Shanes POV
After lunch i walked with Ricky and Sawyer. The others has gone to class or just ditched it.
Ricky: Guys im gonna go to class i really need it this time
Shane: Okay see you later man
And with that Ricky ran to his class
Shane: Hey Sawyer?
Sawyer: yeah?
Shane: Have you ever.. like.. um you know nevermind
Sawyer: Come on dude! you cant just drop out like that!
Shane: No its stupid anyways..
Sawyer pulled me against the lockers but not hard
Sawyer: Shane please! its not stupid whatever it is
Shane: You will just think im pathetic
Sawyer: Why would i?
I sighed
Shane: You know i dont wanna talk about it here.. Can we maybe go home to me or you?
Sawyer: Of course we will go to me after school, you better tell me Shane im your bestfriend
and i care about you
Shane: Thanks man
Sawyer: Leta go to class we are already really late
We ran to class and as we did i was getting nervous about later.
(2 hours later)
It was the end of the day and the school bell rang me and Sawyer was picking up our things at our lockers and what i couldnt get out of my head was.. Joey.. That boy could make me weak i didnt even wanna punch him the first time i looked at him but when you are a bully and people are terrified of you and you gotta look up to you place, you have to do what you gonna do and that is what i did. After i ran.. leaving Joey there on the ground i fell bad, really fucking bad! and that is what im gonna tell Sawyer.. But i have only known Joey for a day? do i like hi.. No! thats nevee gonna happen! im not even gay or...
Sawyer: Your coming Shane?
i snapped out of my thoughts
Shane: What?.. Oh yeah sure
Sawyer: Are you okay
Shane: yeah im fine lets just go
I tried to avoid seeing Joey in the hallway but when we got outside i saw him standing by the bus crap at the same time Ian, Ricky and Anthony ran up to us
Ian: Hey guys so we just beat the shit out of Matthew and the others!
Anthony: We got Tylee sent to the nurse and everything!
Sawyer: Awesome!
Shane: Yeah they deserve it!
They didnt
Ricky: Well what are we waiting on? should we go to my house and play games or something?
Sawyer: Umm me and Shane are gonna hang out but you guys can just go
Ricky: Okay whatever floats your boat, Ian, Anthony are you guys up?
Anthony, Ian: Totally!
Ricky: Okay see you guys later
Sawyer, Shane: See ya
Sawyer: Well lets go i cant wait to here what you have to tell me
Shane: hehe, well um can we like walk to your house?
Sawyer: why
Shane: I just dont wanna get on the bus today
lies
Sawyer: Sure why not? my house isnt that far anways
We started walking and we talked along
Shane: So Sawyer have you found any luck in love lately?
Sawyer: i mean i have this huge crush on Ingrid! Ian told me she liked me
Shane: you should go for it man!
Sawyer: I will soon, so are you happy for Lisa?
Shane: i mean she makes me happy and all but i just dont feel the sparks as before
Sawyer: im sorry dude
Shane: its okay
We arrived at Sawyers house and he opended the front door
Sawyer: Mom! im home and Shane is here too!
no respons
Sawyer: oh yeah! she is working late today so we are alone
Shane: Oh okay cool!
We walked up the stairs to Sawyers room, he had a wall that was light grey and a big bed near his window. Our rooms kinda looked like eachother except i had dark grey walls and i had a window to my right right next to my bed. Sawyer and i threw our backs on the side of his door and sat down on his bed
Sawyer: Shane pleasseee tell me now!
Shane: Fine.. so have you ever like thought someone was attractive or sweet and doesnt deserve certain things but is not supposed to be thinking that way?
Sawyer: umm.. eh i dont think so
Shane: well i feel that and i wanted you to know tha..
I didnt even get a chance to finish my sentence
Sawyer: Omg do you like someone or are you cheating!
Shane: no or i mean i like someone..
Me Shane fucking Dawson was in love with someone i have looked at for maybe 5 minutes and dont even get to have a real conversation with plus did i mention i have barely known him for a day! I love Joey Graceffa!!
Sawyer: What about lisa?
Shane: like i said no sparks..
Sawyer: Tell me!
Shane: umm.. im not reall..
Sawyer: Omg you like meghan i know it!!
I couldnt get it out, i couldnt say to Sawyer i was gay just then and loved the one i fucking hurt! so i just decided to play it off
Shane: umm.. Yeah! but please dont tell Lisa
Sawyer: I wont! i have noticed how you give her those glances sometimes but she hangs out with the fags..
Shane: i know but we are friends she just doesnt tell anyone because of course i bully her friends
Sawyer: oh! right but im glad you told me man
Shane: yeah.. um i gotta go my mom said i should get home soon she has something to tell me i think
Saywer: oh okay see you later
Shane: see you
We hugged and i left to go to my house
I walked up to the front and pushed the door
Shane: Im home!
Joel (Shanes dad): Hi son had a good day?
(A/N i just wanted to say Shanes dad is not abusive or anything in this story and i dont know his name so i named him Joel)
Shane: it was like the other days
Joel: well im gonna go to a meeting now, love you!
He said while kissing my forehead and walking out the door
Shane: love you too!
i mumbled as he already was out the door. I was on my way up to my room but then my mom came
Theresa: Hi honey! how was your day?
Shane: It was okay
Theresa: Well im going to whole foods you want anything?
Shane: ehh no thanks!
Theresa: Okay bye honey see you later!
Shane: Bye!
i shouted as i walked up the stairs, now i was alone i threw my backpack on the floor and closed the door and layed down on my bed and reached my computer. I started to go through facebook and i decieded to look for Joey i typed in "Joey Graceffa" and there he was so perfect ugh how can a person be so perfect just everything about him makes me shiver!
I eventully found out alot about him that Lisa had talkes about but also new stuff, like what kind of shows he likes and much more, wow im a stalker. While i scrolled trough my twitter i got a text.
(Text)
??: Party at my house Friday at 10 PM! bring all the guest you want at (address) hope you can make it!
omg it was my childhood friend Luke! its been so long since i saw him, he didnt even live that faraway we saw eachother like 5 months ago! i can invite Sawyer and the others and maybe Meghan and convince ger to go out with me or something becasue im getting so tired of Lisa and since i have told Sawyer that i "like" Meghan i guess i should try..
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Hey guys! so what do you think? So we reached over 300! and i think thats so amazing and i just wanna say thank you guys for sticking around and reading, it means alot! well this is not gonna be a long A/N so i will see you guys in the next chapter! ily all <3