To the moon and back

He did

SOTD: LOVE ME LIKE YOU DO BY ELLIE GOULDING (IN TOTALLY UNRELATED NEWS, I HAVE TO WATCH FIFTY SHADES OF GREY SIMPLY BECAUSE OF JAMIE DORNAN AND NOT BECAUSE I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT THE MOVIE)

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I watched, with tears in my own eyes, as Seth clenched his jaw and rapidly wiped his face.

"Harper, don't you see it? This is history repeating itself; I'm him. I'm a no good, useless, idiot who has nothing to contribute to this world. I destroyed the future of the first girl I ever loved"

This was too much, I couldn't stomach it anymore.

"Are you...are you hiccuping?" Seth whispered staring at me with wide, red eyes.

I shook my head quickly and tried to silence myself, "I...hiccup...I hiccup when I....when I, when I cry"

There were no words that I could use to describe the pain in my heart at the look on Seth's face.

"The only father I ever even really had, died the moment I started loving him like one" he looked at me and held out his hand. I gently took it and allowed him to pull me beside him. Resting my head on his shoulder, I said the words that had been floating through my mind the entire time.

"You aren't him"

I felt Seth freeze beside me, "You're not useless. You're not a liar. You're not him. Seth, you are one of the sweetest human beings I could've ever asked to be able to call a friend. You welcomed me into your home, without even knowing me and treated me like you had known me for years. You never even asked for anything in return"

"It was the right thing to do" He grunted as if this were common knowledge.

"Seth, you're every girls dream guy. You're caring, funny, smart...and you watch the Carrie Diaries~"

"That was once!" He hissed giving me a glare, "I watched it once"

I grinned at his reaction, "If by once you mean the entire first season"

His eyes widened and he gulped, "No one was supposed to know about that"

"Well, I do...and I love it. Seth, if you keep going through life thinking you're no better than your father; you're going to end up no better than him"

"Well, I am my father's son"

"Does that make me my mother's daughter?" I whispered.

He fell silent in that moment, unsure of how to respond. I honestly didn't know what I expected him to say, either.

"What do I do, Harper?" He murmured into my hair a second later, "I love Trish so much"

"I'll tell you what not to do; don't be your father. You have the conscious ability to never let that happen and to be the man he can never say he was"

He pulled back from me just then and I feared that I had said the wrong thing.

"Harper...you're right"

I was about to ask him what he meant, when the elevator doors bleeped open and he peered out. Realizing that we were on the first floor, he ran out and waved at me as if that put my mind at ease.

What the heck?

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"Where the hell were you? I was so scared that that stupid 'Down the chute' thing had actually happened to you"

Of course, Andrew was the first person to yell at me for coming back perfectly fine.

Once Seth had run off like a mad man, I went back up to their apartment and hoped to talk to Trish to see where her mind was at.