Unmasked Deceit (Completed) [R-18]

31 : KGKAMPNAUSK

Kung ganito kasakit ang magparaya, paano na ang hindi umibig sa kaniya - Jules

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Kaetlyn Julianne

The voice of silence was all that I heard. His eyes were hurting. His lips speak of pain. And his heart is broken. It was never easy seeing him like this.

I stepped forward and hugged him.

" I'm sorry Miggy. I'm so sorry" Ulit ko ulit. I can feel his heartbeat. Ang lakas ang ang bilis ng pintig ng puso niya

Niyakap niya lang din ako habang wala paring imik. Napapikit na lamang ako. Hindi ko alam kung paano makipag-usap sa kaniya sa pagkakataong ito. Hindi ko alam kung paano ipaliwanag sa kaniya ang dahilan.

He had just proposed to me despite many unsolved problems. He knows it but he still did this. I've never expected him to propose to me. Estudayante palang kami. We are still a candidate for graduation soon. Shempre may mga pangarap din naman ako pagkatapos kong grumaduate. Tapos gusto niyang magpakasal agad kami? It's not that I don't like his idea. Sa parte ko lang ay sana inisip niya na masyado siyang mabilis. Nabigla ako, at iyun ang totoo. I've expected a surprise from him but not a marriage proposal.

" Miggy, ang kasal ay hindi naman mawawala diba? Hindi naman porket tinanggihan kita ngayon ay hindi ko na gustong magpakasal sa 'yo." I started to explain. Huminga ako ng malalim bago pinagpatuloy ang pagsasalita.

" Miggy maybe we need to take a break. Dahil kung patuloy natin 'tong papaunlakan ay pareho lang tayong masmasasaktan. Miggy let go. Let go of me so that I could breath. Dahil ang totoo Miggy, iyung pagmamahal na meron tayo ay nakakasakal na. It affects my freedom. You hold me too tight that I cannot breath for myself anymore" I told himwith honesty. I closed my eyes as I looked at him now with tears falling from his eyes.

" Jules ayoko" Umiling siya pagkasabi niyang iyon sa akin. Napayuko ako ng marinig iyon mula sa kaniya. I cupped his face and looked straight in his eyes.

" Miggy mahal kita. Mahal na mahal. Sana ay paniwalaan mo iyon. Buong buhay ko ibinigay ko sa 'yo. Miggy hayaan mo naman akong mahalin din ang sarili. Miggy ayokong dumating iyung araw na dahil tinanggap ko ang alok mong pagpapakasal ay pareho natin itong pagsisihan. All I need is time for myself. Miggy I hope you would give that to me." Pinahid ko ang mga luha mula sa aking mga mata at pinagpatuloy ang pagsasalita.

" Miggy I want you to love yourself too. Gusto kong marealize mo na iikot parin ang mundo kahit wala ako. We attached ourselves too much with other that we don't already care for the people that's around us. We don't seem to care that we hurt people along the way. Miggy, we love each other. And there's no doubt in that. But our love sometimes needs to breathe too. We must not possess each other because love is never a possession. It is never an obsession. Love is not a chain of control. Love is not a cage of ownership. Because love must be a mountain of freedom and an ocean of freewill. Miggy we need this. We both need freedom. Sana ay maintindihan mo" I said. I pulled him for a sweet kiss before leaving him.

I left him with a broken heart but I left him not because I want to turn my back on him but I left him because I love him.

MABIGAT ang loob kong umuwi sa bahay. Hindi ko alam pero ang sakit. Ang sakit din pala. Literal na parang nahihiwa ang puso ko dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Naabutan ko si mama na may ginagawa sa kuwarto nila ni papa at agad ko siyang niyakap.

" Oh iyung baby ko nanlalambing na naman" She said with a smile but her smile faded when she saw me crying.