Between Two Fires

^.^ Chapter 28 ^.^

"But it felt right...at least for me" I whisper.

His smile is sad and understanding, "I know." He curses. "And it did for me too." He assures. A relieved sigh escapes my lips and I smile for the first time since we had stopped. "But I won't take your virginity on a one night stand with alcohol running through you."

I open my mouth to protest the comment about the alcohol but he shakes his head. I give up because I know he might be right. Yes I was sure I wanted him but neither of us could be sure I wasn't influenced at all. 

"But - it put you off right?" Sadness laces my voice even though I try to seem neutral. He growls and in one swift motion, I am back to straddling him and he pushes me into him firmly, rubbing my clit right into his groin, making me whimper as he moans. It amazed me how smoothly he transitioned me to be where he wanted me.

"No - it only made me want you more..." His voice is husky and I can see how much it is paining him to hold himself back. His increased need for me matches my own need for him and I find it hard to hold myself back. I remember his earlier words about him being in control and I realise that the tables might have just turned.

"Really?" I ask, making my voice as innocent as possible as I grind my hips into him once more in a circular motion. He gasps and before I can register what he is doing, he has flipped us over so he is on-top pinning me to my sheets with his hand climbing dangerously up my thighs.

"Stop it Cyan! Or I swear I will make you regret it. I will tease you until you beg for me and leave you begging me to release you..." His menacing words make me speechless and leave me gasping for air. His expression is angry and hungry for more but he shoves himself off of me and across the room, getting as far from me as possible.

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I wake up to my phone vibrating on my night table. Rubbing my eyes, I stretch out blindly to pick up my phone and answer it. 

"Hello?"

"Hi Sweetie! How are you? Sorry I didn't call yesterday the time difference had me ready to call you too late" My mums sweet voice says down the line.

"Oh Hi mum! Sorry I just woke up.." I look at the clock and my eyes widen at the time. It was three in the afternoon and the sun was shining through my window yet I hadn't woken up. My body felt sore and cold and memories of last night begin to flash through my brain as my mum starts nagging me about being asleep till so late.

After Luca got off me last night he grabbed his shirt and told me he had to go before he lost control. We hadn't really talked about how to proceed from last night and the new day was beginning to bring a new sense of dread and regret.

How was I supposed to act? What happened now? It was supposed to be a one night stand but it didn't happen. So what happened next? 

My body starts to heat up as thoughts of his kisses flash through my brain and I fight to push them away. I put my hand to my neck where he had sucked and pulled at my skin and feel how sensitive it is. That had probably left a mark and he knew it. Damn.

How was I supposed to act normal around me after he had me begging him to take me last night and he refused me? As my mum spoke to me about my brother and how they were doing back home, the questions and memories instigated more and more dread and I run my hands down my face.

"Cyan? Are you listening?" My mom's voice brings me back to the present.

"Yes mum, sorry." I sigh. "I just really need to get up since I hadn't realised the time and I was out with Lea last night." I explain.