ANTI - Oscar Diaz

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"Yet here we are." I felt him sat next to me.

"To be fair. I thought Becky with the good hair was good company.  I wasn't expecting you to actually come."  I held the blunt in between my fingers.
I watched the ends as it burned.

"Well, Beckys are not half as worth it as Robyns."

I smirked
"Oh really. I thought you didn't like Robyns."

"I dont. But there's this one Robyn-"  he stated and i finally looked at him.

I don't know if it was the moonlight or the blunt but Oscar looked really delicious right now.

But i was going to fight it.

"What about that one Robyn."  I blew my smoke in his face.

He bit his lips and looked at me.

Fuck that was hot.

"That Robyn can do whatever she wants with me." He said lowly.

Fuck this was getting hard.

I looked away from him. 

I wanted to jump his bones right there.
I wanted it badly.

I couldn't help but start laughing.

"Fucking hell Robyn." I leaned on the railing behind me.

"Penny for your thoughts?"  He asked doing the same thing.

Our thighs touching.

"Penny for your thoughts? Is the british man out of you coming out tonight Ossie?"

Whenever he was high, Oscar developed a very british and a formal way of speaking.
It was always amusing.

"Ossie? It's been so long since anyone called me that."
He gazed lazily at me.
His eyes were red.
Lips plump.
I wanted to kiss him.

"I was the only one that called you that Oscar."

"You're the only one allowed to." 

After that we both fell silent.

It was comfortable. 
Nothing needed to be said.
We just wanted to enjoy the moment.

We were not at each other's throat.
No hate between us.
Tonight we were going to just chill.
Each of us waving our white flag. 

"You know, i ordered two idiots to watch over you when i was dealing with Prophet shit." He spoke.

I looked over at him. He was just staring off into the distance.
He looked deep in thought.

I didn't know that. It warmed my heart knowing that piece of information. 
I always thought he had forgotten about me. That he left me there all vulnerable and unprotected but he didnt. 

"I had no idea." I simply said.

"You weren't suppose to. But i couldn't just leave you all by yourself Robyn.
Yes Cesar is my blood. He's important
But you were too.
I couldn't live without you.....-"

"If i had to choose between you and Cesar. I would choose you in a hearbeat mi amor." 
My heart skipped a bit.

"Don't say that Oscar.  He's your brother. You're all his got."

"I know.  But i mean it. I don't think anyone realised how much you meant to me. When you left fuck i lost it.
I wanted to kill myself Robyn. Even if i had the boys around me, Even if i had Cesar around..none of them could fill the void you left..
You broke me."
His voice cracked..

I felt the tears running down my cheek..

"Oscar I'm sorry. I'm sorry you had to go through everything i put you through. 
There's not a day i didn't think about you.
When i say it was hard that i left without saying anything i meant it..
I didn't want to tell you because i know if you found out you would try talking me out of it..
And you could get me to do absolutely anything for you boy and I'd do it." I sniffed.

"I'd fucking take a million bullets for you Oscar Diaz."

"And I'd fucking die for you Robyn Tiller." He finally looked over again me..

He was crying to.
His hands reached up and held the side of my face i leaned into it.

"You're fucking beautiful hermosa."
There was so much love in his words and his eyes. 

"Nunca quise lastimarte como sé que lo he hecho. Tu amor significa más para mí que cualquier otra cosa. Las palabras no pueden comenzar a explicar cuánto te amo azúcar"
(I never meant to hurt you the way i know i have. Your love means more to me than anything. Words cannot begin to explain how much i love you sugar)

I let out a loud sob.

I was inlove with this man and nothing i do or say to myself can hide this fact.

"We can't be together though Oscar." I cried.

He leaned his forehead against mine

"I know, but we're not going to think about this right now Robyn."

"I just want you."

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Teared up a bit writing this ngl.
Whole chapter was wholesome ❤

My favourite chapter yet

Part Two of the Hangout chronicles read more for Part three.