Bᴇɪɴɢ Mʀs. Jᴇᴏɴ

33- Grudge

•JUNGKOOK's

I used to like my dad when mom was still with us. He spent more of his time with us than our family's business. He used to make us smile and laugh with his humoristic side. He used to play with me and carry me at his back. He used to keep his promises to us.

He used to be. . .

I really idolized him that time, for me he's the greatest dad of all. He's my hero. I actually believed that he can beat Goku because he said so, well I'm still a kiddo that time, so easy to fool.  He fooled me. He fooled my mom. He fooled his own family.

"Listen Jungkook, you and mommy are more important than my life. I always love the both of you. If anything happens, just trust Daddy, okay? " He said after he read bedtime story for the 8-years-old me. Nagtataka ako kung bakit niya biglang sinabi iyon pero hindi ko na itinanong, he was just patting my head as he gave me a happy smile but sad eyes.

"Are you alright dad?"

"Yeah." He showed me his fearless smile. Bumungisngis ako, proud ako sa daddy ko kasi ningingitian niya lang ang mga problema.

May kumatok bigla sa pinto ng kwarto at iniluwa nito si Mommy na may dalang isang baso ng gatas.

"Mom!" Umupo ako sa kama out of excitement. This is one of my best moments of my life, magkasama kaming tatlo. Ibinigay ni Mommy ang gatas sakin at magiliw kong tinanggap iyon.

"Tapos na ang bedtime story? Anong binasa ni daddy sayo baby?" said by mom with her soft voice while she's caressing my hair.

Tinapos ko muna ang pag-inom, may gatas pa ako sa labi bago sumagot.

"Alibaba and the forty thieves! Masama nga po talagang magnakaw." I shared my thoughts. Napatingin si Mommy kay Daddy and they seem conversing through eye contact. Si Daddy ang unang nagbawi ng tingin, he looked down like he was guilty for something.

"Thats true baby. .never let your greediness conquer your heart." That was the last thing I heard before I driven to sleep.

Hating-gabi na nang nagising ako dahil sa naririnig kong sigawan sa ibaba, sila Mommy at Daddy. I'm not dumb to not notice that they're in bad terms lately but pretends that they're fine infront of me.

They were like this, every midnight after we visited the funeral of my ninong Eunwon. Hindi ko alam kung anong pinag-usapan nila nung isang babae doon sa lamay. Basta-basta nalang humagulhol si Mommy at hinila ako palabas. Umiiyak parin si Mommy habang nasa kotse kami hanggang sa nakauwi kami sa bahay. Doon na sila nagsimulang mag-away ni Daddy. Of course, masakit ang makita silang nag-aaway. Masakit kapag nakikita kong umiiyak si Mommy, knowing that she has a weak heart. But I couldn't do anything because I'm still a kid. All I did was crying 'til my wailing pacified them. Simula nun ay nagpapanggap nalang sila na maayos sa harap ko at nag-aaway tuwing tulog na ako, nagpanggap nalang din akong masaya kapag kasama sila at palihim na umiiyak tuwing gabi para hindi lumala pa ang sitwasyon namin.

That's why I'm very veteran in pretending. Naiisip ko nalang na talent yun na namana ko sa kanila. Hanggang sa dumating ang araw na pinagsisisihan ko.