anything." I roll my eyes. "Wow, and here comes lady sarcasm."
I groan. "Aren't we done with that?"
"Come 'ere," He lifts the duvet and I crawl under. "I love you."
"Whatever,"
Jawwad
I sit awake waiting for mum. "Just go to bed. She's not coming back." Jabir says. He pulls the duvet over his head.
She's going to come back. I know it. She wouldn't leave me for him.
Hours roll by. She didn't come back.
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I skip downstairs. I guess making up with Zayn made me all happy. "Good morning Jabir." I smile. He furrows his brows but returns the smile. "What's got you so happy? Don't tell me you're high?"
"No. I don't do drugs. I'm just happy. Life is just wonderful. Isn't life just wonderful?"
"Really? Your opinion sure is going to change when you reach the kitchen." He pats me on the back. "Good luck mum."
What is he on?
I continue to the kitchen. Jawwad sits at the table. He leaned on his elbow as his eyes drooped. "You OK?"
He says nothing. His eyes travel over to mine. After a moment of silence, he speaks. "I'm just tired." His voice was hoarse. He let's out a yawn. "Why didn't you sleep?" I question. "Why don't you leave me alone? Or better yet ask dad, since he seems to be more important than me. Or just ask yourself. Clearly you only care about yourself. Thanks for leaving me all alone. I couldn't sleep and I had chest pains all night. I feel so stupid. I cannot believe I actually thought you would care about me for once. Why? Just, why?"
My mouth fell open. "Because you let me."
"I'm not sure I can stay here anymore."
"W-what do you mean?"
"I think I'm gonna go live with grandmum. She offered years ago. She may not be my mum, but at least she cares about me."
"N-no. I won't allow it."
"Well, prepare to lose another son." He spat before strolling away.
I've done it again. Yep! Now all I have to do is ruin Jannat. I'm really starting to question my parenting skills. Before I die, all my kids will be drug addicts and hate me.
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Yeah, it sucks but I really couldn't think of much. I just remembered 5 minutes ago that I forgot to publish it.
You ever like someone so badly that you defend them regardless of what they do? I feel like ever since Zaynie left, all the Zayn girls stopped defending him. Calvin Harris picked a fight with him for something Miley Cyrus said. Zayn shouldn't have been rude but, seriously? Why not confront Miley?
So.. I found out some things about Zerrie that makes me cringe. Found out she didn't really like him until 1D got more famous. And she said he was "bad" and she knew that. If you thought he was trouble, why did you "date" him?
History is amazing. Niall's teaser is my life.
Night potatoes x