***Atlast the update which you waited🤷♀️💕😜. I hope you will like it. Sorry for the late update, as am not feeling well because of vaccination😜😊. Just now did the last touch😪🤣but there will be enormous mistake.
Warning it is very big chapter🤗, with the word count of 8605. Happy reading💞💕***
Iniya pov:
Flashback starts.....
During night too I couldn't able to sleep properly. I kept on thinking about, how will I say my love to him. I really love him so much.
'Is this is love' my mind again asked me.
'Yeah I love him soo much. His caring, his loving nature is all I need. No one spoke with me like him, no one gave importance to me like he is giving to me,.... He is the one I need in this life. Vihaan, his name is enough for me to erupt millions of butterflies in my stomach. His voice is enough for me, to stop my trembling. He is enough for me. 'I replied.
That night I didn't slept properly.
As a result I couldn't able to listen In my class. Uff my eyes were started to droop on its own.
"Iniya" someone shouted my name.
Ahhh.
I opened my eyes immediately. Oops everyone in the class is seeing me. Ahh....
The voice belongs to mam. I just looked at her. She is glaring at me. Okay.
"Iniya, what is this. Is this how you will listen. Sleeping in the class. I didn't expect this from you iniya" mam said in her disappointment tone. I just lowered my head.
"Mam, I think she might have an heavy lunch. We all know about iniya right who always eat everything. Fatty iniya" one boy said actually he literally shouted.
"Fatty iniya" another girl shouted.
I just didn't replied anything. Mam just nodded her head as no in disbelief.
"Take your seat iniya. Atleast from now start to listen okay" she asked me.
I nodded my head. Why everyone is mocking me. I felt like crying. But but I didn't. I controlled my crying.
Exactly at that moment, we all heard an knock. I just looked up and seen it is vihaan
What he is doing here.
I just kept looking at him. He immediately turned his face towards me.
"May I come in mam" he asked mam in his boyish tone. Every girls started to look at him dreamily. Even I too.
"Yes Vihaan" mam said. Yeah every staff knows him.
"Mam actually I came here to inform that someone from iniya family came to school and asking for her. I happened to be in the principal room. Sir asked me to inform it to her, mam. And asked me to fetch her to the principal office immediately" he said to me.
Oh my god what happened.
But no one consider me in my home.
Then who it might be.
Wh...
Before I think more, mam asked me to go. I nodded my head. And gone out from the class.
As soon as I came out. I asked Vihaan who is that.
"You will see by yourself" he said to me non chantly and started to walk fastly before me. Even he holded my hand and grabbed along with him. He is walking fastly, I just going behind him like literally running behind him. I kept seeing his side face. Ahh I just want to kiss his cheek.
Ufff.
I kept on seeing his face. That I didn't see where he is taking me. When he stopped walking, I seen around it is back of our school. Where we meet at first.
What happened?
"Vihaan wh...." he didn't let me to finish.
As He hugged me.
What?
"Vihaan what happened" i asked him.
"Iniya, am missing my grandma. Before 2 years on this day we lost her. This kept on coming to my mind." he said to me by clutching me tightly and crying in my neck. I just wrapped my hands over him. I kept rubbing his shoulder.
"I don't know what to do. In thought of diverting my mind, I came to school today. But I couldn't able to concentrate on anything. I just want to share this with you. I loved her so much iniya. I don't know why, but I felt my worries will be gone if I shared with you. That's why I came to your class iniya "he said to me.
" Oh my Vihaan. Its okay to be cry. Just let it out. I will be always with you "I said to him.
He smiled as he showed his face. I love his smile. I seriously want to kiss his cheek. Ufff.
" Thanks iniya"he said to me.
"Friends won't say thanks" I said to him.
He laughed.
I too smiled after seeing his laugh.
He kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes. I wiped his tears. He took hold of my hand and kissed my palm.
Again this butterflies ahhh.
"Fluffy bear" he said.
"What"
"You are my very own fluffy bear" saying this he pulled my cheeks. This boy.
"Ahh" I shouted as its paining.
"Don't call me fluffy bear" I said at him glaringly.
"Fluffy bear" he again said to me.
I just hitted his chest. He grabbed my both hands. And made me to lean over the wall.
"You are my very own fluffy bear" he said to me smilingly.
"You are indirectly saying me that am fat right" I asked him meekly.
"No no iniya. Oh my god girl. You are so fluffy fluffy like how I say. Like spongy spongy. I always want to pinch your cheeks. Thats why am calling you as fluffy bear" he said to me.
I glared at him.
"Go away" I said to him and started to move away from his clutch somehow. But he grabbed me from behind by hugging me.
Ahh this boy.
"Fluffy bear sorry" he said.
"Don't call me with that" I said to him angrily.
Oh my god. Am speaking with him so casually. I love this. I too placed my hand over his. Am being me with him.
"Hy it's just am giving you an another name. Please iniya. Let me call me you with that name" he said to me.
I nodded my head.
How will I not, he is asking me very lovingly.
"Fluffy bear" he again called me.
I smiled at him. He smiled more brightly right now.
"Comeon fluffy bear we will sit there, I don't want to attend the class. I want to spend time with you. If am with you I will forget every other things. Am glad that I asked you for an friendship" he said to me. Then we both took the seat side by side. He took my hand and intertwined with his.
Just before some mins I felt sad in class, but he took me and made me special right now.
Then we both started to speak randomly. I even argued with him. This boy is something who is making me to come out of my shell, he is having that capability I must say.
Halfway through our speech, I just placed my head over his shoulder and hugged him sideways.
He knows about my past but not much, he knows about my dad and mom who died at my birthday. And I shared my problems with him how everyone called me as an bad omen. I cried at his lap, actually we both were stayed in school at that day after 4 clock. I happened to share my past. He consoled me and scolded me for calling myself as badomen. He consoled me like am an baby. But I didn't reveal that I am living with my step dad. Step brother and half brother. I just said that am living with my grandparents. I don't want to say about my brothers, then he will surely fight with suresh Anna. As no one in this school knows that am related to suresh Anna and abinash brother. Dad won't come to the parents teacher meeting too for me but he will attend for my brothers. Only principal knows my dad. I don't want Vihaan to know this. I want an simple life. I first want to say my love then I will share my everything.
I hugged him even more tightly.
I love this.
If this isn't love, then I don't know what is. Because he didn't believe like everyone that am an badomen.
He is saying something, but all am seeing his jaw movement. He turned to me suddenly and raised his eyebrow. I just said no. So he again continued. I love him so much man. I have to say it to him. I can't hide it with myself for so long. Either in anyway I will reveal it by myself. I want him. I want to be his.
His lover
His girlfriend
Why not his wife also
Only his.
Will he accept me, am not an beautiful one. If he accept me, then what about his parents, this society, will my dad accept this. I don't now. I have many unanswered questions.
Already the love and all don't work in my family. My mom love itself....
Don't think iniya.
Loving him is okay.
'Do you think that your family will going to marry you off at the right age. Did you forget your dad words. He said to your grandparents right, once I get 18 year old they will ask me to move out of this village and atleast he is somewhat generous because he said that he will sponsor and arrange some home, in another city. Did you forget it iniya. Then you will became practically an orphan. Think about it' my mind said to me.
Yeah it's true.
At 18 official orphan. I laughed at this.
I need him.
I need his security.
I need to feel as secured one.
I hugged him tightly.
So only one can able to solve my problem. Call me an selfish, using him or anything.he is the solution. I want to say my love.
Okay iniya you have to say tomorrow itself. I nodded my head as if am accepting it. But I first want to ensure that he won't leave me. So,....
"Vihaan you won't leave me right." I asked him slowly.
He grabbed my face.
"What are you speaking iniya" he asked me.
"I just thought of asking you Vihaan. This I don't know, I don't know why Vihaan this thing is nagging my mind. So I thought of asking you. I know I know it may look childish to you. But I got so much attached to you Vihaan. That am afraid right now, without you my life is difficult vihaan"i said to him.
"Fluffy bear, I won't leave you. Not in this life. I promise you." saying this he wiped my tears. He kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes and hugged him.
"Thanks Vihaan" I said to him.
"You are very important person in my life iniya. My fluffy bear. You are my best friend." he said. Eventhough I disliked that bestfriend tag. But will see once I said my love to him. Will he accept me or not.
That day night I couldn't able to sleep. My focus is fully on how to express my love. My love to him.
At morning I took some time to get ready. But I know that anyways am going to look ugly. But but for him I won't be ugly right.
With this thought I gone to the school. I waited for him at our meet up place in morning. Yup daily he will first meet me.
But he didn't come today.
Did he forget that am waiting here. So I gone inside our school. I straightly went to ananya akka class.
After seeing me akka came with an smile.
"Akka did you see Vihaan" I asked her.
"No iniya, I think he forget to say that he and his family gone to their native village. In order to do some rituals for her grandmother something like that. So yesterday itself he gone from my home" she said to me.
Oh my god.
Okay okay
"Akka can you give your phone I want to speak with him, please" I asked her. She nodded her head with an smile. Then she gave her phone by putting the call to him.
I waited for him to pick up.
"Hello ananya" I heard his voice.
"Hello" I said.
This is the first time I were speaking with him in phone.
"Hy fluffy bear is that you. Oh my god. Hy I want to inform you that an sudden plan came up for me. I will be out for next 2 weeks. Am sorry fluffy, I couldn't able to say to you. As I don't have the point of contact to you" he said to me.
I smiled at his concern.
"Okay okay Vihaan, take care okay" I said to him.
Then I said my thanks to akka. She smiled at me and asked my love. I said yes and even said that I am going to propose him. Once he came back. But for some reason she didn't smiled. I don't know why.
Atlast I came out of the class with an bright smile. So I have to wait this 2 weeks that's it right. Just 2 weeks I will be his. He will be Mine.
Like this my next 2 weeks gone by speaking with Vihaan in the phone of ananya akka. He said that he will come from tomorrow.
Am happy.
But next day too he didn't came to school. I thought of asking about him through ananya akka, so I reached her class. But she too missing.
I asked her friends, but they just fat shamed me.
But next day I got to know from teachers saying that Vihaan parents were died in some accident. I don't know how is Vihaan. I asked mam, she said he is fine. That is when I breathed.
But my whole world stopped thinking about his parents. Did it because of me. Did it happened because as Vihaan is speaking with me. Am really an bad omen right. After hearing this I just ran into the bathroom to puke everything. Because my body started to tremble and panic attack started on its own. I couldn't able to control myself. Somehow I did.
I don't know how my Vihaan is coping up with that. My boy. My love. I don't know.
I know the pain of being an orphan.
I know the pain of not having the parents.
I know the pain.
I felt his pain.
All I need is to hug him and comfort him.
But I don't know his home address. Yes not even once I didn't gone to his home. All I know his, he is living in ananya's home to study. His parents were in Chennai. His dad's brother's wife is the friend of ananya akka family. So they preferred this school and asked him to stay with them. He too joined because he want to explore other cities. For traveling he mostly used his own car, yes I heard that he is from very rich family. For safety purpose he is not allowed to drive before 18.
So I don't know his home.
Even I gone to ananya home at that day. But their family is not their. I just know akka home thats how I gone their. But its waste. Yeah she too kind of rich one.
Vihaan.....
Love......
Time skipped:
Its been another 2 month. I didn't seen Vihaan and ananya. They both were missing.
I missed Vihaan badly. I want to console him. I just want him to accept me . I want to hug him. I want to kiss him.
I want him.
These 2 and half month I couldn't able to concentrate on anything. My fear and my nightmares started on its own. I couldn't even able to control my panic attack. How will it subside when am thinking that I might be the reason for Vihaan parents death too. But I know if I thought like this Vihaan will scold me. But am feeling guilty, why I don't know. Its all because of this society. Why they were calling me as an bad omen. Am missing him badly.
That is when I came to know that how much I dependent on Vihaan. My whole life is dependent on him. Only on him.
In night I will just wear his jacket and sleep. My love.
Daily I will cry for one hour. Then I would sleep. This is how I spend my night. In school no one will speak with me. Ananya friends always used to mock me. Mainly that Rita.
Every students in the class too started to body shame me. Yup it's all because of the senior. I don't have any idea about what to do.
My fear increased too much.
In those 2 months my brothers started to say many things like am the reason for Vihaan parents death too. But I didn't said anything.
May be may be it might be true right.
My panic attacks gone to another level, where I can't even able to breath properly.
These past months my only constant is my crying. It is the only thing am doing.
Am crying because I couldn't able to be with vihaan
Am crying because of my fate.
Am waiting for him to arrive. I don't know what I will say to him. What I will do. But I want to be with him.
With this thought I slept wearing his jacket.
Am his fluffy bear.
His very own fluffy bear.
His only.
Will he accept my love. My fat body. Will he.
I don't know the answer, but somewhere in my heart says that he will accept my love.
But at the same time, I felt like something bad is going to happen.
At morning, I got readied and gone to school with an sad mood. I didn't have my breakfast. I went to school by public bus. When I reached there I started to move to my class, but on my way I seen that ananya akka is present. That's it.
I just gone near to her and hugged her. After she sensing me it is, she smiled at me.
"Akka how is Vihaan" I asked her.
"Yeah he is okay da" she said to me.
I asked her when he will come. She said that Vihaan will start to come by day after tomorrow. I just want to comfort him. That's it.
Atlast am able to see my love. I smiled at akka. And she said one thing which brings more happiness into my life. That Vihaan,is too loving me. Vihaan already opened up his love for me to akka. I couldn't believe this am so happy. I even asked her many times to get confirmed. She said yes. Even she glared at me playfully because of my torture.
Then we both spoke about him sometime. I asked about him.
"He has one surprise for you" akka said in my ear.
"What is it akka" I asked her.
"Surprise are meant to be not open" she said to me. I just glared at her playfully. I asked her to call him.
Akka called Vihaan and gave the phone to me.
"Hello" I said to him as soon as hr attended the call. I want to hear his voice.
"Hello fluffy bear, how are you. I don't have much time. As I have some other work. But one think I want to say is, I have an surprise for you. Day after tomorrow please come to my class as soon as possible I will be waiting for you. Bye" he said it in one go and cut the call.
I just kept looking at the phone. What happened to him. What it might be the surprise. I smiled at the phone. Uff. This is the first time am speaking with him after knowing his love.
Then I gave the phone to ananya akka. And I started to move out of the class, but I heard Rita voice.
"Ananya, that surprise is Vihaan proposal only right" Rita said. I heard it as I just were walking beside the wall, they both were in another side of the wall right.
Before I could hear more, I heard the bell ringing sound and staffs were scolding all the students in the corridor.
So I just gone towards my class.
What Vihaan is going to propose. Oh my god. That's why he asked me to come to his class. Am going to be his official girlfriend.
His surprise for me. That is what ananya saying right. Oh my god.
That day I kept on thinking, what I will do. I mean it is surprise according to him and akka. But Rita opened it, I just didn't know what to do. I even cried at night in happiness.
Atlast this fat, ugly, badomen girl is going to be loved right.
Like this in euphorio my next day gone.
This day is to see my Vihaan, my love. I just want to hug him tightly and to console him. Only him.
With this thought I gone into the school. But in morning mam called me as soon as she seen me entering into the school premises as I reached the school earlier in happiness, ufff. With an sour mood I gone there. She gave me couple of work, without any choice I did it.
After that I gone towards Vihaan class. My heart started to beat rapidly.
After solid 2 months of separation,am going to see him. I really missed him. The love for him increased every day.
I just entered into the room and stopped at the entrance of his class.
But......
But the sight before me, I just couldn't able to understand. My whole world stopped.
There....
There.....
There Vihaan is on his knee and showing the rose. He is proposing.
Everyone of his class were seeing this. Even suresh Anna too smiling. Every boys were encouraging him.
But the girl is not me.
He he is proposing to to Ana.. Ananya akka.
"Ananya, I know its quite early to ask this. I know my parents are no more. It's not even an two months. But I want you. These past two months you took care of me like am an baby, I want it to continue for ever. See I have no one beside me now. I want you. Can you please cherish me. I want us to move on our relationship from bestfriends to lovers. Will you accept my love. I love you Ananya" Vihaan said.
I love you Ananya.
I love you Ananya.
I love you Ananya.
His words kept on ringing in my ears.
"Yes" I heard ananya's answer.
What is happening here.
Immediately after Vihaan stood up, ananya hugged him.
Everyone in the room cheered. My very first tear slipped from my eyes, soon it started to flow continously. My tears.
Is this they both mentioned as surprise.
Ananya came out of vihaan's hug. She smiled at Rita. Then she turned and seen me.
She smirked at me.
What?
Is Everything is an act.
Why?
She silently came towards me, as everyone is congratulating Vihaan. No staffs were present here as still 15 more mins to class to start.
I couldnt able to see Vihaan clearly because of my tears.
"Hi iniya" ananya said.
"Why" I asked her in between my cries.
"Oh fatty don't cry" saying this she wiped my cries. I looked at her shockingly. Even more.
"oh fatty, how was my act. Seriously its really tough girl to act like an good girl in front of you. You see I don't even like to speak with an girl like you who is not having an abcd knowledge of fashion, an pig, an fatty what not...." she said in my ear.
I kept looking at her. I don't know what to do.
My hands started to tremble slightly. But I intertwined my fingers.
" Do you think that I will leave you just like that after you slapping me before every single students. That too an pig like you. You ugly bitch. This is my revenge. My revenge, how is it." saying this she kissed my cheeks.
"For me my status is important, an low class pig, girl like you slapped me right. That too for an two time. That is the day I planned for an revenge atlast it is happening and not only for that. What you thought that you can love my baby, no never dear. I loved him even before he joined this school. He is mine. Only mine. Its funny right, you won't deserve an boy like him, but you thought of having him. For me everything is based on status. I won't leave someone who thought of taking mine. An way more to go. Still you will see the hell baby" saying this she again kissed my cheeks.
" Everyone here"she shouted. Then everyone turned towards me.
Yes even Vihaan too.
He won't leave me right.
Might be he seen me as his friend. Well if it's then too its okay for me. I just need him. As long as he is with me I can able to lead my life. If its not an love, then atleast we can be friends right.
Because this ananya is the one mistake here right? She did this in an revenge plan right. She is the one who said that even Vihaan too loving me, it's okay if he didn't seen and want me as his lover. For me his existence is enough. With this thought.
I smiled at him.
But He just glared at me.
What did I do.
Did he thinking that I didn't consoled him when he needs me. Oh my god. I don't know his address right. Okay I will tell it to him. He will understand me. Am His fluffy bear only right.
"Vihaan am s...." I started to say.
But vihaan cut it off.
"Iniya" I looked at him.
"Or should I say badomen iniya" he shouted. I stood stilled. As no one knows here.
"The one who is the reason for her very own parents death." he said to me and walked towards me.
Everyone gasped, I looked at him shocked. I shared my very own secret by trusting him but but he... No one knows this. No one knows from where am, who is my parents.
"Vihaan what are you speaking. What happened to you? " I asked him.
"What happened to me is that you were asking me. Because of you my parents died. Because of you. Just because of you. Why I even befriended you. Because of your bad luck my parents passed away." he shouted.
"We already warned you right Vihaan" Rita said.
"Am sorry Rita that day I supported this fatty" he turned and said to her. I just kept looking at him.
"I came to know that you started to love me" he said. Most of them were laughed.
It didn't hurt.
But Vihaan laughed at me.
It hurts.
He came closer to me,
"How was the surprise iniya. The surprise which I said in the phone. I know you might have thought that I will propose to you because I know you heard the Rita words right. But the twist is, it's not for you, it's for my mere jaan. My ananya" he said to me very slowly.
"I thought of helping you that's it. But not even once I thought your bad omen will affect me. I thought it is an bullshit to think others bad luck will affect us. But its true see because of your friendship my parents died. " he said.
"And leave that, Do.. Do you see... Seen yourself in mirror. Did yo.. You really thought that I will love you. Oh my god." he said in between his laugh.
I took hold his face.
"Vihaan what are you speaking." I asked him.
What happened to him. Is he having any fever. Or am in deep sleep or what. He won't speak with me like this right.
"Vihaan are you okay" I touched his forehead. I think he is having an fever.
He just slapped away my hand. It really hurts.
"Ahhh iniya, what are you thinking that if you speak like this that I will accept your love right" he asked me laughingly.
"No Vihaan" I nodded my head as no.
"You don't have to accept my love but atleast please be with me atleast as a friend if not friend atleast be as an acquaintance please vihaan" I asked him desperately. I don't going to care about my self respect. I need him. Atleast as an friend.
He might be true that because of me that his parents may died.
"Am sorry Vihaan. May be may be you are true. Am an bad omen. But please am sorry please talk with me." I asked him. More or like begged him.
He looked irritated.
"You bad omen girl go away. I just befriended you because it's my nature. I want to have friendship with everyone. With you it's fully like with an concern only. I thought of helping you as no one in this school was spoke with you right. I just helped you like we used to help the beggars only. But that help turned out to be an nightmare to me...." he stopped.
"You took my friendship as an advantage and started to consider me as your lover right. You want my money. Just an gold digger. Get lost. Aanaya said to me that how you challenged with her that you will make me as your lover. So for that I just did this surprise plan. An girl like you won't get an boy like me. You used me in the name of friendship iniya. Am I right. You used me. I don't leave the betrayer" he said to me.
I didn't challenged anyone.
I didn't love him for his money.
I didn't betrayed him.
I looked at ananya.
She is smirking.
" I didn't challenged anyone Vihaan "I said to him.
He clutched my neck and made me to look at him.
" Do you really think that I will trust you over my love . An fat girl like you. You are an ugly girl. That is the reason no one loves you. I thought of helping you, but you took my help as love. Even you have the audicity to say to everyone that am your lover. I got to know from ananya that your challenge how you said that you will make me as an love sick puppy around you. "saying this he laughed.
" No Vihaan I didn't. She is taking her revenge. I slapped her at the first day right. So for that she is taking this revenge "I said to him by grabbing his hand.
He has an disgusted look at me.
" Don't you touch me you fatty "he said.
I immediately withdrawn my hands.
" Do you think me as an fool. Even after you slapped her she made you as her sister right. But what you did, she even said her love on me to you, whereas you challenged with her that you will make me fall for you. Funny girl. Go and see the mirror baby girl" he said to me.
"No Vihaan" I shouted at him.
He just turned. No no I need him.
" Vihaan did you forget our friendship "I asked him by grabbing his hand.
" Yes, am feeling terrible to had an friendship with you. Do you think that I will trust you over ananya. She is my love. I know you maybe for 6 months right. But ananya I know her from my small age. I started to love her from way long but you took my concern as love right. An lonely girl like you will take everything in your own way right like an desparate bitch. "he said to me. Ananya side hugged him by smirking at me.
I wiped my tears. Am not going to cry hereafter. I thought he is my everything, but he just spoke with me in an concern. Okay.
Again an unwanted person.
I nodded my head.
I don't want to look more desparate person.
I just gone away from them. Everyone laughing at me.
" Fatty iniya "I getting heard this name. As everyone is mocking me.
I get out of the class and turned and seen that ananya is hugging Vihaan, but he is seeing me continously.
I just turned my face and gone to my class. I wiped my tear strickened face before entering into the class. But I heard the murmurs. I didn't give much thoughts so I just took my place as I already placed my bag when I first came into the school.
Mam started to take lesson but am just sitting. I don't know why but but something is wrong.
Ananya is at the fault. May be vihaan might be in his parent loss. That's why he might would have spoken with me rashly. He is not like that right. Aananya feeded him the lies right. My Vihaan won't leave me. He promised me right.
During break too I didn't step out of the class as I don't want to see everyone's reaction. Already in class everyone is mocking.
Even right now too.
"How much this fatty put the scene like she is the lover of him. But see right now, everyone as its place right." saying this one girl laughed at me. I just layed my head in the writting desk and closed my eyes. When did I said to everyone that am his lover. I may took his concern as love, but not even once I loved him for his popularity and his money right.
Even in the next classes I didn't concentrate on it.
Around lunch I just stood up and gone out. And started to walk towards my place. As in past 2 months too I used to have the lunch under the neem tree only. I just want to sit there. So in thought of this I started to go. But everyone is seeing me.
Why.
Oh might be the morning incident.
I just started to walk fastly. But everyone is seeing their phone and me. What is it now.
I just didn't give much thoughts, I just walked fastly. But peon called me to the principal office.
What it might be.
Did anything wrong is going to happen.
I just lowered my head nodded and then followed him. We both reached there. He asked me to wait. I just sat in the bench. After 5 mins peon asked me to enter into the principal room.
I gone inside.
"Good afternoon mam" I said to my principal.
She nodded her head and asked me to take the seat.
"Iniya is your name right" she asked me. I nodded my head.
"Do you know why I called you" she asked me. I nodded my head as no.
She stood up from her seat and stand beside me.
"What is the purpose on coming to the school my dear" She asked in her low voice.
"Mam for studying only" I said to her meekly.
"Nah nah," she nodded her head as no.
"Children these days are very worst" she said to the peon uncle.
He too nodded his head.
"Iniya, you can collect your TC from the admin office after this meeting" She said to me. My whole world stopped.
My whole world stopped.
"Mam what are you saying" I asked her.
"I didn't do any wrong things mam" I asked her.
"Do you take me as a fool" she asked me.
What is happening here.
I looked at her kneely. She took her phone and showed me the some photos.
"Even after seeing it, as a Principal will I able to allow you to study here. No right. You are bad influence here. I don't want other students to indulgein other activities like you" she said to me. But nothing is going to my mind, my mind went blank.
There in the photos me with Vihaan hugging pics. But how.
It is friendly hug only right.
"Mam it's just an friendly hug mam" I tried to convince her.
"Swipe next photos" she said to me.
With an trembling hand I swiped, there are many pictures of me with Vihaan and also with other boys. In different positions like hugging, kissing. I just stopped swiping. Those boys I don't know who it is. Then how will I hugged and kissed them.
"Mam this is not me." I shouted at her showing the other pictures. .
"Which theif will accept himself as a theif" mam said cooly to me.
"Mam please its really not me. I hugged Vihaan, but I don't know these boys mam. It's all morphed photos mam. Please please. Its my studies mam, my life. Please mam. This is not me. " I said to her. My crying started at its own pace.
But like everytime no one is there console me.
"Stop your crocodile tears" mam said.
I wiped my tears vigorously.
"Mam am not faking anything mam. Its all morphed mam. " I said to her.
Why...
I didn't done anything right....
"No way iniya, you have to go and collect the tc. Our school has some good reputation we don't want that to get tarnished because of an girl like you. And these informations was already shared with your dad" she said. My whole world stopped. My dad knows. Then what will happen....
I even kneel down on the floor and started to cry vigorously. But she didn't even budged at my tears.
She just take her seat and started to do her work.
She didn't even seen my side. Even if she seen me, her face held only an disgust. For next half an hour I cried there itself. For my life, for my bad luck, for me. What I will do next. What will my dad say. What he will do.
I stood up from there as I know it has no use in it. So this the thing everyone were seeing in this phone. So everyone has this pictures. Even Vihaan too might have right. But he won't believe it right.
This day going to be even worse it seems. I don't know what else am going to see for today.
With this I gone out of the principal room. My tears were flowing on its own.
I just gone to my class, everyone were present there. To take my bag.
"Such a slut. Slut iniya" one girl said.
Everyone started to say, as everyone in my class having the pics it seems. I just lowered my head. Am not an slut. Am not. Am not.
But all I heard is.
"Slut"
"Slut"
"Slut"
"Fast iniya, just take your bag and go out. You are disturbing the class don't forget to collect the tc. This decision were took after consulting with everyone in this school" my teacher said. I just nodded my head.
I don't have energy to fight. From morning to till now I couldn't able to do anything.
Even if I said that am an innocent no one is going to believe me.
Am an innocent right.
Or am I really an slut like they were saying?
"Slut fatty"
I just left the class.
I started to walk towards the admin office. But someone hold my hand.
I turned and saw it was Ananya along with Vihaan.
I just wiggled my hand from the Ananya clutch. But she just grabbed me and pinned me to the wall by grabbing both of my hands to my back.
"Vihaan can you please give us a minute to speak in person?" She asked him lovingly.
He nodded his head.
He then moved. I kept seeing him. He looked away as if....
Ananya grabbed my face.
"How was the second surprise babe. Its really look like original right. Uff I spend some money on those dear. But with Vihaan it is original dear. How was the camera angle dear. " ananya asked me.
I kept mum.
I don't know but I didn't get surprised by these revelations. As I already guessed it.
"Oh my surprise is a waste it seems. Ufff" She said in a sad mocking tone.
My tears flowed again. But not a sound came from my mouth.
"Oh iniya don't cry baby." she said.
"I really loved to play with your feelings. See you are so easy to manipulate, I just said Vihaan too loves you, but in reality he is just showing his concern. You, like a dog, started to think that it's true."she said slowly.
" Poor girl. An ugly girl like you, couldn't have the dream to even love. But you have the audacity to love my Vihaan. He is an rich one, you are I don't know. An bad omen, an murder who happened to be the reason for her own parents death. Aww lovely right. And then you even slapped me. Am a queen bee here. But you, an ugly bullied girl. Have the audacity to slap me. That too before everyone. And what you did, you started to love Vihaan who is mine.i loved him from the start. So I just waited for the right chance. I know Vihaan is only showing concern, I happened to increase your love towards him. Atlast myself crushed it with my own hands right. How was my surprise baby girl. "she said to me.
" I called you akka from my heart. But you did everything for revenge right. Just leave me. You are a bad girl. An bitch. Just for an revenge. "i shouted at her.
I didn't care afterwards.
"You slut" she shouted.
"Am not a slut, you are the one. The one who morphed my photos with other boys" I shouted at her.
"You are right. But who will believe you." she said to me slowly.
I just wiggled again. I need a good sleep. Hereafter I don't know whether I will be able to study or not. Whether I will be able to live my life freely.
She atlast leaved me. She then gone before Vihaan and kissed his cheeks.
She hugged him.
"Vihaan" I called him slowly. I hope he will believe me right.
I don't know why but I think something is wrong with him. Or it's with me.
"Yes fatty." he asked me.
I just looked at him.
"Vihaan am not like that. Am not a slut. Please believe me." I said to him.
"Iniya how will I. I thought you were a good girl. But no you are an slut who wants my body. My money. My everything so that you can show off this world that you are my girlfriend and even thought of using my money right. So in my back you can be with many boys right. "he said.
I looked shocked at this.
Did he thought that i'm a slut.
" No Vihaan it is a morphed one "I said to him.
" Is this "he showed the pictures of him and me. Yes the pictures are not only one image. Our first hug, even in motor room of my village land that picture too and many pictures of us
" This is not a fake one right "he asked me. I nodded my head.
" So this too is not a fake one "he said to me and showed me with other boys hugging and kissing pictures.
" I thought of you as a good girl. But it seems I am wrong in judging you. You are an slut. Move away. I don't know who took these pictures. I must say they bring out the dark ugly side of yours"he said to me.
" Vihaan, you are wrong. Am not a slut. Am a pure one." I took his and said to him.
"No you are a slut" he said to me.
"Vihaan, you know me right. I won't even speak with anyone. After you joined in this school only I somehow started to speak freely. Do you think that I will be a slut. Vihaan think about it. Am not." I asked him.
"This is your trick iniya, to speak like a good girl, your acting is a marvellous I must say. Everyone will fall in your trap that innocent kind look. See even I too thought you as a good girl right. Good thing ananya bring out the true face of yours to me. Am glad atleast by saying your half truth to me. How you challenged and all. " he said to me.
"You won't belive me right" he nodded his head as no.
"You didn't love me right" I asked him. Then why the heck he showed me such a love.
"No" he said.
He betrayed me
He betrayed
Yes he betrayed.
Yes
Yes he said he won't leave me.
But what he did just like that believed an fake news about me right.
He didn't seen me as a friend.
He didn't accept me as a friend.
He didn't loved me.
"Thanks Vihaan. Atleast you showed some concern to me right. Thanks for that Vihaan. I didn't get chance to get loved by anyone till now, I thought you loved me. Its okay. Atleast in my imaginary world you happened to love me right. Thanks because of you I know what is love" I said to him.
One last time I hugged him.
I hugged him like an desperate bitch.
I didn't cry.
I think i'm a slut only right. Even after his betrayal I hugged him. I just laughed at my state. Then I came out of his clutch. I just grabbed his face and kissed his both cheeks. He looked shocked.
Then i kissed his forehead. I love him so much, even after everything this heart yearns him.
"Have a happy life" I said to him.
I am a slut.
A slut……
With this thought I somehow reached my home. I started to enter the house. But dad just showed his hand in front of me.
" Don't you dare enter the house. You slut "my step dad shouted at me.
" No dad.... "he didn't let me finish. He just slapped me.
I looked at him with an eyes full of tears.
" I thought you will be at least an good girl. But no, you are an slut. Who is enjoying her life just for pleasure right."he asked me.
" How many boys did you sleep with?''he asked me. I just closed my eyes and ears.
Is this how a dad will speak with his daughter or step daughter.
" No dad it's no.... "he again slapped me. I just closed my mouth.
" Hereafter there is no place for you to live in this house. Because you are not allowed to stay in this village this is a village panchayat rule. You even enjoyed in our field motor room right with the boy of your brother's classmate. Slut "he shouted at me. And pushed me. I just landed on the floor. How everyone got to know this. Oh how I will forget some of my village boys and girls were studying in that school only right. They might have informed their parents through phone.
I stood up by placing my hand over my cheeks.
" Dad am not a slut. Am not dad. Please believe me '' I shouted at him with my eyes full of crying.
Even most of the neighbours came and started to speak ill about me.
" She is that girl in the picture right "
" Yeah she is the one"
"She is the slut it seems"
"Yeah I too seen her with one boy one day"
"Such an desperate girl for sex it seems"
Many words I heard.
"Go away. Just get lost." saying this my dad thrown away some bags over me.
I just looked at him shockingly. Is it for real.
No no I can't go anywhere.
I don't know anyone.
I don't have anyone.
I am an orphan.
"Appa please I didn't do anything appa. Its an fake pictures appa.am not do anything. And I don't even know what and how to do the sex appa. Believe me. Your iniya is good girl appa. Please appa please let me live in this house, I won't ever step out of the house. Please appa. Appa ple..." again an slap.
Then he just grabbed my head and thrown me out of the house and my bag at me. And closed the door. My brothers were not here. If they present they would have enjoyed it right. Ahh poor boys they missed my tears.
That's how I become an official orphan.
An orphan
Did an one mistake of befriending Vihaan. But did I know that day it will end like this.
If only if only I know this before hand I wouldn't have slapped ananya. I wouldn't......
I cried.
Everyone started to scold me to go away.
"Go away from her girl. I don't want my child to look at you and become like you" one aunty shouted at me. I cried at her.
On the age of 15 I don't know what is sex. But they gave me an title slut.
First of all what is slut?
I laughed at my state. I just took the bag and started to walk. I don't have energy.
This lonely which am feeling is very dangerous than when I felt my mom died.
I miss you mom.
I thought Vihaan won't leave me. He failed in his promise. He failed my friendship. He betrayed me by not keeping his promise.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I hate him.
I loved him. But what he did. He gave the name for my love as desperate bitch.
But still
What is next.....
Where to.....
Where I don't know.....
No one is there with me. Expect my tears. Atleast it is there for me. I just walked for 5 mins. One bus came, I just boarded on it and took the window seat. Atleast I have some money savings of mine. So I just opened my bag and seen my lovely dad placed some money on top of my clothes. I smiled at it. Atleast he is generous right.
What will I do now?
Flashback ends....
Ezhilarasi pov:
That's how I hate him. But still this heart yearns for him. Why I don't know. Somewhere in my heart my love for him still there. I cried again.
The only happiness is midhuna.
I don't want to think ahead. Because........
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