I was unable to focus the last few days since getting back. I did go to my lawyer to have him serve Nancy divorce papers. I wouldn't be able to look at her like I use to. I had to move on and I knew that but it didn't mean it didn't hurt though. Since being back I've cried everyday and I hate myself for it. Yolanda and Rachael called me. Even Evalyn called me but I just couldn't speak to anyone right now. I was still neglecting my job and I had to stop doing that or else I wouldn't have a job to go to so today I made appointments and called clients and forced myself to move on. I was at Starbucks getting me a coffee when I spotted Evalyn. Lord knew that I didn't want to talk but once she spotted me she begin making her way towards me I knew I had no chance at escaping. Damn why did she have to look so much like Nancy? I found myself fighting back tears. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. She stopped in front of me just as I opened them.
"How you doing girl?" She asked and I sighed again.
"That's a dumb question."
"You're right. I'm sorry. You go back to work yet?" I shook my head.
"I mean I'm making an attempt to move forward but the pain is still so fresh. And it doesn't help that you look just like her. I can't stand to look at you." I said looking away and she gave a small smile.
"Sorry girl."
"Its not your fault that your sister cheated on me." I shook my head. I didn't want to think about it but honestly this is all I thought about since the day it happened. Damn.
"You still considering counseling?" I pinched the bridge of my nose.
"Yes I'm making an appointment today. I don't think its gonna help the fact that I'm going crazy but I guess I'll give it a try."
"You're not going crazy. Your just hurt."
"Nancy was the only thing keeping me together. With everything we've been through. Counseling is my last chance to keep my sanity."
"Can I have a hug?" I walked into her arms and she hugged me tight. I didn't know how much I needed a hug until now. I needed something to help me keep my sanity. I just didn't know what that something was.
After saying my goodbye to Evalyn and meeting up with a client I went to the gym. I didn't have gym clothes but the sweat pants I had would do. I was there for about a good hour just pounding at the gym bag when a familiar face entered. It was Yolanda. I thought that she would be with Racheal today. I continued pounding at the bag as if I didn't see her. Of course once she seen me she begin making her way towards me. Leave me alone. Please. I thought to myself but of course she still came. I continued pounding the bag fighting my emotions. I was done crying. I was done crying. But as I thought that the tears came. She had the pity look on her face that she was good at. I sometimes thought the girl was just too nice. I didn't stop though. I continued pounding the bag. She stopped once she got to me and just watched.
"How you holding up?" Ignoring her I continued hitting the bag. I ignored the tears and the pain that was not only in my heart but also in my arm. It begin to hurt but I ignored it. I wanted to just disappear. I wanted people to just stop asking how I was doing. Couldn't they see the pain I was in? "Brandy?" I pound on the bag harder. "Brandy." Before I could react Yolanda was holding me. I must have blacked out. "Dammit." She helped me to a bench. "Have a seat."
"Dont ask me if I'm okay. You already know that I'm not." I said before she could open her mouth.
"Maybe you had enough of the gym for now." She said instead.
"Maybe you're right." I stood but grew dizzy.
"Easy. You need me to take you home?"
"No I'm good." She stood and grabbed my hand before I could walk away. "Yolanda please don't show pity to me."
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Love Deception and Obsession
RandomThis is the 3rd series to (Temporary Love) Brandy and Nancy has been through a hell of a lot over the past year. Brandy has dedicated her life on making her now wife Nancy the happiest women alive. Being that Nancy is no longer working and has yet t...