Without regrets [redwood book 2]

Chapter forty five

Ryan

Cameron sniffed the air and I slide down further on seat as if it would help hide the scent. I knew it didn't when he sniffed again and his eyes darkened with hunger.

His eyes caught mine and I quickly turned around embarrassed at the whole situation.

Why did I think it was smart to come out? I was warned. I was warned and I didn't listen.

I couldn't believe this was happening to me now.

"Ryan"his voice was dark, low and dangerous.

I shivered involuntarily and I shut my eyes hoping he didn't see me shiver.

He sniffed the air again and sighed as if he was breathing it in. I swallowed nervously.

He liked the scent. No-he loved the scent.

I shifted in my seat, opening my eyes to look at the menu. I avoided his eyes and kept my attention on the menu as if it was the most interesting thing ever. I had already known what I was going to order. I could feel his eyes on me. His stare piercing through my skin.

"I can smell you"he growled lowly.

Hungry. He sounded hungry.

I ignored him. Well I tried to. I felt his eyes move over my face.

"You are killing me"he said like he was in pain and maybe he was.

"It's not my fault"I snapped, slapping the menu shut and slamming it to the table.

I thought this whole werewolf gig was fun and cool until this morning when I woke up feeling like my body was overheating. I was convinced that I was going to die right there and then. I was burning from the inside and I knew exactly what could stop the burn. I knew it because I woke up dreaming about him, wanting him, craving him.

We arrived back in redwood yesterday morning. We were waiting for our lawyers to speak to Max's social worker and Elizabeth so we can get the green light to meeting Max and bring him to redwood.

It was an annoying progress and I was half tempted to ask the guys to kidnap him but I don't want to traumatise the kid before I even met him.

The mechanic shop was understaffed so Cameron had to go back to work. I didn't want to disturb him when he was at work after taking so many days off because of me. I decided it was best not to call him because I knew when I did, he would drop everything and make his way home and I didn't want that to happen. I had already taken so much of his time with becoming a new wolf and finding out I had a brother so I did the next best thing. I rang Enzo.

It was the most awkward conversation I ever had. When I described to him what I was feeling the other line went silent. I thought he hang up but he was still on the phone to me. He told me I was in heat but didn't explain it to me what it meant to be in heat so I asked him to help me stop feeling the way I was feeling. What I didn't know was he was drinking his cup of coffee when I asked him that so not only burn his tongue but his throat. I was forced to listen to his choke and cough for a minute and I was tempted to hang up but I wanted to know what the hell was going on with me.

I knew Enzo felt really uncomfortable speaking to me about heat. Most of the things he was saying didn't make sense at all. He was trying to be a good friend and tell me what the hell was going on with my body but I could tell he wanted to hang up by how awkward he sounded. It was quite clear to me that this wasn't a normal thing to ask your male friend. It was like periods. You won't even have to finish the word before they are out of the door.

I was quickly deciding that coming out to meet Cameron for lunch was a bad idea. The only reason why I came out was because we decided to meet at the diner last night. He didn't want me to come out on my own until I got control of this whole werewolf thing but I told him I could handle it and he trusted me so he reluctantly gave in. We came to mama Jules diner, the same diner we had own first date in.