Fool's Gold Book 1

Chapter 3

I wondered how difficult it'd be with Scott's blue eyes staring back at me. I wasn’t sure about telling him, and frankly I wasn't ready for him to hate me. I couldn’t help but feel gross for disappointing him in such a way. For possibly losing him. He was the one thing that made me happy.

The hot water was therapeutic. Heat running down my body as I stood with my hands placed on the wall in front of me. I'm surprised that Sophia hadn’t insisted on questioning me further. I grabbed the soap, but then he fluttered across my mind.

I was beginning to feel frustrated that I even allowed myself to think of him, though it was almost painful not to. I hastily stopped myself, taking a deep breath and washing away all memories of the night before.

The warmth of the shower soothed the marks of passion around the sides of my neck. I hadn't even bothered about looking in the mirror before getting in the shower. Fearful of what I might see. This stranger of a person I had suddenly become.

I turned off the water, pulling back the shower curtains as the steam filled the bathroom. I dried off, then quickly brushed my teeth and pull on the clothes she’d picked out for me. The deodorant, however i had to borrow. It was not my usual brand but it will have to do.

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“If you need anything, just call me okay.”

I stared up the driveway of my perfect house, mouth becoming dry again. I gave Sophia a small nod before unlocking the car door and walking towards the front door. I dug around through the bottom on my bag, feeling for my keys. I took them out, slowly unlocking the door and forcing it open. I looked back waving to her goodbye, mentally preparing myself for what came next.

Glancing down the hall on my way to the kitchen, I wondering if he’d heard me enter. My thoughts were answered as I heard his footsteps coming from up the stairs. “Alexandra?” he warily called. I walked forward to meet him.

“Are you alright? I was worried about you last night. Sophia said you weren’t feeling well.”

I was already overcome with guilt. Thinking too hard before speaking.

“Oh, no. I’m fine, I-I just had a few drinks to much, that is all.” My words came out awkwardly so I thought I should probably avoid conversation.

He came forward, placing a kiss on my forehead and looking down at me with those beautiful blue eyes as always. He was so handsome.

His hair slightly messy like he’d just gotten out of bed and fingered through it. I quickly maneuvered over to the refrigerator as casually as possible, in fear that he’d see the marks on my neck concealed by Sophia’s jacket.

“Are you sure, Alex? Do you need me to get you anything.”

I turned slightly, so now he was looking at me more sternly, but observantly this time. Eye contact with him now was harder than I’d thought it’d be.

“Scott. I’m fine.” And that was the end of that conversation. I brushed pass him and went upstairs, just to lay down for a little while.

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The day went by quickly. I laid on the bed staring up at the ceiling as I listened to the pattering of the water as Scott took a shower in the next room. I decided to wait a little longer before telling him anything. Though, I wasn’t sure how long, a little longer would be but it certainly wasn’t any time soon.

I turned on my side, playing with the ends of my hair when my phone began to vibrate on the nightstand. It could only be one of the girls, and I really didn’t feel like explaining myself while Scott was still in hearing range.

My friends were always really forward, demanding even, when it came to wanting details. I picked it up quickly, glancing at the screen in routine. My breath hitched a little as I stared in disbelief. It was Harry. He, must have placed his number within my phone while i was blacked out.

I really hadn’t expected this now. What exactly was there to say to him? I pondered what he’d want. But a sudden desire arose to hear the voice that made me weak, so decided to answer before I lost the nerve. I listened instead of speaking first, unsure of how I’d greet him. This was weird. I heard a deep chuckle on the other end, breaking our silence.

“Alexandra, I know your there” He sounded comfortable, as if this weren't our first call. It was the first I'd heard him say my name.

“Yes, I’m here.” I hadn't known what else to say. I’m assuming he realized this when he decided to lead the conversation.

“When can I see you again?” He seemed really forward with the way he spoke. My lack of exchange words prompted him to continue. “We didn’t exactly get a chance to... Talk.”

I felt it hard to respond, but feeling relief that he’d given me a chance to hear his voice again. I stayed quiet in hopes that he’d just hang up and just leave me to deal with the trouble that now hovered over my life with Scott.

“Is he there? Your boyfriend?” He spoke seriously. I hadn’t expect him to mention Scott. I was surprised at the causality of the question, so I held the phone tighter.

“Yes.” This was not right. I probably should have declined the call but I had a thirst for satisfying my own curiosity.

“Call me when he’s not around okay, love”

I sat up, staring at the bathroom door when I’d realized the water had stopped running.

“I have to go, I’m sorry.” I rushed through a whisper.

“Wait, no! Promise me. Don’t hang up until you promise me.”

I squeezed my eyes shut, taking in his plead. It was something I hadn’t experienced from him in our first meet, though I couldn't say the same. He sounded desperate.

All I could think about was what a bad person I’d become in the course of two days. Lying and deceitful. Two things I’d never been over the course of my life. But I’d be lying to myself if I said I wanted nothing to do with him. What in the hell was I getting myself into?

“I promise.” And the call ended.

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         OMG I'm already three chapters into this book. I love writing this book.

     Thank you for reading Xx.

                    -Shan