Pictures in my head

I Dream to be Near You

July 2020, Seoul

"Good Morning Doc"

"Good Morning Jungkook, How have things been, any changes since the last time we spoke?"

"The dreams are still happening, and they are still perfect. But now I am having flashes in my mind when I am awake more frequently now, more than just Deja Vu. I see flashes of me at school, I'm guessing with my friends, unfortunately I don't remember them, but I'm sitting with them and laughing. The man in my dreams is there to, I cant see his face yet, but I know its him. Its so frustrating Doc, like having a huge hole in your life and in my heart and I cant fill it.

Flashback

Not sure of time, Seoul

"Hey Jungkook, did the drama club already talk to you about creating the music for their next production, not even here a week yet and your reputation proceeds you", a good looking red hair guy asked. I don't know his name but I see we are sitting at a table in the school cafeteria. "The guys I am sitting with all look really familiar I just cant remember names. "Look at all these girls, Jungkook, must be nice being the new kid." "Maybe we can finally get girlfriends with him around, he attracts girls like bees to honey." I don't notice all the girls surrounding us, I notice the black haired guy across the cafeteria , who is noticing me too. even though I cant see his facial features, I cant stop staring. The bell rings, I get up quickly and walk over to him, and he runs right into me. End Flashback

"Doc there is something else that has been bothering me. A couple weeks ago I was sick, I had a bought of the flu, when I went to the Doctor they gave me a flu shot and said its more effective in the butt cheek. So after they administered it the nurse told me to make sure I massage the area so that it spreads out and doesn't cause a lump, a couple days later the injection site really hurt, but it also triggered a memory. Around the time I stopped going to school, most likely when I started to lose my memory I remember having a pain just like the flu shot in my butt cheek. I remember it clearly actually because I had a small lump, it reminded me what the nurse said about massaging the area. The flu shot pain felt exactly like the pain I experienced back then."

"Jungkook, I want you to talk to your parents and your family doctor and find out if at that time you had any kind of vaccinations and were any administered in the buttocks." "It will be in your medical records, so make sure to get a copy for me, if they need permission have them call my secretary." "Okay how about you read me your journal entry."

Journal Entry #71

I was walking outside the studio today, just for some fresh air it seems lately I feel very claustrophobic, all I can think of is my dreams and the man my heart longs for and the daughter I am dying to know. I'm standing by the the little pond behind the building and there was a park across the way where a couple and their child were playing.

Flashback

Time and date unknown

I see myself pushing the man on the swing, I still cant see his face but I know its him by the way I am feeling. We are laughing, he jumps off the swing and chases me. I grab his waist and pull him down to the ground on top of me, I can feel his warm breath on my face, and I feel his lips on mine. God, he has the sweetest taste, I taste it on my lips sometimes when I am just sitting at my desk or laying in bed. He tells me he loves me, and this is the first time I have heard his voice clearly, its the most beautiful voice I have ever heard. End of flashback

Then my cell phone rings and breaks me out of the memory, I lick my lips and I swear I can taste him. That's when the tears always fall.

"The couple in the park triggered your memory, interesting." "We may be getting  closer than we think, Jungkook."