Between Two Fires

^.^ Chapter 28 ^.^

HIs hands distract me from the kiss as he strokes his way back up my legs and onto the bottom of my dress. Instead of taking it off as I'd expected, his right hand crawls up all the way until its my most sensitive spot. His fingers brush my clitoris over my lacy underwear making my body arch into his touch.

"Fuck, you are so sensitive." He runs his finger down and then does the same thing again a few times until I am putty in his hands.

"How could anyone not appreciate someone like you," His whisper is angry and I know he is referring to Seth. "I swear I will make you forget everyone you've ever been with before when you give yourself to me..." HIs husky words reach me to my core and I know I must be drawing blood from his shoulders with my nails.

"Y-you are the only one..." I finally breathe out. I know I've made a mistake the moment Luca freezes. His hand retreats and he places both hands on my hips. I whimper in disappointment but he doesn't bat an eye

"Y-your first what?" He pulls my face up to his and searches my eyes. I make sure to avoid his eyes.

"N-nothing. M-my first one-night s-stand." I stutter. I am a terrible liar and I know it. 

"D-didn't you and your ex?... You said you were together a long time?..." He moves me off of him and I feel my chest tighten.

I knew no one would want a virgin at this age. Suddenly, the hunger and the pleasure is gone turning into self-loathing and disappointment in myself.  I bring my knees to my chest, covering myself up and wrap my arms around my knees. 

"H-he didn't want me. We were supposed to wait a little but once we were together for a few months the problems started and I didn't want my first time to be with someone which was high or drunk.... so I refused him...." My voice is barely above a whisper.

Luca is now pacing in-front of me and I feel even more disappointed. I had successfully ruined the mood and I couldn't be less happy with myself than I was right now.

"Before him? No one?" He finally comes to a stop and sits beside me threading both hands in his hair. I just shake my head and wipe a couple of stray tears away, hoping he doesn't notice. However, I should have known he would.

"Wait - wait - why are you crying?" He sounds confused and concerned, surprising me as he bunches me up into his lap in a sort of baby cradle.

I hated crying in-front of other people.

"I-I'm not." My voice is shaky but I shake my head stubbornly in denial.

"You are..."

"Am not.."

"You are..."

"Not"

"See? Stubborn Senorita..." He whispers and I roll my eyes. He brings a finger under my chin and wipes away a couple of new stray tears from my cheeks. His concerned expression is genuine and I can't hold it in any longer. I sigh and bury my head into his shoulder, letting the tears flow. I hadn't cried in ages and it felt good to finally release the tears I'd been holding in. I didn't cry often but when I did, it was usually over the smaller things in life. Last time I had cried was years ago.

"I-its just. Y-you don't want me because I'm a disgusting virgin." I finally say through shaky breaths. The tears had eased a little thanks to Luca's patient calming circles on my back. His hand had constantly stroked me in a steady pattern helping me calm down. However when I say this his movements stop and he pushes me back so I am looking straight at him once again.

"Listen Cyan. That is not it. NOT AT ALL." He searches my eyes to make sure I believe him but I know he can tell I don't. He sighs and cups my face with his right hand. "Look. I just don't want your first night to be a one night stand on another womans bed. You haven't had sex and I obviously can tell you that it means you wanted it to be with the right person or atleast at the right time."