I'm Only Dreaming

Chapter 5

-George-
I decided to call Clay, seeing as how I haven't talked to him since that night. He picked up almost immediately. "Hey George." His voice was sleepy, it made me blush and I got butterflies in my stomach.

"Hey Clay. I'm at Nick's. All is good and I just wanted to call and say thank you for staying on the phone with me the other night. It felt really good to have someone. Honestly I don't think my roommate would've done anything but thanks for staying with me." I just rambled.

"It's no problem Georgie" I could practically hear the smile as he said it. "I'm glad your okay, when you didn't call I was a bit worried. I'm sorta busy now but how about we hop on Minecraft at four?" He said.

Remembering Jason broke my shit I said "I can't, my shit broke so I don't have anything to play on." I felt ashamed of the fact that I didn't even have enough to get a new computer.

"Oh... Well let me know when that situation changes. Talk to you later." He hung up. It sounded like he was in public so I assume he was in a store or something. I walk out of my room and go to the living room. Nick is there. Shit, I poured my heart out to him. He knows everything. He noticed me, smiled and patted the seat next to him.

I sat and sighed. "Don't tell anyone anything, I know you won't but I can't risk Dre-er-Clay finding out anything." He just nodded and unpaused his movie that I didn't even realize he paused. Whoops I'm interrupting everything.

I wanted to get up but he said something. "George I support you. I always have and always will. And I think everyone else will too. Just don't rush but eventually you should say something." I nodded.

"Jason broke my computer..." I sighed out. Nick looked at me and got up. He went to his room which confused me. Until he came back with a computer.

"It's my old one. It's shit but it still works. I gatchu." He laughed as he said the last part.

"Thank you Nick." I took it from him and went to set up in my room. Once I set up everything I texted Dream to get on. We got on together and he called me. I answered and we played for like 4 hours. Realising what time it is we logged off and went to bed. Before I got to hang up the call with Clay he said

"Goodnight George. Hope your feeling better today." I nodded even though he can't see me. After a few seconds of silence he said "I love you George." My eyes widened a bit but as soon as I was about to talk he hung up, probably assuming I wasn't gonna say it back. He was right.

Just then Nick walked into my room. "Sorry forgot to knock, anyway brought you dinner, nothing special just McDonald's." He giggled.

"Thanks, I appreciate everything you've done for me. Mind if I eat in my room?" I said. He laughed.

I was confused. "I'm not your mom, this is your house as much as mine. You can do whatever the hell you want." He said as soon as he calmed down his laughter.

I smiled and started eating my food. Nick smiled at me and walked out of my room, closing my door behind him.

I started thinking about Clay. I really wish he were here, he always made me feel better. No one has ever seen his face before. I wonder what he looks like is he hot? probably, I mean his voice makes him seem hot? I shouldn't be thinking about this. About my best friend like he's more than that. I'm seriously falling for a guy who I've never even seen before. I know he has blond hair and green eyes but that only from what he's told us. He also said he's quite tall. 6,3 I believe he said. I'm only 5,9. Cuddling with him would be amazing with the hight different. He's probably really warm. I wonder if his hair is soft. Okay... If I don't stop myself from thinking about this I'll explode. I thought to myself.

God I wish this could become reality. I was really in love with my best friend, just from his voice. I mean I know it's more than that but that's the only thing I know about him besides what he's told everyone. I'm not even special to him. He isn't gay, 'specially for me. God I wish I could tell him everything but he'd hate me. He'd block me and he'd never talk to me ever again.